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Information Im Not Dying
Posted by: Frenuyum - 11-15-2025, 02:06 PM - Replies (12)

Chapter 1

It had begun with war and ended in carnage. The dead were scattered across the land. Blood poured through the streets. Armoured soldiers with breathing apparatus wandered through the desolate streets of dead cities. Nothing but pockets of humanity remained, clinging desperately to some semblance of life.
I woke up screaming again. My body soaked in sweat. Mum was sat at the edge of my bed, a hand resting reassuringly upon my knee. "It's OK, calm down" She repeated. I looked at her wild eyed as I processed the horror of my nightmare.
"It's coming Mum, I know it is, it's coming" I mumble eventually as the panic vanished. Then I vomited. This had become a near nightly occurrence since I had fallen ill three months prior. I had just returned home after visiting some friends in Newcastle, when something took me. It started with headaches, then came the fever, aching joints, and vomiting. I couldn't eat and barely slept. The doctors were baffled. They tried all the usual drugs, done all the tests. They said to me one day, "There's something there Alex, but what that is and how we deal with it, we don't know yet!".
I wasn't the only one, across Britain some twelve others suffered the same symptoms. The only difference between them and myself, were the dreams, and I hadn't died yet. The governments newly formed, Terrorist Response Unit (TRU) had questioned us all, but there was no tangible link. We had all been in different areas of the country, doing different things when we had contracted the virus. The situation was helpless, but I was still alive, and that's a good thing.
Mum wiped my face as I collapsed onto my pillow again. Thankfully she had been prepared tonight. She took the bucket of my vomit away, and returned with a glass of water. Her face racked with worry. "I'll call the doctor first thing" She says watching me drink the water.
"Mum I'm fine" I state, clearly lying.
"Your not! I'm ringing the doctor and that's that. This has been going on to long, someone must know something by now!" she declared. Her worry blended with fury over the hopelessness of the situation. I sighed deeply.
"I just need... more time... I feel like shit but I'm not dying" My Mum shook her head at my warped optimism. I don't like worrying people, most of all myself. I force a smile as another brain wrenching headache took me in its vice like grip. Mum watching over me like a sentinel, her only weapons the sheer determination of motherhood.
The next day the doctor visited. More out of routine than request. He checked all my vitals, cross referenced them with my data and smiled at my Mum. "Well the good news is, he's stabilising. Temperatures dropped, his heart rate is stronger, blood pressure good, I think your on the road to recovery Alex" He says. I raise a thumbs up to my Mum.
"How long?" She demanded.
"That I can't say" The doctor answered, his earlier enthusiasm abating. My mother sighed with frustration and walked out the room. The doctor patted me on the shoulder, "You'll be fine Alex"
"I know! You try telling her that" I joke, a huge grin plastered across my face, "now if you'll excuse me, I need to pee" I state struggling to my feet. The doctor helped me to the bathroom and left me to do my business. I returned moments to my bed for another action packed day of fitful sleep, strange dreams and maybe, if I'm lucky, some vomiting.
A week later I was fine. As quickly as it came it left. I went to the hospital for tests, and I got the all clear. Mum proclaimed it a miracle. The doctors ecstatic that they finally got something right, and I was generally OK with the fact I was still breathing. Now to get back to the things I missed, the sex, the drugs, the rock and roll. No not really, that had been a few years ago. Now I live with my mum back in North Wales, after five years of working, drunken debauchery, failed relationships and a small mental breakdown. I tried to fling myself off a bridge. A true victim of the our modern time. At twenty four I am a damaged individual slowly rebuilding his life, waiting for that something special to fill my world. So far I've discovered I quite like gardening.
Mum and I eventually get home from the hospital. It's late summer and the garden is looking a little wild. My veg patch riddled with weeds, and some of my Purple Sprouting Broccoli had gone to seed weeks ago. This was a disaster. I was stood upon the raised patio surveying my (well my mums) land like a disgruntled king, cup of tea in hand.
"Sorry, it all got a little abandoned, what with everything" Mum stated as I patrolled the garden.
