07-11-2025, 03:47 PM
Bernd
I still looked at the magazine, which I discovered in my son's room when I was putting things away. I still looked at this magazine and the naked man who smiled at me on the front page. Trembling, I went into the kitchen and sat down on one of the kitchen chairs.
“Can't it be my son, a FAG?” The word kept going through my mind. What am I going to do? What did I do wrong? I didn't even realize that tears were running down my face. My son a gay?..
Who could I talk to about this? Karin! Karin is my best friend and is a doctor, maybe she can help me! Like a drowning man, I staggered to the phone and dialed Karin's number.
On the other end, I heard the dial tone, then a click as the receiver was picked up.
“Hello, Karin Manske?”
“Hi, it's Bernd. Karin, I need to talk to you, I don't know what else to do.” Then I started crying.
Kevin
Man, what a day that was. Our math teacher Schrulle, that was his nickname, had tortured us for two hours again, and on top of that, we had gotten a new guy in our class. Oh man, he looked cute. Steven was his name and I was blown away.
I just arrived home and unlocked the door.
“Pa, hello, I'm back from the torture chamber.”
No answer, which was strange, as my dad would normally come running and ask me what our torturers had done to us.
Well, maybe he still had to go shopping, or there was trouble at work and he had to go back there. I went to my room and threw my backpack in the corner. Something was very wrong in my room.
I looked around my room warily. The laundry basket was gone and my closet was open. Oh no, the magazine. I had bought a gay newspaper and had hidden it in my clothes.
I ran to my closet in panic and felt under the shorts for the newspaper. My fingers felt the magazine, I breathed out relieved. Phew, lucky again. Then I went to get a bottle of coke from the kitchen. Somehow it looked like someone had left everything and fled from this chaos.
There must have been a lot of trouble at work for Pa. At least that was my thought when I saw the kitchen.
By the way, my name is Kevin, I'm 16 years old and I live alone with my father. My mom died 5 years ago in a car crash, since then my father raised me alone and we got along quite well.
Dad was my best friend all those years. But I also had my secrets and one of them was that I felt attracted to boys. I couldn't deal with it until now; I didn't trust my father to confide my feelings about it.
I was afraid of hurting him and as I had read on the internet, the outbursts of emotion when parents found out about their children were not always edifying. I started by cleaning up the kitchen, and I heard the front door open.
Bernd
Karin had time for me immediately and I made my way to her. She was my and Kevin's best friend. She helped us wherever she could and, to be honest, she was also my girlfriend.
Me and Karin had been together for over three years, we only told Kevin a year ago. He had already had enough to deal with, not having a mother, so I had kept my private life to a minimum.
Kevin was at the top of my list, and Karin was on the list quite a while later. She had always understood and accepted it, but a year ago she started pushing me to slowly move her up the list a bit.
I have to say that she has a daughter who also wanted to have a family again. Her name is Sabrina, she was the same age as Kevin and a nice girl. She and Kevin got along great and often spent the weekends together. A thought crossed my mind as to whether she knew about Kevin?
With these thoughts in mind, I arrived at Karin's apartment and pressed the doorbell. As if Karin had been standing behind the door, just waiting for it, she flung it open.
“Come in, Bernd!” She pulled me into the hallway and took me in her arms. I couldn't help it and started to cry again.
After I had calmed down a bit, my eyes wandered along the hallway. Karin probably understood immediately who I was looking for.
I sent Sabrina to you to check on Kevin and NO, I didn't tell her why.
She pulled me into the living room and pushed me onto the sofa.
So now tell me very slowly what's going on.
Karin, Kevin, he has... in his cupboard... I burst into tears again.
Now, slowly. What does Kevin have in his cupboard?
He has a gay magazine hidden in his closet. What should I do? What did I do wrong?
Tears ran down my face, and I looked at Karin imploringly, as if she were the oracle who could tell me how to cure Kevin.
“Bernd, if Kevin is gay, does that change the way you feel about him?”
No! I shook my head violently.
But why my son of all people and how should I deal with it? I can't!
First of all, Bernd, what's so bad if it were like that? Secondly, I don't understand your sentence: “I can't?”
Well, I won't be able to hold him in my arms like before, will I?
Why not? Is he going to be a different person just because he'll rather love a boy? Bernd, I always thought you were open-minded about the world and everything in it. We don't live in the Middle Ages anymore, do we, when the church wanted to wipe out this DISEASE.?
Karin looked at me and hugged me.
Bernd, you know that as a doctor I have seen and experienced a lot. At the moment I have a boy in therapy who is gay. He came out to his parents. Do you know what his father did when the boy told them?
I shook my head and looked at her questioningly.
The father beat him half to death and then dumped him on the street like a piece of garbage. If a few neighbors hadn't called the police, the boy would be dead now. He's now sixteen years old and living with a foster family. What can the boy do to stop him being gay?
Oh my God Karin, you don't think that I would do that to Kevin, do you? My voice almost choked as I squeezed out the words.
Karin looked at me and shook her head.
No, otherwise you wouldn't be sitting here talking to me about it. Bernd, I love you and I'm on your side, but I will intervene if you hurt Kevin.
I can't do that, Kevin is my everything. It's just that I don't know how to deal with it.
You shouldn't have to deal with it at all! It's up to Kevin to accept himself like that! You have to help him and continue to accept him as he is.
I slowly calmed down and nodded.
You're right. What should I do now?
First of all, it's important that you show Kevin that you don't have anything against gays.
And how? I must have had question marks all over my face.
Karin smiled at me.
“That's better, and that's how we'll approach it. First of all, when Kevin brings up the subject of homosexuality, you should try to say something positive about it. Kevin has to see that you're open to it and have no problems with it.”
“Yes, I'll probably do it that way.”
Then we talked for quite a while, and we also came to talk about the topic with the boy Karin was currently treating. What she asked me then was not so easy to answer. She wanted to take the boy in and since, as I understood it, we had enough space in the new house, that wouldn't be a problem. Yes, we planned to move in together in two weeks and we had bought the house together. Then I remembered that Kevin didn't even know about it yet.
Well, at first I wasn't so thrilled, but on the other hand, why not? The boy needed help and Karin wouldn't give in anyway.
After I nodded in agreement, she said, “I knew you wouldn't let me down. I love you, Bernd!”
Well, me and my big heart, what I had gotten myself into???!!!!
Kevin
?Hello, is anybody there??
I recognized Sabrina's voice and ran out of the kitchen into the hallway.
?Hi Sabrina, what are you doing here??
?I just wanted to see if my dearest Kevin is okay and how he feels!?
I had to smile. Sabrina was the only one I had told that I might like boys.
I'm fine, and you? I approached Sabrina and hugged her.
Oh man, stop it. Since my mom got this new one, she's hardly ever around and when she is, she only has one topic of conversation. Steven this and Steven that?
What's with this Steven guy?
Oh, he wasn't so lucky. His parents beat him half to death, as I understand it. Why, I don't know either. Anyway, he's now with a foster family.
Oh, and otherwise. How are our parents' preparations going? Have they already found an apartment where we can all live?
Sabrina laughed: “Yes, dear brother, they have. Say, hasn't your father told you anything yet?”
I shook my head: “No, he hasn't. But we've hardly seen each other this week either. He must be under a lot of stress at work.”
Sabrina nodded and we went into the kitchen together.
“Tell me, what does it look like here?”
“Yes, I know. When I came home, Dad wasn't there and the kitchen already looked like this.”
Well then, let's get it organized and then you can tell me if you've seen a nice boy?” she beamed at me.
We started by cleaning up the kitchen. When we were done, we went to my room and I told her about the new guy in our class.
I must have been beaming quite a bit, because Sabrina then said to me: “It seems like someone has really fallen for him.” What's his name?
“Ehhhmmm, Steven. Say, the boy your mother was talking about, wasn't his name Steven too?”
Sabrina nodded: “But that would be a big coincidence if it was the same Steven!” “Have you been writing with Crash again?”
Nah, he hasn't been online for a while. But maybe he'll be in the chat again today.
I met Crash in a forum, he never told me his real name. We'd been writing to each other for over half a year. Crash is gay and wanted to tell his parents, that was the last time I heard from him. Since then, there had been radio silence and I didn't know how his outing had gone.
Sadly, I shook my head: 'Sabrina, I just hope that everything went well for him!
How long has it actually been since he last got in touch?
I think it's been nine weeks now.
Sadly, I looked out of the window. Crash had become a person to whom I had confided everything about me. And now he hadn't contacted me for almost nine weeks.
“Hey Kevin will be fine. He'll definitely contact you, you'll see!” Sabrina looked at me encouragingly.
I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. From one second to the next, I started crying.
I miss him so much and he always encouraged me to stand by my homosexuality. Me?
Sabrina hugged me: “Shh, Kevin, everything will be fine. You'll see, he'll get in touch and besides, I'm still here too. I couldn't have wished for a better brother than you, Kevin. It's just a shame that a sweet guy like you likes boys.”
At these words, we both started giggling and then we laughed. Sabrina was just wonderful. She always knew how to make me laugh.
So what are we going to do today? After all, tomorrow is Saturday and that means we can sleep in, right?
I thought we'd go to the Mecca, there's supposed to be a really good DJ mixing music there today, I said.
Well then it's a date. Oops, it's so late, I'll have to hurry. Will you pick me up then?
Sure, Sabrina, I'll be at your place at 7:00 p.m.
Bernd
Now I was on my way home. The conversation with Karin had done me good. I now saw the whole thing from a different perspective and what was even more important to me was that I didn't want to be like these parents of the boy Karin was currently treating. Just thinking about it made me feel an irrepressible rage. With these thoughts, I stormed up the stairs to our apartment.
