07-11-2025, 04:28 PM
Love again will
A melody, gentle, pure, attractive. A ceaseless stream through his blood. A wave of feelings that are too big to grasp. An endless series of sounds combined into an endless melody. United with his heartbeat. Merged with his senses. Connected to his deep voice. Nothing else exists except for this melody, this song, this voice.
Nothing. Far and wide, no people, no animals, no plants. Only this moment into all eternity. No reality. No pain, no awakening from sweet dreams that will never be fulfilled. Just this one moment. Just for him. A dark room, without windows and if it had any he wouldn't see them and didn't want to. He didn't want to go back to reality that had hurt him so much.
No wounds, no blood, no pain. Nothing should exist anymore, only this voice. This pure, deep voice. A voice that screamed deep inside of him, calling him and wanting to wake him up, sometimes just to make him aware that someone was with him. But today it called for him, wanted to bring him back from his dream world and hold him in its arms again.
But if he opened his eyes, everything would be back. Pain, suffering, injuries. Everything, including his hated love that he could never accept. She was not real. She would destroy him, drag him down into the depths.
“Wake up again, please. Come on, you can't do that. You promised to listen to my songs until my voice could no longer sing, until I no longer wanted to sing.
And now you just tear yourself away, leave me alone and don't want to come back. Is that what you wanted to tell me when you walked between us smiling? Have you had enough of me? Do you want me to never sing again?
No. I want to keep listening to your songs, but I never want to feel this love again. I can't escape it when I see you, it hurts as if a thousand knives were stabbing me. Do you understand?
Yes. He said softly and looked down. Why didn't you wake up for so long?
Because I didn't want to. I just wanted to hear your songs, your voice, without seeing you. Because it wouldn't have hurt me. You have branded yourself into me without asking me. My chest is still burning from your touch. My hands still feel your hair and I still feel your kisses on my lips. He said softly and opened his eyes. His eyes were so shiny from the medication that you might think they were made of glass. But that didn't change their beauty. As green as an emerald. A radiance like a ring of precious stones.
“Why did you throw yourself in between?”
“If I hadn't, you might never have been able to sing again. Don't you know what he was aiming for?
No. My beloved said softly and looked his lover so rigidly in the eyes that he thought he would drown in them. The latter sat up slowly and held his finger to a spot about halfway up the other's chest, just below his throat. He stroked his finger slowly over it and approached him. When he touched the spot with his lips, he felt the fire burning him again.
Which pulled him close and tied them together. Tied them into a world that couldn't be accepted, not by him, not by his friends, not by the rest of the world. Not even the fans would let their star give him away.
Koi. Please stay with me. Just near me. You can't go so far away without me. Don't you even think about my feelings. Don't you think I'm burning in your fire. Do you think I'm without consequences with you. You have burned yourself into my heart as well. Don't you understand, or can't you? We are no longer able to be without each other. I need you to be able to sing and you need my songs to be able to exist. The other said and pulled Koi close. The other tensed up slightly and closed his eyes before he slowly put his hands on the other's back and clung on.
“Are you singing tonight?”
“Yes. At a popular club.”
“Then you should go slowly.” Koi said in a whisper and kissed him lightly on the shoulder. ‘Or do you want to disappoint your fans?’ At that moment, there was a tentative knock at the door. Koi lay down again and looked at the door.
“I don't want to disturb you, but we have to go. The concert is about to start, Y?ru.”
“I'll be right there,” Y?ru said and gave his manager a brief glance. When he had left, he looked back at Koi and stroked a finger over his lips. ‘I'm going to sing a new song today, just for you. Can you hear me?’ ”Maybe then you'll understand my feelings. I don't want to hold you in my arms, torn apart, but as a whole, and I also want your heart for me and your body and everything else about you.
I won't force you, but I'll break down if you don't finally come closer to me. I don't know where to put my feelings anymore, my songs are full of them. I am full of my passion, my longing, my love. I don't want to be with you anymore. It's enough for me if you're just around, you don't have to start a relationship. But don't let me freeze any longer.
Bat Y?ru asked quietly and leaned over him. He kissed him gently on the lips and felt the fire and passion even with this small touch. When he broke away from Koi, this kiss burned on his lips and Koi also felt this heat and put two fingers on his lips before he closed his eyes and slowly fell asleep. The doctors gave him so many sedatives and painkillers that Koi could no longer fight it.
For the first few weeks, he slept a deep sleep that resembled a coma, but he kept hearing Y?ru's singing. His voice pulled him back into the painful reality. The suffering that their love brought with it. His body was hot in the places that Y?ru had touched; they burned inwards and ate into his heart, his bones.
“There you are, Y?ru. How is he?”
“He's exhausted. They're giving him so much sedative and pain medication that he can hardly move.”
Sedatives?
He screams in the night when he wakes up. He won't let the doctors touch him either. If someone touches him, he tries to run away all the time. That's why we give him this stuff. Otherwise we can't treat him. He once said under anesthesia that he was on fire. I don't know what's wrong with him. But if it continues, he needs a psychiatrist. We don't know what to do anymore. Said a doctor behind them.
He is healthy. This has nothing to do with his injury. He just needs time. Said Y?ru quietly and left.
Is he like that too?
No. Just don't touch the little one all the time. There are other reasons why he reacts like that. They have nothing to do with a shrink, but are of natural origin. Treat his injury and we'll take care of the rest. And don't let the press in here. Just the two of us and his parents. Understood?
Yes. The doctor said, perplexed, and watched the manager leave.
Then he went into Koi's room and was about to examine him when the boy opened his eyes and avoided his gaze. “I just want to look at your injury. I'll only touch you there. I promise,” the doctor said cautiously. Koi looked at him suspiciously but allowed the doctor to see the injury and didn't resist further. He was also too tired to fight.
Could I get a TV tonight?
Do you want to watch a movie?
No. A concert. Koi said quietly and watched the doctor's fingers as he treated his injury. A clean shot through his left shoulder.
“I'll have a TV made. You should sleep some more. I'll check on you later,” the doctor said and left. Koi looked out the window for a while and then lay down again. He fell asleep after a few moments and woke up when he heard someone open the door.
“Where would you prefer it?“ the nurse asked. ‘Should I put the TV by the window or here in front?”
“By the window.’ Koi said quietly and sat up.
“Do you need anything else?”