"It's no bother Mum, give me something to do" I remark, pulling a weed here and there randomly, "must have been all that rain we had a few weeks ago. Look the runner beans are doing well, need picking though"
And so began six hours of weeding, picking, sowing and planting. I reorganize the shed, check my compost heap, and tell a rather determined blackbird off for stealing my worms. All in all it had been a productive day. Now was time to have a glass of wine, a bite to eat, and see if anyone's up to anything. Afondiwedd, (pronounced Afon dew eth or there about) is a moderately small town, with a couple of shops, a squat little church and two pubs, and suited me to the ground. I had grown up in a similar village not to far away, I had gone to a primary school down the road, and as a result knew a smattering of local people around my age.
As Mum served up home made spaghetti bolognese I poured the wine and checked my mobile phone. The bane of my life. I hate the thing, it grates my every bone. Its constant chirping demanding my attention all the time. This strong distaste for a piece of technology that has probably had just as much impact on society as the wheel and the toaster, is a by product of my small mental breakdown. When I worked up in Newcastle I was a manager for a large pub company, and due to the ineptitude of my fellow managers I was in constant demand. I was always on the end of my phone, even when I was on holiday, or in the hospital watching my grandmother die. Questions like where are the spoons, or do you know this password, how does the printer work? They had no respect for me, and in the end I had non for them. I walked out one night whilst on shift, a member of staff had just asked me what was in a gin and tonic and it pushed me to far. I left walked through the city and stood upon the High Level Bridge looking down into the murky depths of the Tyne and thought about jumping. Then my mobile phone rang. Looking at it it was the pub, no doubt my colleague trying to find out where I was. I threw it into the water. Then life goes a bit blurry, but eventually I was found a few days later, by a really nice homeless man who gets the police and I end up in hospital.
That was when Carol my best friend fired up her clapped out bright yellow Fiat Sencento, otherwise known as Tino, and drove me the two hundred and forty eight miles to my mums house. That was a year ago, and I'm still here. But now I have a new phone and its every ability to make noise, vibrate or any other means of trying to grab my attention has been disabled. I have two text messages. Ones from my dad, he wants to meet up for a drink, and the other is from my old school friend James, he also wants to have a drink. Life is exciting when your not dying.
I respond to my dad first, agreeing to meet in about an hour in the Cross Keys the pub furthest from my mums house, then I text message James asking him to meet in two hours at the White Lion, about six doors up from my house. Sorted. I pocket my mobile. Dinner was lovely, and together mum and I polished off the bottle of wine. Soon it was time to meet my dad, so I tell mum I'm off to meet the guys for a few drinks. She tells me to take it easy and not drink to much, just as she refills her seventh glass of Chardonnay and sparks up a cigarette, like mother, like son. No sooner am I out the door I too light a cigarette and off I trot to the Cross Keys to paint this one horse town red.
Afondiwedd has an interesting collection of habitants. Some are young families renting houses in and about the town, but most were retired home owners waiting out the rest of their lives in the same town they were born in. As a result a certain level of bigotry is inherent in the older populace. When the local corner shop had been bought by a Pakistani family the people were up in arms, well zimmer-frames, but now after a few years, a couple of broken windows and a restraining order, they're pretty much accepted. But if the oldies found there was a gay in their midst, I think it would be burning torches and pitchfork time again. However the people around my age and little older are relatively normal and have few qualms. Still I'm pleased I'm not camp at all really, and I don't dress like a scene queen, so my secret is pretty much safe. I am out as it were. My family knows, and all my friends, and I am proud of who I am, I'm just not stupid either.
So here I am walking towards the Cross Keys garbed in a crisp black shirt with embroidered cuffs and a darted chest, black jeans, and my favourite black and white skater trainers, all topped off by a pair of sunglasses pinning my dark brown hair back. My skin is clear and fresh and I feel great. First time out loose in months and I'm not dying!