“Kevin's back!”
Kevin's door opened and my son beamed at me.
“Where were you?” he asked.
“I was at Karin's, we still had a lot to talk about.”
“Oh, so that's why you leave the kitchen as if a bomb had hit it. That must have been extremely important?”
Yes, my son did it! And what are you going to do today? As far as I know, today is Friday!?
I'm going to Mecca with Sabrina!?
I thought so! Oh, Kevin?? I approached him: We have found a new home for the four of us!?
Oh, is that something completely new! I thought I wouldn't find out at all. Or only when I was standing in front of an empty, cleared-out apartment?
Sorry, I completely forgot, boy!
That's okay. Sabrina told me.
Sabrina was here? I had to play dumb, otherwise Kevin might have smelled a rat.
Jops, my favorite sister was here! And where are we going to live next?
Not even far from here and it's not an apartment, but a house?
Wow, can we afford something like that?
Sure, son, and it's all in the bag already!
Kevin beamed even more and I couldn't help but go up to him and hug him.
Kevin, I love you so much, no matter what happens!?
Hey Dad, what's up with you?
Nothing, I just wanted to say it. You are the most important thing in the world to me and that includes you being happy.
Dad, if you haven't realized it yet, then here's some help: I love you just as much and I'm happy to have you as my father!
I pressed him even closer to me and a few tears stole into my eyes. Oh God, how I loved him, my son Kevin.
Now hurry up, Sabrina is bound to be waiting for you!
Kevin nodded and disappeared back into his room. I then went to the kitchen to tidy up, but as I discovered, someone else had already been busy there.
“And can I go like this?“ came from behind me.
I turned around to the voice and saw Kevin standing in the kitchen door.
“Wow, who are you, young man?”
Kevin had to laugh and I joined in.
“And...?” Kevin turned around in circles.
“You look great, Kevin.“ ‘Here?’ I had taken my wallet in my hand and took out a fifty and gave it to him.
“Thanks!” With that, he jumped to the wardrobe and took off his jacket.
“See you, Dad, maybe I'll sleep at Sabrina's?”
No problem, Karin wanted to come here anyway. I called after him before the front door slammed shut.
Kevin
I still wonder what was up with my father today. He knows that I love him. Strange, I went to Sabrina's with these thoughts. When I arrived at her place, I rang the doorbell.
“Hi Kevin, tell me, why are you ringing the bell or have you forgotten your key at home?”
Karin looked at me and laughed.
I shook my head: “I've forgotten again that I have one of those things from your apartment!” But tell me Karin, Dad said you found a house for us?”
Yes we do, Kevin, and if your father has forgotten when the moving day is, it's in two weeks time!
Oh yes, great, then I'll see you every day! and with that I jumped at Karin's neck and hugged her.
Karin had to laugh and hugged me back.
Hey, what's going on here!? came from behind us, it was Sabrina.
“Dear, that's called a little family cuddle!“ Karin replied with a laugh.
“Can I join in?” Sabrina snorted.
Without waiting for an answer, she wrapped her arms around both of us.
“So guys, I still have work to do and before you disappear, I wanted to talk to you briefly.” Karin let go of us and went into her study.
I looked questioningly at Sabrina, but she just shrugged her shoulders. So we both followed Karin, with a big question mark on our foreheads.
“What did you want to discuss with us?” Sabrina asked, looking questioningly at her mother.
Sabrina, Kevin, I'm currently treating a boy and he has no one to take care of him. I really like him and wanted to take him in with us. Bernd agrees, but I don't know what you think about him moving into our new home with us!
Sabrina looked at me and I looked at her, and we couldn't help but grin.
Well, as long as he behaves himself and doesn't mess up, we're fine with it! Sabrina spoke for us.
OK, he's coming today and will sleep in the guest room. I would be happy if you could also take him with you to your evening event! Karin looked relieved at us.
And where should I sleep then? I asked.
“I made the couch in the guest room for you! I hope you don't mind sharing the room with Steven tonight?
“No, I don't mind!” As long as he looks cute, I don't care, it crossed my mind. As if Sabrina could read my mind, she jabbed me in the side with her elbow.
Ouch..., eh Karin could ask me what was going on, it rang at the apartment door.
Karin raced past us to the apartment door, from where we heard voices shortly afterwards.
Steven
Now I was standing here in front of Karin's apartment door. I still couldn't believe that she wanted to include me in her family. She had told me that she and her partner Bernd and his son and daughter wanted to move into a house together.
I had my doubts about including a GAY man in her family, but Karin just waved them aside. That's not a problem and believe me, Kevin and Sabrina will be happy to meet you. The words still sounded in my ears.
What did I have to lose? It couldn't get any worse than it was now. With these thoughts in mind, I now stood at their door with my few belongings, with Ms. Stahnke from the youth welfare office standing next to me and looking encouragingly at me.
You'll see, everything will be fine! Karin is the best person for you to be with.
Ms. Stahnke pressed the doorbell and we heard footsteps approaching the door. The door was flung open and Karin stood before me.
There you are! Kevin and Sabrina are already waiting. Karin said to me, then she turned to Ms. Stahnke.
“Well Christel, did everything go all right?”
“Yes, it was not even that hard to convince my boss that it was the best thing for Steven. So here are his things and if you need anything, just call me. I'm in a hurry, I have an important appointment!” With that she said goodbye to us and disappeared.
I was still standing rooted to the spot at the door.
“Well then come in.”
I bent down and took my suitcase and my backpack in my hands and followed Karin into the apartment.
“Sabrina, Kevin this is Steven!”
I could only see Sabrina, but she nodded at me in a friendly way and came towards me.
“Hi Steven, come on I'll show you your room where you'll be sleeping for now,” she took the suitcase out of my hands.
Well then kids, I'll disappear into my study, I still have some work to do. Oh, before I forget, I'll be spending the night with your father Kevin.
Yes, that's fine. Dad has already told me.
Oh yes, there was someone else. I wonder what Kevin looks like.
As if Karin had sensed my question, she revealed the view of Kevin and then I saw him.
Oh shit, that was the Kevin from my new class and he looked at me just as horrified.
“Hi... Steven?“ came quietly from Kevin.
“Hi Kevin, I think I'll go again?” turned around and was already on the way to the door.
“Steven, please stay, I'm really happy that you're going to live with us. Besides, we don't really know each other, and Sabrina and I would like to get to know you.“ Kevin replied.
“Kevin, I think that if you knew everything about me, you wouldn't say that anymore!” Tears slowly gathered in my eyes.
Why would you say something like that? Come on, give us a chance!
Well, actually Kevin was right, so why shouldn't I give them a chance to get to know me and vice versa? But there was still a BIG problem for me and this problem was called Kevin.
I had already noticed him at school today and I had butterflies in my stomach as soon as I saw him. On the other hand, the way Kevin looked and behaved, he was more than one hundred percent heterosexual and if he found out that I was gay, what would he do to me? Maybe the same as my father?
I turned around again and looked at Kevin, wiping the tears from my face. No, the way Kevin looked at me, he would never react like my father. There was something in Kevin's eyes that held me captive.
“Well come on Steven? I mean, I'm happy? hmm?“, Kevin stammered in my direction. Something told me that Kevin wanted to say a lot more, but didn't dare.
“Why not, so then show me the room!” I said tentatively.
“Kevin, Steven says where are you? We still want to go to the disco! Now come on?”
Kevin grinned in my direction: “You'll have to get used to that, when Sabrina calls, we have to obey. Oh, so you're coming to the disco with us, right?
Well, sure, if you want me to come!
Well, then everything's settled.”
I followed Kevin and then we stood in the room that was to be mine for the time being.
Oh, Steven, Kevin will sleep here tonight in the room on the couch! That doesn't bother you, does it? Sabrina looked at me questioningly.
No, no problem. So what should I wear?
Well, show me what you have!
I opened my suitcase and rummaged around a bit, pulling out a pair of black jeans and a white shirt.
“Will that work?“ I pointed to the clothes.
“Sure, it'll look great with your black hair!” Kevin said, and when I looked at him questioningly, he even blushed. Oh man, that was cute, but on the other hand I didn't know what to think of it. Well, anyway, the main thing was that he liked it.
“So where's the bathroom?”
“What?”
Man Kevin, Steven just asked where the bathroom is!“ came the laughing reply from Sabrina.
“Yes? Um, which bathroom was it again? Oh yes, it's right across from your room!”
Kevin looked hilarious, the redness on his face even surpassing the color of a ripe tomato.
“Thanks, I'll go freshen up!” and I winked at Kevin.
Sabrina
If I understood it right, Kevin had been hit hard, but Steven looked exactly the same. Steven had disappeared into the bathroom and Kevin was still standing in the room as if he had been struck by lightning.
“Hey Kevin, come with me to my room, I don't think you've told me everything yet!”
I went ahead and Kevin followed me to my room. After I closed the door, I looked at Kevin.
“Tell me, what was the matter with you? If I didn't know better, I would say you have a crush on him?”
“Oh, Sabrina, as soon as he entered the classroom today, I had a crush on him. I don't know what to do?”
? Hey, calm down Kevin, the way Steven reacted, it wasn't uncomfortable for him. I would even say he has a crush on you too.
Kevin
I looked at Sabrina, concerned: “Was it really that obvious?
Your skin color on your face spoke volumes. But now come on, Steven is probably already done in the bathroom!
Yes, you're right, I'll go and see Steven. So I left Sabrina's room and made my way to Steven.