“No. Thank you.” Koi said quietly and took the remote control. He sat up halfway and leaned against the pillow behind him. When he turned on the TV, he wasn't surprised at all to see which channel was set. As always, most people in the hospital only saw one channel, the news. He searched for one of the music channels and got the right one right away, namely the one that would broadcast Y?ru's concert. Y?ru wasn't on stage yet, but there was already screaming.
Koi was always able to sit backstage and listen, because he was always editing the recordings for some time. Koi closed his eyes when the concert started and tried not to see Y?ru, but just to hear the songs. But he didn't quite succeed. Imperceptibly, his face crept into Koi's thoughts and when Koi noticed it, he left it at that. He loved Y?ru's eyes, the way she looked at him, the way they shone when he sang. He loved singing, but there was one thing he loved even more.
Koi felt the passion with which Y?ru sang today. He felt the closeness, the longing. His pleas for him. Suddenly Koi opened his eyes and stared at the TV. Y?ru was wearing the outfit again that Koi loved about him. A simple black shirt, black pants and his hair was down. It fell on his face and formed a silky veil of silver strands that fell on his shoulders.
Y?ru wore a silver cross around his neck with a small heart-shaped stone. “You can't do that.” Koi said quietly and ran both hands through his hair. He felt the burning heat on his body, his lips. Felt Y?ru's hair touching his. Smelled the sweet scent of the soft perfume that permeated Y?ru. Felt the delicate hands on his chest.
Koi closed his eyes and he knew that Y?ru had meant this song. This song, which was for him alone. Which only he could understand. Which conveyed Y?ru's feelings and sensations to him. After a while, Koi gently fell asleep to Y?ru's singing. He still felt the fire of passion that Y?ru had sent him. When he felt a touch on his shoulder, he woke up and pushed the hand aside.
“Stay calm. I just want to take a look at your injury,“ the doctor said soothingly.
“You're different from the other doctors.”
“Why?” “Because I care for you?”
“No. The others always examine me completely and hold me if I don't want to let them.”
You don't like being touched?
No.
Why?
Because it takes something else away from me.
What is this something else? The touch of a certain person?
Yes. Koi said quietly and looked at the TV.
I turned it off. The concert was long over and I thought the other music would just wake you up again.
Thank you.
He's worried about you. He asked about you twice today. He couldn't come here yet, but he said I should tell you that he's trying to come as soon as possible.
Silly. He knows he can't do that. They'll hold him and bombard him with questions until he's too tired to come here.
Why? Isn't it good for his image?
No. Only his manager lets him out every now and then.
He seems to care about you a lot.
Yes. I also edited his videos for a while.
And you listen to his songs. Not like those so-called fans who just scream and can't even hear what he's singing. The doctor said with a smile.
He has a beautiful voice. I love to listen to him.
Is he that certain person? the doctor asked cautiously. When Koi looked at him in confusion, he continued. You said yesterday that he can't do this to you.
How do you know that?
I was in the room. I sat on the chair, because I thought you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you up, so I just listened to the concert. You trembled when he sang that one song.
He made me understand something, or tried to.
It's his touch that you don't want to lose. Am I right?
Yes. My body is hot in the places he touched. It burns deeply.
Why are you so sad then?
Because it won't work. I can't give in to him. The only thing that would happen then would be to endure suffering and pain. What I want wouldn't come and what he wants I can't give him.
What does he want that you can't give him?
Everything. He wants everything from me. Koi said quietly and pulled himself together. His whole body felt hot. His lips burned from the kiss, which, as gentle as it was, had transmitted so much passion that he couldn't forget it.
“You should sleep. I'll check on you later.”
“You have to keep this to yourself,“ Koi said urgently, looking at him intently.
“I know. I won't say anything. Besides, I'd lose two patients otherwise.” The doctor said with a smile.
“Two?”
You and Y?ru. He asked me to take care of you. He told me to just take care of your wound and not to touch you unless it was necessary. I told you he was worried. Said the doctor and left. Koi lay down and closed his eyes. His body burned like fire. His lips felt the passion that blazed within him. His hands wanted to touch him. He slowly fell asleep and only woke up when he felt Y?ru's gentle hand in his hair and opened his eyes.
“How are you feeling?” The doctor said he wouldn't give you any more sedatives.
No. He doesn't. I'll be good and let him examine me, as long as he only touches me there. Koi said quietly and looked at the TV.
You saw the concert?
Yes. I also understood your message, but I can't give in to you. I feel like I'm on fire when I'm with you. All I want to do is touch you.
Then do it. I won't stop you.” Y?ru said desperately. ”I can't anymore. I want you to stay with me. It doesn't have to be forever, but at least for now.”
You're asking too much of me. I can't give you everything. I can't even give you enough without withdrawing.” Koi said quietly and sat down. When he approached Y?ru, the latter embraced him tenderly and kissed him passionately on the lips. Koi wanted to escape from him but his strength was not enough emotionally.
He wanted to stay with him, but he was also afraid of the longing that had grown so immeasurably within him that it hurt him. He clung to Y?ru and didn't want to let go of him anymore. He only wanted to be with him, to feel the passion, to feel Y?ru's lips, to absorb his kisses inside. He wanted to dig his hands into Y?ru's back and never let him go again. But when he felt his inner fear, he pulled himself away and looked at Y?ru, breathing heavily.
Don't withdraw again and again. I can't do that. I want to hold you tight once you're close and I want to pull you to me.? Y?ru said quietly. Koi felt the flames on his back, his hip. Everywhere Y?ru had touched him again. He felt Y?ru's lips on his and tasted the sweet flavor of his tongue. He still felt Y?ru touching his hair and on his own hands he still felt Y?ru's heartbeat, although he didn't touch it anymore.
“It burns.” Koi said quietly. He lay down slowly and looked Y?ru in the eyes. The latter looked at him worriedly. ‘It hurts when you touch me, but I still don't want it to stop. I don't want to be touched by anyone else. Only by you, but I can't accept it.’ Koi said quietly and looked at the window.
The moonlight played in his eyes, refracting several times and making Koi's eyes shine. Y?ru laid his head on Koi's stomach and a hand on his chest. Koi gently stroked his hair and touched Y?ru's lips with a finger. “I'm sorry. I know I'm hurting you, but I can't help it.
I know, but then why can't you at least be close to me. I only want you to stay with me. That's all I ask of you.” Y?ru said softly and closed his eyes.
“Give me time.” Koi whispered and fell asleep. Y?ru looked at him gently and kissed him again on the lips. Koi returned the kiss without waking up and turned to the side. Y?ru left the room quietly and ran both hands through his hair.