Walking into the Cross Keys I'm greeted by the usual old man pub smell. Since the Smoking Ban, BO and stale ale were now the air fresheners of such an establishment. However it's smell I've grown accustomed to after my years working behind a bar. There sat at the bar is my father. Otherwise known as Dad, or Harry to those not of his linage. He's sat cradling a real ale. A local one I assume. He smiles as he sees me approach. His hair now completely grey but once was raven black. His brown eyes gentle and reassuring. He has the distinct air of a man quite content in the world.
"Hello son!" He declares getting off the bar stool to give me a hug, "You had us all worried"
"I had myself worried" I reply with a cheeky grin, "But I'm all good now!" My dad then fixes me with a stare. A worried cautious stare, one he seems to reserve just for me, "seriously was at the hospital today and they sat I was clear! Fit as a fiddle actually, probably better than before! Lost a bit of weight!" I say holding my diminished belly. It was true I had lost three stone since falling ill, and I felt quite chipper.
"Heard from your brother?" He asked, sitting back down and pulling out a stool for me. I take it and swivel in front of the bar. Now, the elusive brother. My father and I have this conversation every time we see each other. Charlie, my older brother by ten years, has always been a bit aloof ever since our parents divorce, and we weren't particularly close, mainly because as I was coming out of nappies he was running off with his friends. The only conversations we had in the early years were usually arguments, and so when I was eleven and went off to boarding school and he was away at university we never really spent any time together. However now, after my small breakdown he had proclaimed he was my protector. How he intends to act on that title is beyond me, be way down south in London.
"Not heard from him, but Mum spoke to him earlier today, she says he's coming up to visit soon but well we'll see"
"And how is your mother?"
"Well the usual" My mum is a very protective, but also very difficult woman at times. She is always right even when she is blatantly wrong, and has a bit of a drink problem. It's the belief of most of the family now that she has some deep seated medical condition, something like Personality Disorder Cluster B, but getting her to a doctors... its easy to draw blood from a stone, "Fighting anyone and anything, the doctors mainly over the last few weeks, I think the neighbours are in for some soon though. She's been harping on about the fence again"
My dad shakes his head slightly, his face set in a frown, then he perks up, "Wendy wants to see you", Wendy is my dads wife. She's an interesting woman, she worked for years in the mental health sector and is now a social work supervisor. For the past year she's been angling for me to go into social work, believing quite adamantly I would be perfect for the job. She had obviously just heard about my application to the local college to see about an access course in Health and Social Care, the vital stepping stone for me to get into university.
"I thought she might," I say with a smile. The conversation continued following the line of my decision to go into social work, am I sure its the right move, and so on. Then we discuss my step brothers, both eager to see me. They are another ten years younger than me, and since they lost their biological older brother I seem to have stepped into that role without knowing it. Dad says there's a number of questions they have for me, which they don't want to ask my dad or their mum. So its about girls no doubt. Eventually the hour for me to move on draws. We say our good byes and Dad sets off home.
I only had one drink with my dad, this is because I don't like to drink much around him after a very embarrassing incident when I was fifteen and ended up in hospital with Alcohol Poisoning, all because I accidentally drank a bottle of rum. Now your probably thinking I spend quite a considerable amount of time in hospital. This is essentially true, I am a bit clumsy, and have quite bad luck. To emphasise this, I trip on a curb just by the White Lion, and I can see James and his usual posse in the window laughing at me. I do a bow and walk into the pub. The White Lion is distinctly different from the Cross Keys. It's patrons usually the younger citizens of Afondiwedd. There's clichéd rock music playing on the jukebox. Flatscreen TV's tiling the walls portraying the sports events of the day. Something I have little to no interest. The bar maid was considerably much younger than the aged crone that could barely pull a pint in the Cross Keys.
James and his gang had occupied their usual window table. They were all there, Rachel, Becky, Brian and Stuart, and of course James. His rugged blonde face still dusty from his masonry work. But there was also someone else. I recognised him but couldn't put a name to him. Who ever he was he was quite handsome. He was leaning on the wall behind one of the girls, I forget which because they all look the same round here. James immediately clocks me and throws his arms up into the air crying out my name. I smile as a round of cheers comes from the table. It's their cheesy traditional welcome, but its nice. I order my drink, a cold pint of cider, and I walk over to the table careful not to spill. I realise there's no more seats so rather than turning round and getting one I opt to stand. Thankfully my shorter welsh stature means I'm not to much higher than those sitting down.