When I entered the room, Steven was already standing in the room in full gear.
“Well, shall we go?” His eyes sparkled at me.
He looked good and the clothes looked really cool on him.
“Yes, if you're ready, then we can go!” I wondered what had come over me.
I went back to the room door: ‘Sabrina, we're ready to go. Steven's ready.”
“Great, let's go!’ she replied.
Then we set off. Karin also gave us some money.
Guys, before I forget, I'll be staying at Bernd's, so don't be back too late. You'll be home by midnight at the latest. Oh, and about breakfast, everything's in the fridge, so don't wait up for us tomorrow, help yourselves.
Yes, mom, we will, all right. So let's go, I want to dance,” said Sabrina, and she led the way, followed by me and Steven.
Kevin
It was a great evening, the three of us danced like crazy, and then, I think Sabrina got it. Marcus, one of my classmates, was there and spent the whole evening gazing at Sabrina.
During a slow dance, they were dancing quite close together. MMMhhh... love must be beautiful, I thought, looking sideways at Steven, who had been smiling the whole evening.
“Hey Steven, this is a really great evening, isn't it?”
Steven beamed at me and nodded: “It's really fun with you guys. I was afraid that you were a total macho, but I guess I was wrong.”
“Don't worry, Steven, I'm just a normal guy and like everyone I have my dreams and desires.” As I said this, I looked Steven in the eye for quite a long time.
I would have loved to go to him and take him in my arms. But something held me back, for one thing the fear of what he would say if he realized that I was gay. Yes, I finally accepted that day what I had not wanted to accept until then. But since I had seen Steven, all my resolutions had been thrown overboard anyway.
Guys, we have to be home by noon, we promised.
Sabrina was standing in front of us beaming, and as expected, Marcus was at her side.
The four of us left. Marcus walked next to Sabrina and held her hand. I must have looked pretty sad at these hands, because suddenly a hand slid into mine and held it very tightly.
I looked at Steven from the side, but he was looking straight ahead and beaming. So I looked ahead too and a smile spread across my face. Steven was awesome.
Steven
That was a great evening. Kevin was awesome and the way he moved to the music. An angel was nothing in comparison. But the way he kept looking at me, somehow strange. I couldn't describe it any other way. What was wrong with him all of a sudden, so shy and reserved before and now as if he accepted something, that he was, or what he was.
BUT WHAT WAS HE????
When we went home and I saw the way he looked at Sabrina and then at Marcus and Sabrina's hands, I knew what he was missing. Well, why not, and brave as I was, I pushed my hand into his. Wow, he held on tight and looked at me from the side. I can't tell you how happy I was at that moment.
Yes, if someone should ask me whether I like Kevin, then I would have answered yes.
But to whom should I answer this question? To whom?
We had hardly arrived at Sabrina's house when Marcus said goodbye to Sabrina and us and just said, “You're cool people.”
We then went inside and Sabrina wished us a good night.
Kevin stood in the room with a look that only made me sad!
“Hey Kevin, what's up with you? It was a great evening, wasn't it?
“Yes?” came from him hesitantly, and then he said that he was totally tired.
That meant it was time for bed.
Kevin
The evening at the disco was amazing and then Steven, how he had pressed his hand into mine, on the way home. I couldn't describe what was going on inside me. Then we were standing in our room at some point and I was totally tired.
“Phew, but now off to bed, I'm totally tired.” Steven looked at me and smiled.
“Well then, sleep well.”
We undressed and Steven went to his bed and I crawled onto the couch. Sometime during the night, I woke up from a terrible nightmare. Something screamed terribly and in my dream I saw a huge creature coming towards me.
What kind of screeching is that? It doesn't stop. Only then did I slowly realize that the noises were coming from Steven. You had to have a crazy dream, so I got up and walked over to his bed.
“Steven, wake up, it's just a nightmare.”
I shook him like a broom.
What, where, how? Oh my God, Kevin, is that you?
I think so, since there's no one in the room but me and you. Man, you screamed like a whole bunch of monsters were after you.
Only now did I realize that Steven was shaking all over.
Are you okay?
Yeah, I think so. Would you sleep with me? I'm so scared.
? Mmmhh well, if it helps and I can get a few hours of sleep, go ahead. Slide over.
Steven slid a little to the side and I lay down next to him.
Kevin, I'm sorry, but... Steven started to cry next to me.
Carefully, I slid a little closer to him and took him in my arms.
“Take it easy, I'm here with you. You'll see, everything will be fine again.”
“No, not everything will be fine, but it will be better.” ”Kevin, I'm so glad I can stay with you.”
“So come to sleep now, and tomorrow we'll think about what else we can do.”
“Mmmhh, Kevin, I have you gladly.”
Steven, I love you too!” After that I must have fallen asleep, because the next time I woke up, something was pressing on my chest.
Since it was already light, I could see a dark blond head of hair lying on top of me. Two arms were wrapped around my body, holding me tight. It was a strange feeling to be held by Steven in his arms and as I realized it, someone else liked it even better, because in my lower regions something began to stir.
Oh shit, I had to somehow get out of this bed and away from Steven. If he realizes what he triggers in me, I don't even want to think about it. What am I doing? With these thoughts, Steven stirred and mumbled something.
His arms let go of me briefly, so I could push him carefully to the side and then slip out of bed.
As soon as I was out of bed, I walked as quietly as I could to the door. Just as I was about to open the door, I heard Steven.
“Morning Kevin, where are you going? It's only eight o'clock.”
I need to go for little boys! I looked down at the bulge in my pants.
I have to get out of here, everything in me screamed and I opened the door and ran to the bathroom door. After I had locked myself in the bathroom, I took a deep breath.
Oh man, that was probably the last proof that I'm definitely gay.
Suddenly there was a knock on the bathroom door: “Hello, whoever's in there, I really need to go to the bathroom!”
I recognized Sabrina's voice.
“Just a moment, I'll be ready in a minute.” I looked down at myself again.
Thank God the bump was gone and now I really had to go quickly for little boys. So I hurried and shortly thereafter I opened the bathroom door.
“Good morning, Sabrina, I'll go to the kitchen and prepare breakfast.
Sabrina looked at me with wide eyes: “Tell me, what's the matter with you? Otherwise you sleep until the dolls!
My dear Sabrina, I also have phases in which I get up early on weekends and today is one of those days! Grinning, I walked past her towards the kitchen.
Once there, I first checked to see what we had. I threw the rolls into the oven and then I put on a large pot of coffee.
“Morning?” It came from behind me and I dropped the plate I had just taken out of the cupboard.
Well, that was a plate with those thoughts on it, I turned to the voice: ”Morning Steven, since you're already here, could you please hand me the dustpan and brush?”
“Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.”
But you did, next time make a bit more noise before you come into a room! Otherwise you might as well call an ambulance first, I had to grin at that and the corners of Steven's mouth twitched too and then we started laughing.
What's going on here? Can I laugh too?
Nah Sabrina, you wouldn't understand the joke anyway!
Have I missed something?
No, Sabrina, and now come on Steven, off to the bathroom. Breakfast is almost ready.
Steven then also disappeared and Sabrina helped me set the kitchen table.
A short time later we were sitting at breakfast and chatting about the previous evening.
Say, Sabrina, when are you meeting up with Marco again?
Well, Kevin, I can answer that for you: today. We want to go to the movies and see the third part of Bourne Identity.
Wow, I wanted to see that too. Can I come with Steven?
If it's okay with you, I think it's fine.
Oh man, we won't bother you, what do you think Steven?
No, definitely not, I wanted to see it too!”, came from Steven.
“Well then, we know what we're doing today!”
Bernd
I was just about to prepare breakfast in the kitchen when Karin came up behind me and put her arms around me.
“Well my sweetheart, I see I'm not needed here. I'll quickly go take a shower and then I'll be a bit more alert. I hope so!”
A little later, we were sitting at breakfast and planning our move.
“And Bernd, have you processed what happened with Kevin?”
I nodded: “As you said so beautifully yesterday, not much is going to change. Except that I won't have any grandchildren and that I'll have a son instead of a daughter-in-law. The only thing I'm worried about is what the kids at school will do to Kevin when they find out he's gay.
My God, Bernd, it's not that far yet, and if it is, we'll both be there for him and I think Steven and Sabrina will stand by him too. Although that won't be hard for Steven.
By the way, now that you mention Steven, when will I meet him?
Today! He already moved in with us yesterday.
You didn't tell me that! Well, I'm looking forward to it!?
Come on Bernd, we have to check on our little rascals. Knowing them, they're probably still in bed!?
After we had cleaned up the kitchen, we went to Karin's apartment. The first one we met was Kevin. What I noticed immediately was that he was laughing and seemed like a different person. Karin and I exchanged a quick glance. Karin had also noticed that Kevin seemed happier.
After the whole bunch had gathered in the living room, I was introduced to Steven. At first he was very reserved towards me. He made a good impression on me and since I knew from Karin what had happened to him, I had expected more of a psychological strain.
That wasn't the case at all. The only thing I noticed was the way Steven looked at Kevin when he thought he wasn't being watched. I didn't want to read too much into it, but it looked like Kevin had a suitor.
Well, great, and I had hoped that I could make friends with the one first, but it looked as if the first suitor-to-be was standing in front of me. Although this Steven didn't look so bad. My God, now I'm already beginning to assess the future suitors to see if they are good enough for my Kevin.
Steven
It was just great after I met Kevin's father and he was really funny. You could tell that he played an important role in Kevin's life and that he loved him more than anything.