“How are you?” the doctor asked cautiously and looked at him with concern.
“I don't know either. I want it, but I can't hold it.”
“That's normal. Love is a game. Give it the time it needs. He's confused and your closeness makes it worse. You're crowding him without wanting to or realizing it. He's not sure yet and that's why he avoids you. But overall, he feels attracted to you.” The doctor said calmly and put a hand on Y?ru's forehead.
“How would you know?”
“He told me. Now you'd better go home. You'll catch a cold if you don't get enough sleep.”
“How am I supposed to sleep when he's on my mind?”
Try. I'll take care of him,? the doctor said with a smile, and went into Koi's room. Meanwhile, Y?ru walked slowly home. When the doctor sat down on the edge of the bed, Koi started and unconsciously grasped the sleeve of his robe. He put a hand on Koi's head and tried to calm him down.
Where's Y?ru??
I sent him home, otherwise he'll get a fever. He doesn't get enough sleep because of you,' the doctor said with a smile. 'He's worried about you, but he wants your heart even more. Can I take a look at your injury?
Yes.” Koi said quietly and allowed the doctor to touch him. ‘I have to examine you completely today because I need to know how you react to the medication. Is that okay?”
“I don't really have a choice. I just don't like it when so many people talk at me or hold me.’ Koi said and smiled gently.
I know. That's why I ask you first if you have any objections. You're more open today. I didn't know you had such a beautiful smile,? the doctor said, smiling too. Koi looked at him, embarrassed, and allowed himself to be examined. I think I can imagine why he loves you,?
?So?? Koi asked, surprised.
First of all, you are his type and secondly, there is something about you that fascinates people.”
“His type?”
“Yes. He likes it when someone has bright eyes. No matter who they belong to. But just because he likes you, it doesn't necessarily mean he'll fall in love.”
“And what is it that's so fascinating?”
Your nature. When you've been known for a while, you have an effect on others as if you were burning with a fire that feeds on curiosity and radiates passion that attracts everyone. You don't need a bandage anymore.
They're watching closely, am I right?
Y?ru is sometimes like a little brother to me and I'm interested in who he loves. But I noticed you before, at one of his concerts. Everyone was screaming, only you were standing in a corner at the front, listening. This is probably another reason for his affection.?
Probably.?
Are you tired?
Yes.
Then sleep. I'll check on you again later.?
Okay.? Koi said quietly and lay down slowly. The doctor covered him carefully and gently stroked his forehead. Koi gently took his hand and held on to it as he fell asleep. The doctor sat down next to him and watched him for a while. When Koi whispered Y?ru's name, the doctor smiled gently and leaned in. He stayed with him and when Koi woke up, he smiled at him.
“How are you?”
“Better.” Koi said softly and noticed that he was holding the doctor's hand. He looked at the doctor, embarrassed, and let go.
It's okay. I don't mind. You whispered his name as you fell asleep. At first I thought you assumed he was here and stayed seated. But you also said my name. What did you dream?
I don't remember. I just felt comfortable. It's different in your presence than in his. I feel lighter and calmer. With Y?ru I feel stifled and don't know where I should go to escape the confinement.
He just wants you with him and you resist it. So it seems to you that his closeness is oppressive. When you have decided, you have to show him this. He doesn't know how to approach you.
I can't decide. My heart says I want him. But my mind doesn't want any problems. If I give myself to him, the press will immediately be after him and make life difficult for him, and I don't want any of that fuss either. I just want him. Not his fans, not the press, nothing. Just him. But that's not possible. If it is, then I have to take everything else too, and that crushes me.
I can imagine that, but there is a way you can have him without getting all the rest.
What way?
It depends on your decision, but I know an area where nobody would suspect you in any way. You could live your life and he could live his and secretly be in love. This way, both of you are helped. You don't have the hustle and bustle and he has you. He needs you to be able to live at all. The only one who can kill him is you. And it seems to me that he is the only one who can kill you, am I right? You are already so close, why do you do this to yourselves?
I don't know.
I can help you, but you have to control your feelings on your own.
Yes.
A yes? To my help, or to your feelings?
Both. I'll talk to him, but only when I'm out of here. He has to give me time. I just want to be alone for a while and think a little.
And you don't want him to visit you?
Yes. Besides, it's risky for him to come here.
He knows that. I'll tell him. Now you should get some rest.
Yes.
Sleep well.
Koi woke up gently the next morning. It was warm in the room and he hadn't suffered his usual nightmares, but had simply dreamt a normal dream, with all the strange things and unreal moments. He kept his eyes closed, even though he had long been awake. He sensed the presence of a person, but it wasn't Y?ru. He let himself drift for a while longer, enjoying the after-effects of the dream. As he slowly opened his eyes, the sun shone in his face. He closed his eyes again briefly and then opened them again carefully. He then turned to one side.
'Well, how do you feel?'
'Better,' Koi said with a smile.
'So you've made up your mind?'
Yes. And I think it's the right decision. But I won't know that for sure until I've made the decision.”
“All right. But I still have to examine you completely now, and I'd like to be able to release you slowly. You need to be around people again. You haven't had many visitors, have you?”
“How could I? I only know Y?ru and his band.”
“No parents?”
I grew up in an orphanage and ran away from there. Y?ru's manager took me in, sent me to school and let Technik take over a bit. Koi said quietly and slowly remembered. The doctor was suddenly very quiet and Koi noticed this. What's wrong? Why are you so quiet?
I have been wrestling with myself over whether to tell you something specific. But I know that I can also lose by telling you.
What do you want to tell me?” Koi asked, confused, and allowed himself to be examined. There was a moment of silence, and then the doctor made up his mind and began to speak.
“I know that I'm probably turning your life upside down with this and I don't want to rip you out of your world, so I'll leave it up to you to decide whether you believe me or not and whether you fulfill my request or not.” He fell silent for a moment, as if searching for words. Koi remained still. He didn't know what the doctor wanted to tell him. What could he say that would turn his world upside down? He wasn't much older than Koi himself. Maybe three or four years. “What I want to say is that it's time for you to come home.” Koi froze, even forgetting to breathe. Had he heard right? What did he want to say to him?
What does that mean?' Koi asked, confused, and tried to breathe again slowly.
'It means that I want my brother back home. I was still too young to be able to do anything back then, and when I was thirteen years old, I tried to find you somehow. But I couldn't find you. I also looked in the computer from time to time to see if you were in a home, but there was no mention of you, and now I know why. But I kept looking for you anyway.