I looked at Kevin from the side, he was talking about yesterday and beamed all over his face. I had to think about this morning, a smile flitted across my face. I woke up earlier than Kevin and he was lying on his back next to me, fast asleep.
Well, I took advantage of the situation a bit and laid my head on his chest and wrapped my hands around his upper body. So I fell asleep again. Anyway, I woke up when Kevin tried to get out of bed carefully.
After he had managed to get out of bed, I looked briefly at his shorts and what did I see. Kevin had a huge bulge in the lower region. Well, maybe I have a chance with him after all, because I like him more and more, his brown hair and those brown eyes that shine like a pair of stars when he laughs.
I suddenly felt that someone was looking at me, and when I raised my eyes a little, I saw Kevin's father's eyes. As if he knew something, at least he smiled knowingly at me.
“Well Steven, how did you like the first day?” Bernd also asked.
“It was just great and I think it's really great that you want to give me a chance here?
Kevin, Karin told me about you and what you've been through and I'm happy to welcome you to our little family.” With that, Bernd stood up and came over to me.
I winced a little when he hugged me. He must have noticed it because he whispered to me: 'Steven, you don't need to be afraid, I will stand behind you just like a good friend. Welcome!
Wow, I couldn't say anything and started to cry, but this time because I was happy again for the first time in a long time. Everyone stood up and Kevin said something that day that I will never forget.
The words were, “I love you very much and in the short time we've known each other, you've become more than a brother to me.”
Whatever was behind the sentence, I hoped that I had heard what I hoped to hear, namely that he LOVED me.
Kevin
Two weeks had now passed and today the big move was planned. In the last two weeks I had got to know Steven even better and what was best, he could laugh again and really laugh.
When I stayed overnight at Karin's, it became a ritual that I slept in Steven's bed. This rascal took full advantage of that. Every morning he lay on top of me and I had to see how I could cope with my big problem when waking up.
Well, at least he hadn't noticed anything so far. My father was also kind of weird, whenever he heard or saw something negative about gays and lesbians, he would get excited and rant about this society and its stupid attitudes towards the subject.
Well, on the one hand I thought it was great and slowly I got the courage to tell him about my feelings.
“Kevin, would you come please, the movers are finally here!”
“Yes, Dad, I'm coming.”
Man, it was going to be one of those days, but who was standing there in the hallway?
“Steven, what are you doing here?”
“Well, I'm done packing my few things and Karin thought I could help out a little here?”
Of course you can help. I'm not even finished packing my things.
Well then, off to your room.
Kevin, I thought you were already finished with yours! my father said reproachfully.
Yes, sorry, but you know Kevin and his orderliness!
Dad had to laugh: “Go to your room and finish packing your things.”
“Yes, yes?” With these words, I sped to my room.
“Steven, I'm here, can we start?”
I saw Steven sitting at my desk with a piece of paper in his hand. He didn't react at all and looked hypnotized at the sheet.
“Steven, hi, I'm here!”
Startled, he looked up and met my eyes.
“Kevin, is your chat name when you're on the internet Kev16?”
“Why? Yes it is, why do you want to know?”
“Well, my name in chat is CRASH.”
“DDDD?uuuuu are CRASH?”
He nodded and stood up: “Yes, that's me! How I always wished to be opposite this Kev16 and chat with him in person and now I realize that this Kev16 is YOU.”
Somehow that was a bit too much for me and I sat down on the floor. Ohh, what am I going to do now? I knew one thing for sure, namely why Crash hadn't been in the chat anymore.
“Kevin, are you okay?”
I felt Steven gently take me in his arms.
Steven, Crash, do you actually know how much you mean to me? I waited every day for Crash to show up in the chat and tell me how his outing went. But there was no sign of him, of you!?
Sorry, now you know how it turned out! It was SHIT! Steven said quietly.
“Oh man, now you know everything about me, except for one thing: I have pretty strong feelings for you,” I replied just as quietly.
“Hey, I know that, the bulge in your shorts when you got up in the morning spoke for itself. Besides, haven't you ever wondered why I was always lying so close to you in the morning?”
I looked up, shocked: “You little scoundrel, you've been...?”
“Yes I have, and I enjoyed it when you slept with me at the weekend!?”
Well, you little beast, I turned to Steven and pressed my lips to his. Wow, what a feeling. Suddenly I felt Steven's tongue on my lips and as if I had only been waiting for it, I opened my lips.
I can no longer say for sure how long we sat on the floor exploring each other's mouths with our tongues.
In any case, we were so absorbed in our exploration that we didn't notice my father standing in the room.
“HMMMM... Boys, when you're done with that, could you please continue packing?”
Oh my God!
We jumped apart and I looked at my father in horror.
But he just smiled at me and then said dryly in my direction: “And Kevin, to tell me that you like boys, you didn't have to show me this in action. I would have been happy if you had just told me. But it looks like I'll have a son-in-law from now on!?
With these words, he left my room and I looked after him speechlessly. Yes, my voice had given up the service, at least at that moment.?
Hmm, Kevin, tell me, did your father suspect anything about your affection?
I just shrugged my shoulders, because my speech organ was still on strike.
“Hey, I think you should probably go to your father and talk to him?”
In response, I just nodded and got up slowly.
“Ok, I'll pack up here and you go to your father now?”
So I made my way to my father to finally do what I had been planning to do all along.
Bernd
Well, that was now clear, on what or whom my son was sexually. Well, I was a bit shocked. When had a straight man ever had the pleasure of catching two guys kissing? Fortunately, Karin had given me some literature to help me deal with this topic, and it probably helped me to have NO PROBLEM with it.
So now I was standing in the kitchen and started to put the chairs together for the movers.
“Dad? Do you have a minute for me? I have something to tell you!” It was my somewhat dejected son standing at the kitchen door, staring at the floor.
When I saw him standing there like that, I couldn't help but go up to him and take him in my arms.
“Kevin, you don't have to explain anything to me! I'm happy for you. The only thing that makes me a little sad is that you didn't tell me long ago. We don't have any secrets, do we?
Dad, you can't compare this to things like school grades and stuff, this is about something that not everyone can accept. It took me time to accept myself.?
?Hm, I think my son has grown up with this and no longer needs his father!? I stated dryly and with a little melancholy.
Nonsense, I've needed you all my life. You've always been there for me and I want it to stay that way.
After that, we held each other and said nothing. We each had our own thoughts and I realized that I will always be there for these two goofballs and support them.
Can I interrupt for a moment?
Yes Steven, you may!” came from both of us almost at the same time, and then Kevin and I had to laugh at the bewildered look on Steven's face.
The expression on Steven's face was just too funny.
“Can you please come back to your room and help with the packing? Otherwise we'll never be finished today.”
“Now come on, Kevin!” And then I looked at Steven: ‘So, young man, you'll pay special attention to my son, otherwise there'll be trouble with me!”
“Yes sir, I understand!’ came the reply from Steven.
Then both ran in the direction of Kevin's room.
Steven
Well, the move was already three weeks behind us. After it was clear to everyone that Kevin and I were a couple, we were given a room together with our own bathroom. Sabrina was still with Marco and when he found out that we were together, he thought it was cool and was happy for us.
Karin and Bernd took care of me as if I had always lived with them. My own parents had separated, as I learned from Karin. My mother wanted to get back in touch with me, but I wasn't ready for that.
Not after what they had done to me. I looked at Kevin, who was lying on the bed and seemed to have fallen asleep. I loved this guy more than anything, and oh yes, Crash had turned up in the chat again and told us about his Kevin.
Bernd
Karin and I were sitting on the couch in the living room drinking wine.
“Well Bernd, you look really happy!”
“I am. I have you and that's something I'm happy about. Well, and then there's this gang of rascals that are jumping around on our heads.”
Karin had to laugh, but then she became serious.
“Bernd?
Yes Karin?
I still have something to tell you. She looked at me.
Yes, what do you want to tell me?
So, there are five of us living here now. Could you imagine taking in a sixth member of our family?
“I beg your pardon, not another foster child?” I groaned.
No, it will take about six months before this person will move in with us!
What, I looked at her aghast: But we're already over forty!
So what, but someone finally has a reason to propose to me! she replied snappishly.
Only now did I really realize what Karin was telling me.
I don't even know what to say!
“Well, just ask her already!” came from the living room door in unison.
Sabrina, Kevin and Steven were standing there grinning at us.
“How did you know that Karin is pregnant?”
“Yes, my dear, I had left my pregnancy ID on the kitchen table and as you can imagine, our beloved daughter found it.”
Well then there is only one thing left for me to do! I stood up and knelt down in front of Karin: Will you marry me?
Kevin
Man, that was really a bit cheesy, typical adults. But somehow also sweet. Before I say goodbye to you at this point, I would like to briefly summarize what happened next.
Six months later, a little Matthes was born. And before any of you start saying what a stupid name it is, we, Sabrina, Steven and I decided to use it as a joke.
At school, the rumor spread that Steven and I were a couple. So we had to come out at school, which went quite well, oddly enough. Well, there's always going to be a few idiots, but never mind about them.
Steven and I are happy together and we knew that we would have to overcome a few obstacles in our future life.
But together with our family we are strong enough to overcome these hurdles, because ONLY TOGETHER WE ARE STRONG!
Steven has now spoken to his mother and apologized, but he did not want to move back to her. Well, with a cute girl like me, he can't?
AUAHHHHHHH
Man Steven, do you always have to sneak up on me like that??
So now I'll just write something quickly. I was really lucky with my KEV, but believe me, I'm the cuter of the two of us.
Ouch Kev, you'll get that back! Just you wait!?
So TSCHÜSS and good luck to everyone with your outing??
Steven and Kevin wish you all the best!
I still looked at the magazine, which I discovered in my son's room when I was putting things away. I still looked at this magazine and the naked man who smiled at me on the front page. Trembling, I went into the kitchen and sat down on one of the kitchen chairs.
“Can't it be my son, a FAG?” The word kept going through my mind. What am I going to do? What did I do wrong? I didn't even realize that tears were running down my face. My son a gay?..
Who could I talk to about this? Karin! Karin is my best friend and is a doctor, maybe she can help me! Like a drowning man, I staggered to the phone and dialed Karin's number.
On the other end, I heard the dial tone, then a click as the receiver was picked up.
“Hello, Karin Manske?”
“Hi, it's Bernd. Karin, I need to talk to you, I don't know what else to do.” Then I started crying.
Kevin
Man, what a day that was. Our math teacher Schrulle, that was his nickname, had tortured us for two hours again, and on top of that, we had gotten a new guy in our class. Oh man, he looked cute. Steven was his name and I was blown away.
I just arrived home and unlocked the door.
“Pa, hello, I'm back from the torture chamber.”
No answer, which was strange, as my dad would normally come running and ask me what our torturers had done to us.
Well, maybe he still had to go shopping, or there was trouble at work and he had to go back there. I went to my room and threw my backpack in the corner. Something was very wrong in my room.
I looked around my room warily. The laundry basket was gone and my closet was open. Oh no, the magazine. I had bought a gay newspaper and had hidden it in my clothes.
I ran to my closet in panic and felt under the shorts for the newspaper. My fingers felt the magazine, I breathed out relieved. Phew, lucky again. Then I went to get a bottle of coke from the kitchen. Somehow it looked like someone had left everything and fled from this chaos.
There must have been a lot of trouble at work for Pa. At least that was my thought when I saw the kitchen.
By the way, my name is Kevin, I'm 16 years old and I live alone with my father. My mom died 5 years ago in a car crash, since then my father raised me alone and we got along quite well.
Dad was my best friend all those years. But I also had my secrets and one of them was that I felt attracted to boys. I couldn't deal with it until now; I didn't trust my father to confide my feelings about it.
I was afraid of hurting him and as I had read on the internet, the outbursts of emotion when parents found out about their children were not always edifying. I started by cleaning up the kitchen, and I heard the front door open.
Bernd
Karin had time for me immediately and I made my way to her. She was my and Kevin's best friend. She helped us wherever she could and, to be honest, she was also my girlfriend.
Me and Karin had been together for over three years, we only told Kevin a year ago. He had already had enough to deal with, not having a mother, so I had kept my private life to a minimum.
Kevin was at the top of my list, and Karin was on the list quite a while later. She had always understood and accepted it, but a year ago she started pushing me to slowly move her up the list a bit.
I have to say that she has a daughter who also wanted to have a family again. Her name is Sabrina, she was the same age as Kevin and a nice girl. She and Kevin got along great and often spent the weekends together. A thought crossed my mind as to whether she knew about Kevin?
With these thoughts in mind, I arrived at Karin's apartment and pressed the doorbell. As if Karin had been standing behind the door, just waiting for it, she flung it open.
“Come in, Bernd!” She pulled me into the hallway and took me in her arms. I couldn't help it and started to cry again.
After I had calmed down a bit, my eyes wandered along the hallway. Karin probably understood immediately who I was looking for.
I sent Sabrina to you to check on Kevin and NO, I didn't tell her why.
She pulled me into the living room and pushed me onto the sofa.
So now tell me very slowly what's going on.
Karin, Kevin, he has... in his cupboard... I burst into tears again.
Now, slowly. What does Kevin have in his cupboard?
He has a gay magazine hidden in his closet. What should I do? What did I do wrong?
Tears ran down my face, and I looked at Karin imploringly, as if she were the oracle who could tell me how to cure Kevin.
“Bernd, if Kevin is gay, does that change the way you feel about him?”
No! I shook my head violently.
But why my son of all people and how should I deal with it? I can't!
First of all, Bernd, what's so bad if it were like that? Secondly, I don't understand your sentence: “I can't?”
Well, I won't be able to hold him in my arms like before, will I?
Why not? Is he going to be a different person just because he'll rather love a boy? Bernd, I always thought you were open-minded about the world and everything in it. We don't live in the Middle Ages anymore, do we, when the church wanted to wipe out this DISEASE.?
Karin looked at me and hugged me.
Bernd, you know that as a doctor I have seen and experienced a lot. At the moment I have a boy in therapy who is gay. He came out to his parents. Do you know what his father did when the boy told them?
I shook my head and looked at her questioningly.
The father beat him half to death and then dumped him on the street like a piece of garbage. If a few neighbors hadn't called the police, the boy would be dead now. He's now sixteen years old and living with a foster family. What can the boy do to stop him being gay?
Oh my God Karin, you don't think that I would do that to Kevin, do you? My voice almost choked as I squeezed out the words.
Karin looked at me and shook her head.
No, otherwise you wouldn't be sitting here talking to me about it. Bernd, I love you and I'm on your side, but I will intervene if you hurt Kevin.
I can't do that, Kevin is my everything. It's just that I don't know how to deal with it.
You shouldn't have to deal with it at all! It's up to Kevin to accept himself like that! You have to help him and continue to accept him as he is.
I slowly calmed down and nodded.
You're right. What should I do now?
First of all, it's important that you show Kevin that you don't have anything against gays.
And how? I must have had question marks all over my face.
Karin smiled at me.
“That's better, and that's how we'll approach it. First of all, when Kevin brings up the subject of homosexuality, you should try to say something positive about it. Kevin has to see that you're open to it and have no problems with it.”
“Yes, I'll probably do it that way.”
Then we talked for quite a while, and we also came to talk about the topic with the boy Karin was currently treating. What she asked me then was not so easy to answer. She wanted to take the boy in and since, as I understood it, we had enough space in the new house, that wouldn't be a problem. Yes, we planned to move in together in two weeks and we had bought the house together. Then I remembered that Kevin didn't even know about it yet.
Well, at first I wasn't so thrilled, but on the other hand, why not? The boy needed help and Karin wouldn't give in anyway.
After I nodded in agreement, she said, “I knew you wouldn't let me down. I love you, Bernd!”
Well, me and my big heart, what I had gotten myself into???!!!!
Kevin
?Hello, is anybody there??
I recognized Sabrina's voice and ran out of the kitchen into the hallway.
?Hi Sabrina, what are you doing here??
?I just wanted to see if my dearest Kevin is okay and how he feels!?
I had to smile. Sabrina was the only one I had told that I might like boys.
I'm fine, and you? I approached Sabrina and hugged her.
Oh man, stop it. Since my mom got this new one, she's hardly ever around and when she is, she only has one topic of conversation. Steven this and Steven that?
What's with this Steven guy?
Oh, he wasn't so lucky. His parents beat him half to death, as I understand it. Why, I don't know either. Anyway, he's now with a foster family.
Oh, and otherwise. How are our parents' preparations going? Have they already found an apartment where we can all live?
Sabrina laughed: “Yes, dear brother, they have. Say, hasn't your father told you anything yet?”
I shook my head: “No, he hasn't. But we've hardly seen each other this week either. He must be under a lot of stress at work.”
Sabrina nodded and we went into the kitchen together.
“Tell me, what does it look like here?”
“Yes, I know. When I came home, Dad wasn't there and the kitchen already looked like this.”
Well then, let's get it organized and then you can tell me if you've seen a nice boy?” she beamed at me.
We started by cleaning up the kitchen. When we were done, we went to my room and I told her about the new guy in our class.
I must have been beaming quite a bit, because Sabrina then said to me: “It seems like someone has really fallen for him.” What's his name?
“Ehhhmmm, Steven. Say, the boy your mother was talking about, wasn't his name Steven too?”
Sabrina nodded: “But that would be a big coincidence if it was the same Steven!” “Have you been writing with Crash again?”
Nah, he hasn't been online for a while. But maybe he'll be in the chat again today.
I met Crash in a forum, he never told me his real name. We'd been writing to each other for over half a year. Crash is gay and wanted to tell his parents, that was the last time I heard from him. Since then, there had been radio silence and I didn't know how his outing had gone.
Sadly, I shook my head: 'Sabrina, I just hope that everything went well for him!
How long has it actually been since he last got in touch?
I think it's been nine weeks now.
Sadly, I looked out of the window. Crash had become a person to whom I had confided everything about me. And now he hadn't contacted me for almost nine weeks.
“Hey Kevin will be fine. He'll definitely contact you, you'll see!” Sabrina looked at me encouragingly.
I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. From one second to the next, I started crying.
I miss him so much and he always encouraged me to stand by my homosexuality. Me?
Sabrina hugged me: “Shh, Kevin, everything will be fine. You'll see, he'll get in touch and besides, I'm still here too. I couldn't have wished for a better brother than you, Kevin. It's just a shame that a sweet guy like you likes boys.”
At these words, we both started giggling and then we laughed. Sabrina was just wonderful. She always knew how to make me laugh.
So what are we going to do today? After all, tomorrow is Saturday and that means we can sleep in, right?
I thought we'd go to the Mecca, there's supposed to be a really good DJ mixing music there today, I said.
Well then it's a date. Oops, it's so late, I'll have to hurry. Will you pick me up then?
Sure, Sabrina, I'll be at your place at 7:00 p.m.
Bernd
Now I was on my way home. The conversation with Karin had done me good. I now saw the whole thing from a different perspective and what was even more important to me was that I didn't want to be like these parents of the boy Karin was currently treating. Just thinking about it made me feel an irrepressible rage. With these thoughts, I stormed up the stairs to our apartment.