When I heard from Y?ru's manager, after I asked him, that you are alone and that he always comes here to check on you, I was a bit surprised. He also said that I should examine you so that you would not be bothered by the other doctors because you had some problems at the beginning. Well. And so I couldn't avoid examining your blood. However, I noticed a few things.
You have the same blood type as me, which of course doesn't mean much, but there is something that is only in our family, namely we all have a certain characteristic in our blood. A kind of small transmitter. Father was in research and had developed this transmitter to lead lost children to their parents when they felt the need to do so. He gave it to you the night he found out that your mom wanted to give you up. He was against it, but he knew that the night she went away she wouldn't bring you back home. I knew about the transmitter and searched for it after a few things seemed similar, and besides, you look a lot like her. Now I can also find out a lot through the database.”
“What about Mom and Dad?”
“Mom died in a car accident last year. She was on her way home when she was hit by a drunk driver. She died at the scene. Dad broke down after that and has been in the hospital here ever since. He couldn't cope, after losing you too and not knowing where you were. That's why I've been looking for you more intensively since last year, but you couldn't be found.
Can I see him then?
Of course. He said, smiling a little. When Koi sat down, he looked him in the eye for a moment.
“Shall I tell you something?” Koi asked with a smile.
“What?”
“I was wondering when I would finally meet you.”
“You knew about me?”
Y?ru's manager told me about you. I didn't know what you looked like, or your name, or where you worked, but he said that when I felt alone, I should think of the person I missed the most and who was never there even when I wished he was. And to be honest, I always missed the same person, I just didn't know who it was. But now I also know why I don't feel as oppressed with you as I do with Y?ru.? Thereupon he hugged him and held on to him briefly.
By the way, my name is Dan.? he said grinning.
Okay. But you still have to tell me a lot, otherwise I won't know anything about you and you already know half of my life.?
No problem.
But now I want to see Dad.
Well, come on. He'll be happy to see you, but don't expect too much. As I said, he's not quite as fit.
Yes. Koi put on some clothes and followed Dan down the hallway. Almost at the end of the hallway were some stairs leading up. There were only a few rooms up there. When they arrived at the third room, Dan knocked briefly and opened the door. Warm rays of sunshine came from the room and the room itself seemed friendly.
“Hello Dad. How are you?“ Dan asked quietly and sat down by the bed. Koi closed the door and stood in front of it.
“Fine.” The man said weakly and smiled briefly. He seemed very weak. His face was haggard and his eyes were dull. He was very gaunt and seemed to Koi as if a part was missing. Something that has robbed this old-looking man of his youth.
“I'm glad. I brought someone with me,” Dan said smiling.
“You know I don't want any visitors.”
I don't think you're going to send this visitor away either,' Dan said, still smiling, and looked at Koi. 'Come here,' he said quietly. Koi hesitated for a moment and then went to the bed. He looked at Dan for a moment, seeking help, and then went to the edge of the bed. The old man looked away and made Koi a little uneasy, but Dan nudged him in the side.
“Hello, Dad?” Koi said quietly and waited for a reaction. When none came, he was about to leave, but Dan held him back just as his dad looked up. Koi was a little startled when he looked into the man's eyes, which suddenly reflected fear.
Dad. It's all right, he's really here. You're not dreaming.' Dan said soothingly. There was only silence for a while, then the old man smiled and a twinkle came into his eyes.
“You're the spitting image of her,” he said, smiling. Koi smiled gently too and took a deep breath. The tension had gone and he felt the familiar feelings again that he had felt with Dan before. ‘Come here, little one. Where have you been for the last 17 years?’ he asked quietly, taking Koi in his arms.
Actually, very close to us, Dad. Where you can least find him. He was with Y?ru.?
?The singer you told me about??
?Yes.?
?And I'd like to stay with him too.? Koi said quietly. His voice trembled slightly and his father looked him in the eye.
So you're the angel in his life, huh? When Koi nodded slightly, a few tears ran down his cheeks. 'Then stay with him, but come to me from time to time.'
'Of course. Now you won't get rid of me anymore,' Koi said grinning.
'I hope so, too, little brother,' Dan said quietly and ruffled his hair.
“Well. I don't want to kick you out, but I have to have breakfast first and Koi should rest a little, the way he looks.”
“Okay. I'll come back tonight.” Dan said quietly.
“You can bring Koi if you still let him out of his room.”
“I'm responsible for him and I say he can.”
That's good. So I'll see you tonight?
Yes. See you then, Dad? Dan said and was already standing up.
Koi? Don't let them get you down, okay? Let the others talk. As long as you're happy, who cares about the world? His dad said with a smile and gave Koi a hug.
“Yes?” Koi said quietly. ‘Thank you.’ Then he went downstairs with Dan.
“Should I tell Y?ru?”
“No. I want to call him myself, but first tell me when you're releasing me from here?”
“Tonight, that's why you're allowed to go to Dad's. And after that, I wanted to drive you to Y?ru.”
Okay. But I'll call him myself now. Koi said smiling.
All right and I'll get you breakfast.
Thanks. Koi said quietly and lay down in bed. He picked up the phone and dialed Y?ru's number. It didn't ring twice before the other end picked up.
“Yes?” Y?ru asked.
“Hi, it's me.” Koi said quietly and heard Y?ru sigh with relief.
“How are you?”
“I'm allowed out tonight.”
“Do you want me to pick you up?”
“No. Dan will drive me to you.”
“Dan?”
? The doctor? Koi said and couldn't help but grin. He was more than relieved and happy at the moment.
?Since when do you call him that? Y?ru asked gently when he heard that Koi had a specific reason.
?Since I know that he is my brother.?
?Your brother? Y?ru asked gently.
Yes. And I just saw my dad, too.
I'm happy for you. At least now I hear you with a happy voice and without an undertone of sadness for once in a long time.
I'm sorry that I worried you.
It's okay.
No. It's not okay. I know you feel bad too and I hurt you, and I'm sorry about that. But I've also made up my mind. And I'll stick with that decision. Koi said smiling.
What's your decision?
I'm staying with you.
Really?
Yes.
Who made you make that decision?
Dad. He said I shouldn't care about the world as long as I'm happy myself, and I'm happy with you, but don't crush me this time.
No. Certainly not. Y?ru said apologetically. Then I'll see you tonight?
Yes. But first I'm going to see Dad.
It's okay, I can stand the time now that I know you're mine.
I love you, Koi said and hung up. So, here's your breakfast.