“Kevin's back!”
Kevin's door opened and my son beamed at me.
“Where were you?” he asked.
“I was at Karin's, we still had a lot to talk about.”
“Oh, so that's why you leave the kitchen as if a bomb had hit it. That must have been extremely important?”
Yes, my son did it! And what are you going to do today? As far as I know, today is Friday!?
I'm going to Mecca with Sabrina!?
I thought so! Oh, Kevin?? I approached him: We have found a new home for the four of us!?
Oh, is that something completely new! I thought I wouldn't find out at all. Or only when I was standing in front of an empty, cleared-out apartment?
Sorry, I completely forgot, boy!
That's okay. Sabrina told me.
Sabrina was here? I had to play dumb, otherwise Kevin might have smelled a rat.
Jops, my favorite sister was here! And where are we going to live next?
Not even far from here and it's not an apartment, but a house?
Wow, can we afford something like that?
Sure, son, and it's all in the bag already!
Kevin beamed even more and I couldn't help but go up to him and hug him.
Kevin, I love you so much, no matter what happens!?
Hey Dad, what's up with you?
Nothing, I just wanted to say it. You are the most important thing in the world to me and that includes you being happy.
Dad, if you haven't realized it yet, then here's some help: I love you just as much and I'm happy to have you as my father!
I pressed him even closer to me and a few tears stole into my eyes. Oh God, how I loved him, my son Kevin.
Now hurry up, Sabrina is bound to be waiting for you!
Kevin nodded and disappeared back into his room. I then went to the kitchen to tidy up, but as I discovered, someone else had already been busy there.
“And can I go like this?“ came from behind me.
I turned around to the voice and saw Kevin standing in the kitchen door.
“Wow, who are you, young man?”
Kevin had to laugh and I joined in.
“And...?” Kevin turned around in circles.
“You look great, Kevin.“ ‘Here?’ I had taken my wallet in my hand and took out a fifty and gave it to him.
“Thanks!” With that, he jumped to the wardrobe and took off his jacket.
“See you, Dad, maybe I'll sleep at Sabrina's?”
No problem, Karin wanted to come here anyway. I called after him before the front door slammed shut.
Kevin
I still wonder what was up with my father today. He knows that I love him. Strange, I went to Sabrina's with these thoughts. When I arrived at her place, I rang the doorbell.
“Hi Kevin, tell me, why are you ringing the bell or have you forgotten your key at home?”
Karin looked at me and laughed.
I shook my head: “I've forgotten again that I have one of those things from your apartment!” But tell me Karin, Dad said you found a house for us?”
Yes we do, Kevin, and if your father has forgotten when the moving day is, it's in two weeks time!
Oh yes, great, then I'll see you every day! and with that I jumped at Karin's neck and hugged her.
Karin had to laugh and hugged me back.
Hey, what's going on here!? came from behind us, it was Sabrina.
“Dear, that's called a little family cuddle!“ Karin replied with a laugh.
“Can I join in?” Sabrina snorted.
Without waiting for an answer, she wrapped her arms around both of us.
“So guys, I still have work to do and before you disappear, I wanted to talk to you briefly.” Karin let go of us and went into her study.
I looked questioningly at Sabrina, but she just shrugged her shoulders. So we both followed Karin, with a big question mark on our foreheads.
“What did you want to discuss with us?” Sabrina asked, looking questioningly at her mother.
Sabrina, Kevin, I'm currently treating a boy and he has no one to take care of him. I really like him and wanted to take him in with us. Bernd agrees, but I don't know what you think about him moving into our new home with us!
Sabrina looked at me and I looked at her, and we couldn't help but grin.
Well, as long as he behaves himself and doesn't mess up, we're fine with it! Sabrina spoke for us.
OK, he's coming today and will sleep in the guest room. I would be happy if you could also take him with you to your evening event! Karin looked relieved at us.
And where should I sleep then? I asked.
“I made the couch in the guest room for you! I hope you don't mind sharing the room with Steven tonight?
“No, I don't mind!” As long as he looks cute, I don't care, it crossed my mind. As if Sabrina could read my mind, she jabbed me in the side with her elbow.
Ouch..., eh Karin could ask me what was going on, it rang at the apartment door.
Karin raced past us to the apartment door, from where we heard voices shortly afterwards.
Steven
Now I was standing here in front of Karin's apartment door. I still couldn't believe that she wanted to include me in her family. She had told me that she and her partner Bernd and his son and daughter wanted to move into a house together.
I had my doubts about including a GAY man in her family, but Karin just waved them aside. That's not a problem and believe me, Kevin and Sabrina will be happy to meet you. The words still sounded in my ears.
What did I have to lose? It couldn't get any worse than it was now. With these thoughts in mind, I now stood at their door with my few belongings, with Ms. Stahnke from the youth welfare office standing next to me and looking encouragingly at me.
You'll see, everything will be fine! Karin is the best person for you to be with.
Ms. Stahnke pressed the doorbell and we heard footsteps approaching the door. The door was flung open and Karin stood before me.
There you are! Kevin and Sabrina are already waiting. Karin said to me, then she turned to Ms. Stahnke.
“Well Christel, did everything go all right?”
“Yes, it was not even that hard to convince my boss that it was the best thing for Steven. So here are his things and if you need anything, just call me. I'm in a hurry, I have an important appointment!” With that she said goodbye to us and disappeared.
I was still standing rooted to the spot at the door.
“Well then come in.”
I bent down and took my suitcase and my backpack in my hands and followed Karin into the apartment.
“Sabrina, Kevin this is Steven!”
I could only see Sabrina, but she nodded at me in a friendly way and came towards me.
“Hi Steven, come on I'll show you your room where you'll be sleeping for now,” she took the suitcase out of my hands.
Well then kids, I'll disappear into my study, I still have some work to do. Oh, before I forget, I'll be spending the night with your father Kevin.
Yes, that's fine. Dad has already told me.
Oh yes, there was someone else. I wonder what Kevin looks like.
As if Karin had sensed my question, she revealed the view of Kevin and then I saw him.
Oh shit, that was the Kevin from my new class and he looked at me just as horrified.
“Hi... Steven?“ came quietly from Kevin.
“Hi Kevin, I think I'll go again?” turned around and was already on the way to the door.
“Steven, please stay, I'm really happy that you're going to live with us. Besides, we don't really know each other, and Sabrina and I would like to get to know you.“ Kevin replied.
“Kevin, I think that if you knew everything about me, you wouldn't say that anymore!” Tears slowly gathered in my eyes.
Why would you say something like that? Come on, give us a chance!
Well, actually Kevin was right, so why shouldn't I give them a chance to get to know me and vice versa? But there was still a BIG problem for me and this problem was called Kevin.
I had already noticed him at school today and I had butterflies in my stomach as soon as I saw him. On the other hand, the way Kevin looked and behaved, he was more than one hundred percent heterosexual and if he found out that I was gay, what would he do to me? Maybe the same as my father?
I turned around again and looked at Kevin, wiping the tears from my face. No, the way Kevin looked at me, he would never react like my father. There was something in Kevin's eyes that held me captive.
“Well come on Steven? I mean, I'm happy? hmm?“, Kevin stammered in my direction. Something told me that Kevin wanted to say a lot more, but didn't dare.
“Why not, so then show me the room!” I said tentatively.
“Kevin, Steven says where are you? We still want to go to the disco! Now come on?”
Kevin grinned in my direction: “You'll have to get used to that, when Sabrina calls, we have to obey. Oh, so you're coming to the disco with us, right?
Well, sure, if you want me to come!
Well, then everything's settled.”
I followed Kevin and then we stood in the room that was to be mine for the time being.
Oh, Steven, Kevin will sleep here tonight in the room on the couch! That doesn't bother you, does it? Sabrina looked at me questioningly.
No, no problem. So what should I wear?
Well, show me what you have!
I opened my suitcase and rummaged around a bit, pulling out a pair of black jeans and a white shirt.
“Will that work?“ I pointed to the clothes.
“Sure, it'll look great with your black hair!” Kevin said, and when I looked at him questioningly, he even blushed. Oh man, that was cute, but on the other hand I didn't know what to think of it. Well, anyway, the main thing was that he liked it.
“So where's the bathroom?”
“What?”
Man Kevin, Steven just asked where the bathroom is!“ came the laughing reply from Sabrina.
“Yes? Um, which bathroom was it again? Oh yes, it's right across from your room!”
Kevin looked hilarious, the redness on his face even surpassing the color of a ripe tomato.
“Thanks, I'll go freshen up!” and I winked at Kevin.
Sabrina
If I understood it right, Kevin had been hit hard, but Steven looked exactly the same. Steven had disappeared into the bathroom and Kevin was still standing in the room as if he had been struck by lightning.
“Hey Kevin, come with me to my room, I don't think you've told me everything yet!”
I went ahead and Kevin followed me to my room. After I closed the door, I looked at Kevin.
“Tell me, what was the matter with you? If I didn't know better, I would say you have a crush on him?”
“Oh, Sabrina, as soon as he entered the classroom today, I had a crush on him. I don't know what to do?”
? Hey, calm down Kevin, the way Steven reacted, it wasn't uncomfortable for him. I would even say he has a crush on you too.
Kevin
I looked at Sabrina, concerned: “Was it really that obvious?
Your skin color on your face spoke volumes. But now come on, Steven is probably already done in the bathroom!
Yes, you're right, I'll go and see Steven. So I left Sabrina's room and made my way to Steven.
When I entered the room, Steven was already standing in the room in full gear.
“Well, shall we go?” His eyes sparkled at me.
He looked good and the clothes looked really cool on him.
“Yes, if you're ready, then we can go!” I wondered what had come over me.
I went back to the room door: ‘Sabrina, we're ready to go. Steven's ready.”
“Great, let's go!’ she replied.
Then we set off. Karin also gave us some money.
Guys, before I forget, I'll be staying at Bernd's, so don't be back too late. You'll be home by midnight at the latest. Oh, and about breakfast, everything's in the fridge, so don't wait up for us tomorrow, help yourselves.
Yes, mom, we will, all right. So let's go, I want to dance,” said Sabrina, and she led the way, followed by me and Steven.
Kevin
It was a great evening, the three of us danced like crazy, and then, I think Sabrina got it. Marcus, one of my classmates, was there and spent the whole evening gazing at Sabrina.
During a slow dance, they were dancing quite close together. MMMhhh... love must be beautiful, I thought, looking sideways at Steven, who had been smiling the whole evening.
“Hey Steven, this is a really great evening, isn't it?”
Steven beamed at me and nodded: “It's really fun with you guys. I was afraid that you were a total macho, but I guess I was wrong.”
“Don't worry, Steven, I'm just a normal guy and like everyone I have my dreams and desires.” As I said this, I looked Steven in the eye for quite a long time.
I would have loved to go to him and take him in my arms. But something held me back, for one thing the fear of what he would say if he realized that I was gay. Yes, I finally accepted that day what I had not wanted to accept until then. But since I had seen Steven, all my resolutions had been thrown overboard anyway.
Guys, we have to be home by noon, we promised.
Sabrina was standing in front of us beaming, and as expected, Marcus was at her side.
The four of us left. Marcus walked next to Sabrina and held her hand. I must have looked pretty sad at these hands, because suddenly a hand slid into mine and held it very tightly.
I looked at Steven from the side, but he was looking straight ahead and beaming. So I looked ahead too and a smile spread across my face. Steven was awesome.
Steven
That was a great evening. Kevin was awesome and the way he moved to the music. An angel was nothing in comparison. But the way he kept looking at me, somehow strange. I couldn't describe it any other way. What was wrong with him all of a sudden, so shy and reserved before and now as if he accepted something, that he was, or what he was.
BUT WHAT WAS HE????
When we went home and I saw the way he looked at Sabrina and then at Marcus and Sabrina's hands, I knew what he was missing. Well, why not, and brave as I was, I pushed my hand into his. Wow, he held on tight and looked at me from the side. I can't tell you how happy I was at that moment.
Yes, if someone should ask me whether I like Kevin, then I would have answered yes.
But to whom should I answer this question? To whom?
We had hardly arrived at Sabrina's house when Marcus said goodbye to Sabrina and us and just said, “You're cool people.”
We then went inside and Sabrina wished us a good night.
Kevin stood in the room with a look that only made me sad!
“Hey Kevin, what's up with you? It was a great evening, wasn't it?
“Yes?” came from him hesitantly, and then he said that he was totally tired.
That meant it was time for bed.
Kevin
The evening at the disco was amazing and then Steven, how he had pressed his hand into mine, on the way home. I couldn't describe what was going on inside me. Then we were standing in our room at some point and I was totally tired.
“Phew, but now off to bed, I'm totally tired.” Steven looked at me and smiled.
“Well then, sleep well.”
We undressed and Steven went to his bed and I crawled onto the couch. Sometime during the night, I woke up from a terrible nightmare. Something screamed terribly and in my dream I saw a huge creature coming towards me.
What kind of screeching is that? It doesn't stop. Only then did I slowly realize that the noises were coming from Steven. You had to have a crazy dream, so I got up and walked over to his bed.
“Steven, wake up, it's just a nightmare.”
I shook him like a broom.
What, where, how? Oh my God, Kevin, is that you?
I think so, since there's no one in the room but me and you. Man, you screamed like a whole bunch of monsters were after you.
Only now did I realize that Steven was shaking all over.
Are you okay?
Yeah, I think so. Would you sleep with me? I'm so scared.
? Mmmhh well, if it helps and I can get a few hours of sleep, go ahead. Slide over.
Steven slid a little to the side and I lay down next to him.
Kevin, I'm sorry, but... Steven started to cry next to me.
Carefully, I slid a little closer to him and took him in my arms.
“Take it easy, I'm here with you. You'll see, everything will be fine again.”
“No, not everything will be fine, but it will be better.” ”Kevin, I'm so glad I can stay with you.”
“So come to sleep now, and tomorrow we'll think about what else we can do.”
“Mmmhh, Kevin, I have you gladly.”
Steven, I love you too!” After that I must have fallen asleep, because the next time I woke up, something was pressing on my chest.
Since it was already light, I could see a dark blond head of hair lying on top of me. Two arms were wrapped around my body, holding me tight. It was a strange feeling to be held by Steven in his arms and as I realized it, someone else liked it even better, because in my lower regions something began to stir.
Oh shit, I had to somehow get out of this bed and away from Steven. If he realizes what he triggers in me, I don't even want to think about it. What am I doing? With these thoughts, Steven stirred and mumbled something.
His arms let go of me briefly, so I could push him carefully to the side and then slip out of bed.
As soon as I was out of bed, I walked as quietly as I could to the door. Just as I was about to open the door, I heard Steven.
“Morning Kevin, where are you going? It's only eight o'clock.”
I need to go for little boys! I looked down at the bulge in my pants.
I have to get out of here, everything in me screamed and I opened the door and ran to the bathroom door. After I had locked myself in the bathroom, I took a deep breath.
Oh man, that was probably the last proof that I'm definitely gay.
Suddenly there was a knock on the bathroom door: “Hello, whoever's in there, I really need to go to the bathroom!”
I recognized Sabrina's voice.
“Just a moment, I'll be ready in a minute.” I looked down at myself again.
Thank God the bump was gone and now I really had to go quickly for little boys. So I hurried and shortly thereafter I opened the bathroom door.
“Good morning, Sabrina, I'll go to the kitchen and prepare breakfast.
Sabrina looked at me with wide eyes: “Tell me, what's the matter with you? Otherwise you sleep until the dolls!
My dear Sabrina, I also have phases in which I get up early on weekends and today is one of those days! Grinning, I walked past her towards the kitchen.
Once there, I first checked to see what we had. I threw the rolls into the oven and then I put on a large pot of coffee.
“Morning?” It came from behind me and I dropped the plate I had just taken out of the cupboard.
Well, that was a plate with those thoughts on it, I turned to the voice: ”Morning Steven, since you're already here, could you please hand me the dustpan and brush?”
“Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you.”
But you did, next time make a bit more noise before you come into a room! Otherwise you might as well call an ambulance first, I had to grin at that and the corners of Steven's mouth twitched too and then we started laughing.
What's going on here? Can I laugh too?
Nah Sabrina, you wouldn't understand the joke anyway!
Have I missed something?
No, Sabrina, and now come on Steven, off to the bathroom. Breakfast is almost ready.
Steven then also disappeared and Sabrina helped me set the kitchen table.
A short time later we were sitting at breakfast and chatting about the previous evening.
Say, Sabrina, when are you meeting up with Marco again?
Well, Kevin, I can answer that for you: today. We want to go to the movies and see the third part of Bourne Identity.
Wow, I wanted to see that too. Can I come with Steven?
If it's okay with you, I think it's fine.
Oh man, we won't bother you, what do you think Steven?
No, definitely not, I wanted to see it too!”, came from Steven.
“Well then, we know what we're doing today!”
Bernd
I was just about to prepare breakfast in the kitchen when Karin came up behind me and put her arms around me.
“Well my sweetheart, I see I'm not needed here. I'll quickly go take a shower and then I'll be a bit more alert. I hope so!”
A little later, we were sitting at breakfast and planning our move.
“And Bernd, have you processed what happened with Kevin?”
I nodded: “As you said so beautifully yesterday, not much is going to change. Except that I won't have any grandchildren and that I'll have a son instead of a daughter-in-law. The only thing I'm worried about is what the kids at school will do to Kevin when they find out he's gay.
My God, Bernd, it's not that far yet, and if it is, we'll both be there for him and I think Steven and Sabrina will stand by him too. Although that won't be hard for Steven.
By the way, now that you mention Steven, when will I meet him?
Today! He already moved in with us yesterday.
You didn't tell me that! Well, I'm looking forward to it!?
Come on Bernd, we have to check on our little rascals. Knowing them, they're probably still in bed!?
After we had cleaned up the kitchen, we went to Karin's apartment. The first one we met was Kevin. What I noticed immediately was that he was laughing and seemed like a different person. Karin and I exchanged a quick glance. Karin had also noticed that Kevin seemed happier.
After the whole bunch had gathered in the living room, I was introduced to Steven. At first he was very reserved towards me. He made a good impression on me and since I knew from Karin what had happened to him, I had expected more of a psychological strain.
That wasn't the case at all. The only thing I noticed was the way Steven looked at Kevin when he thought he wasn't being watched. I didn't want to read too much into it, but it looked like Kevin had a suitor.
Well, great, and I had hoped that I could make friends with the one first, but it looked as if the first suitor-to-be was standing in front of me. Although this Steven didn't look so bad. My God, now I'm already beginning to assess the future suitors to see if they are good enough for my Kevin.
Steven
It was just great after I met Kevin's father and he was really funny. You could tell that he played an important role in Kevin's life and that he loved him more than anything.
I looked at Kevin from the side, he was talking about yesterday and beamed all over his face. I had to think about this morning, a smile flitted across my face. I woke up earlier than Kevin and he was lying on his back next to me, fast asleep.