THE END
A melody, gentle, pure, attractive. A ceaseless stream through his blood. A wave of feelings that are too big to grasp. An endless series of sounds combined into an endless melody. United with his heartbeat. Merged with his senses. Connected to his deep voice. Nothing else exists except for this melody, this song, this voice.
Nothing. Far and wide, no people, no animals, no plants. Only this moment into all eternity. No reality. No pain, no awakening from sweet dreams that will never be fulfilled. Just this one moment. Just for him. A dark room, without windows and if it had any he wouldn't see them and didn't want to. He didn't want to go back to reality that had hurt him so much.
No wounds, no blood, no pain. Nothing should exist anymore, only this voice. This pure, deep voice. A voice that screamed deep inside of him, calling him and wanting to wake him up, sometimes just to make him aware that someone was with him. But today it called for him, wanted to bring him back from his dream world and hold him in its arms again.
But if he opened his eyes, everything would be back. Pain, suffering, injuries. Everything, including his hated love that he could never accept. She was not real. She would destroy him, drag him down into the depths.
“Wake up again, please. Come on, you can't do that. You promised to listen to my songs until my voice could no longer sing, until I no longer wanted to sing.
And now you just tear yourself away, leave me alone and don't want to come back. Is that what you wanted to tell me when you walked between us smiling? Have you had enough of me? Do you want me to never sing again?
No. I want to keep listening to your songs, but I never want to feel this love again. I can't escape it when I see you, it hurts as if a thousand knives were stabbing me. Do you understand?
Yes. He said softly and looked down. Why didn't you wake up for so long?
Because I didn't want to. I just wanted to hear your songs, your voice, without seeing you. Because it wouldn't have hurt me. You have branded yourself into me without asking me. My chest is still burning from your touch. My hands still feel your hair and I still feel your kisses on my lips. He said softly and opened his eyes. His eyes were so shiny from the medication that you might think they were made of glass. But that didn't change their beauty. As green as an emerald. A radiance like a ring of precious stones.
“Why did you throw yourself in between?”
“If I hadn't, you might never have been able to sing again. Don't you know what he was aiming for?
No. My beloved said softly and looked his lover so rigidly in the eyes that he thought he would drown in them. The latter sat up slowly and held his finger to a spot about halfway up the other's chest, just below his throat. He stroked his finger slowly over it and approached him. When he touched the spot with his lips, he felt the fire burning him again.
Which pulled him close and tied them together. Tied them into a world that couldn't be accepted, not by him, not by his friends, not by the rest of the world. Not even the fans would let their star give him away.
Koi. Please stay with me. Just near me. You can't go so far away without me. Don't you even think about my feelings. Don't you think I'm burning in your fire. Do you think I'm without consequences with you. You have burned yourself into my heart as well. Don't you understand, or can't you? We are no longer able to be without each other. I need you to be able to sing and you need my songs to be able to exist. The other said and pulled Koi close. The other tensed up slightly and closed his eyes before he slowly put his hands on the other's back and clung on.
“Are you singing tonight?”
“Yes. At a popular club.”
“Then you should go slowly.” Koi said in a whisper and kissed him lightly on the shoulder. ‘Or do you want to disappoint your fans?’ At that moment, there was a tentative knock at the door. Koi lay down again and looked at the door.
“I don't want to disturb you, but we have to go. The concert is about to start, Y?ru.”
“I'll be right there,” Y?ru said and gave his manager a brief glance. When he had left, he looked back at Koi and stroked a finger over his lips. ‘I'm going to sing a new song today, just for you. Can you hear me?’ ”Maybe then you'll understand my feelings. I don't want to hold you in my arms, torn apart, but as a whole, and I also want your heart for me and your body and everything else about you.
I won't force you, but I'll break down if you don't finally come closer to me. I don't know where to put my feelings anymore, my songs are full of them. I am full of my passion, my longing, my love. I don't want to be with you anymore. It's enough for me if you're just around, you don't have to start a relationship. But don't let me freeze any longer.
Bat Y?ru asked quietly and leaned over him. He kissed him gently on the lips and felt the fire and passion even with this small touch. When he broke away from Koi, this kiss burned on his lips and Koi also felt this heat and put two fingers on his lips before he closed his eyes and slowly fell asleep. The doctors gave him so many sedatives and painkillers that Koi could no longer fight it.
For the first few weeks, he slept a deep sleep that resembled a coma, but he kept hearing Y?ru's singing. His voice pulled him back into the painful reality. The suffering that their love brought with it. His body was hot in the places that Y?ru had touched; they burned inwards and ate into his heart, his bones.
“There you are, Y?ru. How is he?”
“He's exhausted. They're giving him so much sedative and pain medication that he can hardly move.”
Sedatives?
He screams in the night when he wakes up. He won't let the doctors touch him either. If someone touches him, he tries to run away all the time. That's why we give him this stuff. Otherwise we can't treat him. He once said under anesthesia that he was on fire. I don't know what's wrong with him. But if it continues, he needs a psychiatrist. We don't know what to do anymore. Said a doctor behind them.
He is healthy. This has nothing to do with his injury. He just needs time. Said Y?ru quietly and left.
Is he like that too?
No. Just don't touch the little one all the time. There are other reasons why he reacts like that. They have nothing to do with a shrink, but are of natural origin. Treat his injury and we'll take care of the rest. And don't let the press in here. Just the two of us and his parents. Understood?
Yes. The doctor said, perplexed, and watched the manager leave.
Then he went into Koi's room and was about to examine him when the boy opened his eyes and avoided his gaze. “I just want to look at your injury. I'll only touch you there. I promise,” the doctor said cautiously. Koi looked at him suspiciously but allowed the doctor to see the injury and didn't resist further. He was also too tired to fight.
Could I get a TV tonight?
Do you want to watch a movie?
No. A concert. Koi said quietly and watched the doctor's fingers as he treated his injury. A clean shot through his left shoulder.
“I'll have a TV made. You should sleep some more. I'll check on you later,” the doctor said and left. Koi looked out the window for a while and then lay down again. He fell asleep after a few moments and woke up when he heard someone open the door.
“Where would you prefer it?“ the nurse asked. ‘Should I put the TV by the window or here in front?”
“By the window.’ Koi said quietly and sat up.
“Do you need anything else?”
“No. Thank you.” Koi said quietly and took the remote control. He sat up halfway and leaned against the pillow behind him. When he turned on the TV, he wasn't surprised at all to see which channel was set. As always, most people in the hospital only saw one channel, the news. He searched for one of the music channels and got the right one right away, namely the one that would broadcast Y?ru's concert. Y?ru wasn't on stage yet, but there was already screaming.