Well, I took advantage of the situation a bit and laid my head on his chest and wrapped my hands around his upper body. So I fell asleep again. Anyway, I woke up when Kevin tried to get out of bed carefully.
After he had managed to get out of bed, I looked briefly at his shorts and what did I see. Kevin had a huge bulge in the lower region. Well, maybe I have a chance with him after all, because I like him more and more, his brown hair and those brown eyes that shine like a pair of stars when he laughs.
I suddenly felt that someone was looking at me, and when I raised my eyes a little, I saw Kevin's father's eyes. As if he knew something, at least he smiled knowingly at me.
“Well Steven, how did you like the first day?” Bernd also asked.
“It was just great and I think it's really great that you want to give me a chance here?
Kevin, Karin told me about you and what you've been through and I'm happy to welcome you to our little family.” With that, Bernd stood up and came over to me.
I winced a little when he hugged me. He must have noticed it because he whispered to me: 'Steven, you don't need to be afraid, I will stand behind you just like a good friend. Welcome!
Wow, I couldn't say anything and started to cry, but this time because I was happy again for the first time in a long time. Everyone stood up and Kevin said something that day that I will never forget.
The words were, “I love you very much and in the short time we've known each other, you've become more than a brother to me.”
Whatever was behind the sentence, I hoped that I had heard what I hoped to hear, namely that he LOVED me.
Kevin
Two weeks had now passed and today the big move was planned. In the last two weeks I had got to know Steven even better and what was best, he could laugh again and really laugh.
When I stayed overnight at Karin's, it became a ritual that I slept in Steven's bed. This rascal took full advantage of that. Every morning he lay on top of me and I had to see how I could cope with my big problem when waking up.
Well, at least he hadn't noticed anything so far. My father was also kind of weird, whenever he heard or saw something negative about gays and lesbians, he would get excited and rant about this society and its stupid attitudes towards the subject.
Well, on the one hand I thought it was great and slowly I got the courage to tell him about my feelings.
“Kevin, would you come please, the movers are finally here!”
“Yes, Dad, I'm coming.”
Man, it was going to be one of those days, but who was standing there in the hallway?
“Steven, what are you doing here?”
“Well, I'm done packing my few things and Karin thought I could help out a little here?”
Of course you can help. I'm not even finished packing my things.
Well then, off to your room.
Kevin, I thought you were already finished with yours! my father said reproachfully.
Yes, sorry, but you know Kevin and his orderliness!
Dad had to laugh: “Go to your room and finish packing your things.”
“Yes, yes?” With these words, I sped to my room.
“Steven, I'm here, can we start?”
I saw Steven sitting at my desk with a piece of paper in his hand. He didn't react at all and looked hypnotized at the sheet.
“Steven, hi, I'm here!”
Startled, he looked up and met my eyes.
“Kevin, is your chat name when you're on the internet Kev16?”
“Why? Yes it is, why do you want to know?”
“Well, my name in chat is CRASH.”
“DDDD?uuuuu are CRASH?”
He nodded and stood up: “Yes, that's me! How I always wished to be opposite this Kev16 and chat with him in person and now I realize that this Kev16 is YOU.”
Somehow that was a bit too much for me and I sat down on the floor. Ohh, what am I going to do now? I knew one thing for sure, namely why Crash hadn't been in the chat anymore.
“Kevin, are you okay?”
I felt Steven gently take me in his arms.
Steven, Crash, do you actually know how much you mean to me? I waited every day for Crash to show up in the chat and tell me how his outing went. But there was no sign of him, of you!?
Sorry, now you know how it turned out! It was SHIT! Steven said quietly.
“Oh man, now you know everything about me, except for one thing: I have pretty strong feelings for you,” I replied just as quietly.
“Hey, I know that, the bulge in your shorts when you got up in the morning spoke for itself. Besides, haven't you ever wondered why I was always lying so close to you in the morning?”
I looked up, shocked: “You little scoundrel, you've been...?”
“Yes I have, and I enjoyed it when you slept with me at the weekend!?”
Well, you little beast, I turned to Steven and pressed my lips to his. Wow, what a feeling. Suddenly I felt Steven's tongue on my lips and as if I had only been waiting for it, I opened my lips.
I can no longer say for sure how long we sat on the floor exploring each other's mouths with our tongues.
In any case, we were so absorbed in our exploration that we didn't notice my father standing in the room.
“HMMMM... Boys, when you're done with that, could you please continue packing?”
Oh my God!
We jumped apart and I looked at my father in horror.
But he just smiled at me and then said dryly in my direction: “And Kevin, to tell me that you like boys, you didn't have to show me this in action. I would have been happy if you had just told me. But it looks like I'll have a son-in-law from now on!?
With these words, he left my room and I looked after him speechlessly. Yes, my voice had given up the service, at least at that moment.?
Hmm, Kevin, tell me, did your father suspect anything about your affection?
I just shrugged my shoulders, because my speech organ was still on strike.
“Hey, I think you should probably go to your father and talk to him?”
In response, I just nodded and got up slowly.
“Ok, I'll pack up here and you go to your father now?”
So I made my way to my father to finally do what I had been planning to do all along.
Bernd
Well, that was now clear, on what or whom my son was sexually. Well, I was a bit shocked. When had a straight man ever had the pleasure of catching two guys kissing? Fortunately, Karin had given me some literature to help me deal with this topic, and it probably helped me to have NO PROBLEM with it.
So now I was standing in the kitchen and started to put the chairs together for the movers.
“Dad? Do you have a minute for me? I have something to tell you!” It was my somewhat dejected son standing at the kitchen door, staring at the floor.
When I saw him standing there like that, I couldn't help but go up to him and take him in my arms.
“Kevin, you don't have to explain anything to me! I'm happy for you. The only thing that makes me a little sad is that you didn't tell me long ago. We don't have any secrets, do we?
Dad, you can't compare this to things like school grades and stuff, this is about something that not everyone can accept. It took me time to accept myself.?
?Hm, I think my son has grown up with this and no longer needs his father!? I stated dryly and with a little melancholy.
Nonsense, I've needed you all my life. You've always been there for me and I want it to stay that way.
After that, we held each other and said nothing. We each had our own thoughts and I realized that I will always be there for these two goofballs and support them.
Can I interrupt for a moment?
Yes Steven, you may!” came from both of us almost at the same time, and then Kevin and I had to laugh at the bewildered look on Steven's face.
The expression on Steven's face was just too funny.
“Can you please come back to your room and help with the packing? Otherwise we'll never be finished today.”
“Now come on, Kevin!” And then I looked at Steven: ‘So, young man, you'll pay special attention to my son, otherwise there'll be trouble with me!”
“Yes sir, I understand!’ came the reply from Steven.
Then both ran in the direction of Kevin's room.
Steven
Well, the move was already three weeks behind us. After it was clear to everyone that Kevin and I were a couple, we were given a room together with our own bathroom. Sabrina was still with Marco and when he found out that we were together, he thought it was cool and was happy for us.
Karin and Bernd took care of me as if I had always lived with them. My own parents had separated, as I learned from Karin. My mother wanted to get back in touch with me, but I wasn't ready for that.
Not after what they had done to me. I looked at Kevin, who was lying on the bed and seemed to have fallen asleep. I loved this guy more than anything, and oh yes, Crash had turned up in the chat again and told us about his Kevin.
Bernd
Karin and I were sitting on the couch in the living room drinking wine.
“Well Bernd, you look really happy!”
“I am. I have you and that's something I'm happy about. Well, and then there's this gang of rascals that are jumping around on our heads.”
Karin had to laugh, but then she became serious.
“Bernd?
Yes Karin?
I still have something to tell you. She looked at me.
Yes, what do you want to tell me?
So, there are five of us living here now. Could you imagine taking in a sixth member of our family?
“I beg your pardon, not another foster child?” I groaned.
No, it will take about six months before this person will move in with us!
What, I looked at her aghast: But we're already over forty!
So what, but someone finally has a reason to propose to me! she replied snappishly.
Only now did I really realize what Karin was telling me.
I don't even know what to say!
“Well, just ask her already!” came from the living room door in unison.
Sabrina, Kevin and Steven were standing there grinning at us.
“How did you know that Karin is pregnant?”
“Yes, my dear, I had left my pregnancy ID on the kitchen table and as you can imagine, our beloved daughter found it.”
Well then there is only one thing left for me to do! I stood up and knelt down in front of Karin: Will you marry me?
Kevin
Man, that was really a bit cheesy, typical adults. But somehow also sweet. Before I say goodbye to you at this point, I would like to briefly summarize what happened next.
Six months later, a little Matthes was born. And before any of you start saying what a stupid name it is, we, Sabrina, Steven and I decided to use it as a joke.
At school, the rumor spread that Steven and I were a couple. So we had to come out at school, which went quite well, oddly enough. Well, there's always going to be a few idiots, but never mind about them.
Steven and I are happy together and we knew that we would have to overcome a few obstacles in our future life.
But together with our family we are strong enough to overcome these hurdles, because ONLY TOGETHER WE ARE STRONG!
Steven has now spoken to his mother and apologized, but he did not want to move back to her. Well, with a cute girl like me, he can't?
AUAHHHHHHH
Man Steven, do you always have to sneak up on me like that??
So now I'll just write something quickly. I was really lucky with my KEV, but believe me, I'm the cuter of the two of us.
Ouch Kev, you'll get that back! Just you wait!?
So TSCHÜSS and good luck to everyone with your outing??
Steven and Kevin wish you all the best!