Koi was always able to sit backstage and listen, because he was always editing the recordings for some time. Koi closed his eyes when the concert started and tried not to see Y?ru, but just to hear the songs. But he didn't quite succeed. Imperceptibly, his face crept into Koi's thoughts and when Koi noticed it, he left it at that. He loved Y?ru's eyes, the way she looked at him, the way they shone when he sang. He loved singing, but there was one thing he loved even more.
Koi felt the passion with which Y?ru sang today. He felt the closeness, the longing. His pleas for him. Suddenly Koi opened his eyes and stared at the TV. Y?ru was wearing the outfit again that Koi loved about him. A simple black shirt, black pants and his hair was down. It fell on his face and formed a silky veil of silver strands that fell on his shoulders.
Y?ru wore a silver cross around his neck with a small heart-shaped stone. “You can't do that.” Koi said quietly and ran both hands through his hair. He felt the burning heat on his body, his lips. Felt Y?ru's hair touching his. Smelled the sweet scent of the soft perfume that permeated Y?ru. Felt the delicate hands on his chest.
Koi closed his eyes and he knew that Y?ru had meant this song. This song, which was for him alone. Which only he could understand. Which conveyed Y?ru's feelings and sensations to him. After a while, Koi gently fell asleep to Y?ru's singing. He still felt the fire of passion that Y?ru had sent him. When he felt a touch on his shoulder, he woke up and pushed the hand aside.
“Stay calm. I just want to take a look at your injury,“ the doctor said soothingly.
“You're different from the other doctors.”
“Why?” “Because I care for you?”
“No. The others always examine me completely and hold me if I don't want to let them.”
You don't like being touched?
No.
Why?
Because it takes something else away from me.
What is this something else? The touch of a certain person?
Yes. Koi said quietly and looked at the TV.
I turned it off. The concert was long over and I thought the other music would just wake you up again.
Thank you.
He's worried about you. He asked about you twice today. He couldn't come here yet, but he said I should tell you that he's trying to come as soon as possible.
Silly. He knows he can't do that. They'll hold him and bombard him with questions until he's too tired to come here.
Why? Isn't it good for his image?
No. Only his manager lets him out every now and then.
He seems to care about you a lot.
Yes. I also edited his videos for a while.
And you listen to his songs. Not like those so-called fans who just scream and can't even hear what he's singing. The doctor said with a smile.
He has a beautiful voice. I love to listen to him.
Is he that certain person? the doctor asked cautiously. When Koi looked at him in confusion, he continued. You said yesterday that he can't do this to you.
How do you know that?
I was in the room. I sat on the chair, because I thought you were asleep. I didn't want to wake you up, so I just listened to the concert. You trembled when he sang that one song.
He made me understand something, or tried to.
It's his touch that you don't want to lose. Am I right?
Yes. My body is hot in the places he touched. It burns deeply.
Why are you so sad then?
Because it won't work. I can't give in to him. The only thing that would happen then would be to endure suffering and pain. What I want wouldn't come and what he wants I can't give him.
What does he want that you can't give him?
Everything. He wants everything from me. Koi said quietly and pulled himself together. His whole body felt hot. His lips burned from the kiss, which, as gentle as it was, had transmitted so much passion that he couldn't forget it.
“You should sleep. I'll check on you later.”
“You have to keep this to yourself,“ Koi said urgently, looking at him intently.
“I know. I won't say anything. Besides, I'd lose two patients otherwise.” The doctor said with a smile.
“Two?”
You and Y?ru. He asked me to take care of you. He told me to just take care of your wound and not to touch you unless it was necessary. I told you he was worried. Said the doctor and left. Koi lay down and closed his eyes. His body burned like fire. His lips felt the passion that blazed within him. His hands wanted to touch him. He slowly fell asleep and only woke up when he felt Y?ru's gentle hand in his hair and opened his eyes.
“How are you feeling?” The doctor said he wouldn't give you any more sedatives.
No. He doesn't. I'll be good and let him examine me, as long as he only touches me there. Koi said quietly and looked at the TV.
You saw the concert?
Yes. I also understood your message, but I can't give in to you. I feel like I'm on fire when I'm with you. All I want to do is touch you.
Then do it. I won't stop you.” Y?ru said desperately. ”I can't anymore. I want you to stay with me. It doesn't have to be forever, but at least for now.”
You're asking too much of me. I can't give you everything. I can't even give you enough without withdrawing.” Koi said quietly and sat down. When he approached Y?ru, the latter embraced him tenderly and kissed him passionately on the lips. Koi wanted to escape from him but his strength was not enough emotionally.
He wanted to stay with him, but he was also afraid of the longing that had grown so immeasurably within him that it hurt him. He clung to Y?ru and didn't want to let go of him anymore. He only wanted to be with him, to feel the passion, to feel Y?ru's lips, to absorb his kisses inside. He wanted to dig his hands into Y?ru's back and never let him go again. But when he felt his inner fear, he pulled himself away and looked at Y?ru, breathing heavily.
Don't withdraw again and again. I can't do that. I want to hold you tight once you're close and I want to pull you to me.? Y?ru said quietly. Koi felt the flames on his back, his hip. Everywhere Y?ru had touched him again. He felt Y?ru's lips on his and tasted the sweet flavor of his tongue. He still felt Y?ru touching his hair and on his own hands he still felt Y?ru's heartbeat, although he didn't touch it anymore.
“It burns.” Koi said quietly. He lay down slowly and looked Y?ru in the eyes. The latter looked at him worriedly. ‘It hurts when you touch me, but I still don't want it to stop. I don't want to be touched by anyone else. Only by you, but I can't accept it.’ Koi said quietly and looked at the window.
The moonlight played in his eyes, refracting several times and making Koi's eyes shine. Y?ru laid his head on Koi's stomach and a hand on his chest. Koi gently stroked his hair and touched Y?ru's lips with a finger. “I'm sorry. I know I'm hurting you, but I can't help it.
I know, but then why can't you at least be close to me. I only want you to stay with me. That's all I ask of you.” Y?ru said softly and closed his eyes.
“Give me time.” Koi whispered and fell asleep. Y?ru looked at him gently and kissed him again on the lips. Koi returned the kiss without waking up and turned to the side. Y?ru left the room quietly and ran both hands through his hair.
“How are you?” the doctor asked cautiously and looked at him with concern.
“I don't know either. I want it, but I can't hold it.”
“That's normal. Love is a game. Give it the time it needs. He's confused and your closeness makes it worse. You're crowding him without wanting to or realizing it. He's not sure yet and that's why he avoids you. But overall, he feels attracted to you.” The doctor said calmly and put a hand on Y?ru's forehead.
“How would you know?”
“He told me. Now you'd better go home. You'll catch a cold if you don't get enough sleep.”
“How am I supposed to sleep when he's on my mind?”
Try. I'll take care of him,? the doctor said with a smile, and went into Koi's room. Meanwhile, Y?ru walked slowly home. When the doctor sat down on the edge of the bed, Koi started and unconsciously grasped the sleeve of his robe. He put a hand on Koi's head and tried to calm him down.
Where's Y?ru??
I sent him home, otherwise he'll get a fever. He doesn't get enough sleep because of you,' the doctor said with a smile. 'He's worried about you, but he wants your heart even more. Can I take a look at your injury?
Yes.” Koi said quietly and allowed the doctor to touch him. ‘I have to examine you completely today because I need to know how you react to the medication. Is that okay?”
“I don't really have a choice. I just don't like it when so many people talk at me or hold me.’ Koi said and smiled gently.
I know. That's why I ask you first if you have any objections. You're more open today. I didn't know you had such a beautiful smile,? the doctor said, smiling too. Koi looked at him, embarrassed, and allowed himself to be examined. I think I can imagine why he loves you,?
?So?? Koi asked, surprised.
First of all, you are his type and secondly, there is something about you that fascinates people.”
“His type?”
“Yes. He likes it when someone has bright eyes. No matter who they belong to. But just because he likes you, it doesn't necessarily mean he'll fall in love.”
“And what is it that's so fascinating?”
Your nature. When you've been known for a while, you have an effect on others as if you were burning with a fire that feeds on curiosity and radiates passion that attracts everyone. You don't need a bandage anymore.
They're watching closely, am I right?
Y?ru is sometimes like a little brother to me and I'm interested in who he loves. But I noticed you before, at one of his concerts. Everyone was screaming, only you were standing in a corner at the front, listening. This is probably another reason for his affection.?
Probably.?
Are you tired?
Yes.
Then sleep. I'll check on you again later.?
Okay.? Koi said quietly and lay down slowly. The doctor covered him carefully and gently stroked his forehead. Koi gently took his hand and held on to it as he fell asleep. The doctor sat down next to him and watched him for a while. When Koi whispered Y?ru's name, the doctor smiled gently and leaned in. He stayed with him and when Koi woke up, he smiled at him.
“How are you?”
“Better.” Koi said softly and noticed that he was holding the doctor's hand. He looked at the doctor, embarrassed, and let go.
It's okay. I don't mind. You whispered his name as you fell asleep. At first I thought you assumed he was here and stayed seated. But you also said my name. What did you dream?
I don't remember. I just felt comfortable. It's different in your presence than in his. I feel lighter and calmer. With Y?ru I feel stifled and don't know where I should go to escape the confinement.
He just wants you with him and you resist it. So it seems to you that his closeness is oppressive. When you have decided, you have to show him this. He doesn't know how to approach you.
I can't decide. My heart says I want him. But my mind doesn't want any problems. If I give myself to him, the press will immediately be after him and make life difficult for him, and I don't want any of that fuss either. I just want him. Not his fans, not the press, nothing. Just him. But that's not possible. If it is, then I have to take everything else too, and that crushes me.
I can imagine that, but there is a way you can have him without getting all the rest.
What way?
It depends on your decision, but I know an area where nobody would suspect you in any way. You could live your life and he could live his and secretly be in love. This way, both of you are helped. You don't have the hustle and bustle and he has you. He needs you to be able to live at all. The only one who can kill him is you. And it seems to me that he is the only one who can kill you, am I right? You are already so close, why do you do this to yourselves?
I don't know.
I can help you, but you have to control your feelings on your own.
Yes.
A yes? To my help, or to your feelings?
Both. I'll talk to him, but only when I'm out of here. He has to give me time. I just want to be alone for a while and think a little.
And you don't want him to visit you?
Yes. Besides, it's risky for him to come here.
He knows that. I'll tell him. Now you should get some rest.
Yes.
Sleep well.
Koi woke up gently the next morning. It was warm in the room and he hadn't suffered his usual nightmares, but had simply dreamt a normal dream, with all the strange things and unreal moments. He kept his eyes closed, even though he had long been awake. He sensed the presence of a person, but it wasn't Y?ru. He let himself drift for a while longer, enjoying the after-effects of the dream. As he slowly opened his eyes, the sun shone in his face. He closed his eyes again briefly and then opened them again carefully. He then turned to one side.
'Well, how do you feel?'
'Better,' Koi said with a smile.
'So you've made up your mind?'
Yes. And I think it's the right decision. But I won't know that for sure until I've made the decision.”
“All right. But I still have to examine you completely now, and I'd like to be able to release you slowly. You need to be around people again. You haven't had many visitors, have you?”
“How could I? I only know Y?ru and his band.”
“No parents?”
I grew up in an orphanage and ran away from there. Y?ru's manager took me in, sent me to school and let Technik take over a bit. Koi said quietly and slowly remembered. The doctor was suddenly very quiet and Koi noticed this. What's wrong? Why are you so quiet?
I have been wrestling with myself over whether to tell you something specific. But I know that I can also lose by telling you.
What do you want to tell me?” Koi asked, confused, and allowed himself to be examined. There was a moment of silence, and then the doctor made up his mind and began to speak.
“I know that I'm probably turning your life upside down with this and I don't want to rip you out of your world, so I'll leave it up to you to decide whether you believe me or not and whether you fulfill my request or not.” He fell silent for a moment, as if searching for words. Koi remained still. He didn't know what the doctor wanted to tell him. What could he say that would turn his world upside down? He wasn't much older than Koi himself. Maybe three or four years. “What I want to say is that it's time for you to come home.” Koi froze, even forgetting to breathe. Had he heard right? What did he want to say to him?
What does that mean?' Koi asked, confused, and tried to breathe again slowly.
'It means that I want my brother back home. I was still too young to be able to do anything back then, and when I was thirteen years old, I tried to find you somehow. But I couldn't find you. I also looked in the computer from time to time to see if you were in a home, but there was no mention of you, and now I know why. But I kept looking for you anyway.
When I heard from Y?ru's manager, after I asked him, that you are alone and that he always comes here to check on you, I was a bit surprised. He also said that I should examine you so that you would not be bothered by the other doctors because you had some problems at the beginning. Well. And so I couldn't avoid examining your blood. However, I noticed a few things.
You have the same blood type as me, which of course doesn't mean much, but there is something that is only in our family, namely we all have a certain characteristic in our blood. A kind of small transmitter. Father was in research and had developed this transmitter to lead lost children to their parents when they felt the need to do so. He gave it to you the night he found out that your mom wanted to give you up. He was against it, but he knew that the night she went away she wouldn't bring you back home. I knew about the transmitter and searched for it after a few things seemed similar, and besides, you look a lot like her. Now I can also find out a lot through the database.”
“What about Mom and Dad?”
“Mom died in a car accident last year. She was on her way home when she was hit by a drunk driver. She died at the scene. Dad broke down after that and has been in the hospital here ever since. He couldn't cope, after losing you too and not knowing where you were. That's why I've been looking for you more intensively since last year, but you couldn't be found.
Can I see him then?
Of course. He said, smiling a little. When Koi sat down, he looked him in the eye for a moment.
“Shall I tell you something?” Koi asked with a smile.
“What?”
“I was wondering when I would finally meet you.”
“You knew about me?”
Y?ru's manager told me about you. I didn't know what you looked like, or your name, or where you worked, but he said that when I felt alone, I should think of the person I missed the most and who was never there even when I wished he was. And to be honest, I always missed the same person, I just didn't know who it was. But now I also know why I don't feel as oppressed with you as I do with Y?ru.? Thereupon he hugged him and held on to him briefly.
By the way, my name is Dan.? he said grinning.
Okay. But you still have to tell me a lot, otherwise I won't know anything about you and you already know half of my life.?
No problem.
But now I want to see Dad.
Well, come on. He'll be happy to see you, but don't expect too much. As I said, he's not quite as fit.
Yes. Koi put on some clothes and followed Dan down the hallway. Almost at the end of the hallway were some stairs leading up. There were only a few rooms up there. When they arrived at the third room, Dan knocked briefly and opened the door. Warm rays of sunshine came from the room and the room itself seemed friendly.
“Hello Dad. How are you?“ Dan asked quietly and sat down by the bed. Koi closed the door and stood in front of it.
“Fine.” The man said weakly and smiled briefly. He seemed very weak. His face was haggard and his eyes were dull. He was very gaunt and seemed to Koi as if a part was missing. Something that has robbed this old-looking man of his youth.
“I'm glad. I brought someone with me,” Dan said smiling.
“You know I don't want any visitors.”
I don't think you're going to send this visitor away either,' Dan said, still smiling, and looked at Koi. 'Come here,' he said quietly. Koi hesitated for a moment and then went to the bed. He looked at Dan for a moment, seeking help, and then went to the edge of the bed. The old man looked away and made Koi a little uneasy, but Dan nudged him in the side.
“Hello, Dad?” Koi said quietly and waited for a reaction. When none came, he was about to leave, but Dan held him back just as his dad looked up. Koi was a little startled when he looked into the man's eyes, which suddenly reflected fear.
Dad. It's all right, he's really here. You're not dreaming.' Dan said soothingly. There was only silence for a while, then the old man smiled and a twinkle came into his eyes.
“You're the spitting image of her,” he said, smiling. Koi smiled gently too and took a deep breath. The tension had gone and he felt the familiar feelings again that he had felt with Dan before. ‘Come here, little one. Where have you been for the last 17 years?’ he asked quietly, taking Koi in his arms.
Actually, very close to us, Dad. Where you can least find him. He was with Y?ru.?
?The singer you told me about??
?Yes.?
?And I'd like to stay with him too.? Koi said quietly. His voice trembled slightly and his father looked him in the eye.
So you're the angel in his life, huh? When Koi nodded slightly, a few tears ran down his cheeks. 'Then stay with him, but come to me from time to time.'
'Of course. Now you won't get rid of me anymore,' Koi said grinning.
'I hope so, too, little brother,' Dan said quietly and ruffled his hair.
“Well. I don't want to kick you out, but I have to have breakfast first and Koi should rest a little, the way he looks.”
“Okay. I'll come back tonight.” Dan said quietly.
“You can bring Koi if you still let him out of his room.”
“I'm responsible for him and I say he can.”
That's good. So I'll see you tonight?
Yes. See you then, Dad? Dan said and was already standing up.
Koi? Don't let them get you down, okay? Let the others talk. As long as you're happy, who cares about the world? His dad said with a smile and gave Koi a hug.
“Yes?” Koi said quietly. ‘Thank you.’ Then he went downstairs with Dan.
“Should I tell Y?ru?”
“No. I want to call him myself, but first tell me when you're releasing me from here?”
“Tonight, that's why you're allowed to go to Dad's. And after that, I wanted to drive you to Y?ru.”
Okay. But I'll call him myself now. Koi said smiling.
All right and I'll get you breakfast.
Thanks. Koi said quietly and lay down in bed. He picked up the phone and dialed Y?ru's number. It didn't ring twice before the other end picked up.
“Yes?” Y?ru asked.
“Hi, it's me.” Koi said quietly and heard Y?ru sigh with relief.
“How are you?”
“I'm allowed out tonight.”
“Do you want me to pick you up?”
“No. Dan will drive me to you.”
“Dan?”
? The doctor? Koi said and couldn't help but grin. He was more than relieved and happy at the moment.
?Since when do you call him that? Y?ru asked gently when he heard that Koi had a specific reason.
?Since I know that he is my brother.?
?Your brother? Y?ru asked gently.
Yes. And I just saw my dad, too.
I'm happy for you. At least now I hear you with a happy voice and without an undertone of sadness for once in a long time.
I'm sorry that I worried you.
It's okay.
No. It's not okay. I know you feel bad too and I hurt you, and I'm sorry about that. But I've also made up my mind. And I'll stick with that decision. Koi said smiling.
What's your decision?
I'm staying with you.
Really?
Yes.
Who made you make that decision?
Dad. He said I shouldn't care about the world as long as I'm happy myself, and I'm happy with you, but don't crush me this time.
No. Certainly not. Y?ru said apologetically. Then I'll see you tonight?
Yes. But first I'm going to see Dad.
It's okay, I can stand the time now that I know you're mine.
I love you, Koi said and hung up. So, here's your breakfast.
THE END