Usual conversation unfolds, how am I, what did I have, where was I, how did I get it, and what was it like dying, were the dominant questions. I reassure everyone I wasn't dying at any point just really quite ill. I then spend twenty minutes convincing them I'm not contagious in anyway, something some of them are reluctantly believe. I then notice the handsome stranger had remained silent the entire time, he spent the time just staring at me. Not in a freakish way but still staring. I look at him and smile. He smiles back. This is getting interesting.
"Oh yeah Alex, you remember Lee. We used to go to primary together, you were the year below us weren't you Lee?" James states. I nod recognition, as Lee confirms this. Of course I knew him, I knew him pretty damn well, I slept with him a couple of times I seemed to recall. We had been quite close in Primary, but then when I was away at school we rarely saw each other and then one day when I was fifteen and he fourteen, we, well we fucked. It was a mad moment in my life, I was just coming to terms with my sexuality and somehow it happened. I was camping with a couple of friends from school who were staying with me for the Easter Holidays and Lee was there. We got a bit drunk then we had each other in the woods. Very romantic. He fucked me first, and then I him. It was a potent memory, and it came flooding back. I blush involuntarily.
"Yeah the lucky dogs banging Rachel here" James states quite braskly. Rachel instantly chastises him and Lee laughs. Ah... not so interesting then after all. A bit disheartened I decide to go for a smoke. I get the usual frowns from the gang but Lee offers to join me, I agree and we walk to the back of the pub to the smoking area. Night had quickly come and the typically pale skies of mid summer were turning purple-blue, the occasional star blooming.
"So... Lee..." I began as I took a seat at the picnic table under the awning, a lone light bulb flickering above. I take out my pack of cigarettes and offer one to Lee who is leaning against the wall of the pub. He declines the cigarette. "How are you?"
"Good, yeah really good. You"
"Never felt better!" I scoff as I spark up, relishing the burn of the smoke as I inhale, "What you been up to?" I study his face, he had turned out very handsome in deed. He had green eyes that sparkled in the strange light and dirty blonde hair I remember fondly. He had a nice brush of stubble about his jaw and chin. I suddenly remembered the touch of his soft smooth olive skin and I start to get hard. I try and hide it by crossing my legs.
"Uni mostly, got back about a few months ago, set up my own business. I design and make bespoke furniture. Yourself?"
I laugh to myself a moment, "That's a complicated story!" and so I regale him with a brief explanation of my adventures up north. He responds appropriately and sincerely. That's just like him I thought, recalling his friendly and polite nature. The bastard I thought, your going to be stalking my dreams for a while now.
"I'm glad your well again, I've been hoping to catch up with you" he said a soft and curious smile crossing his lips.
"Yeah, its a nice surprise. So Rachel?" I ask unsure if I want to hear the answer.
"Yep... Rachel" He doesn't sound totally happy, I tilt my head slightly cigarette dangling between my lips. Then he leans forward. He's very close, so close in fact its a little invasive. I have a thing about personal space, just another one of my many wonderful and strange intricacies. He carefully plucks the cigarette from my lips and took a drag before handing it back. I realise my face had been mere inches from his crotch. I blush again. He leans back on the wall. "She's great and all, but well it was more my parents idea. She works for my mum, and well you remember my dad".
This is true, I did. Lee's dad was hot, well he was when he was younger. He had been a boxer in the army in his youth but when I met him he had turned his attention to martial arts. He had a toned body, with the right amount of muscle and a gorgeous smile and piercing green eyes. But he was a typical army man in many ways, and expected his son to be very much a man.
I finish my cigarette quickly, not truly interested in the politics of Lee's family, as I go to step past him, he raises his hand ever so slightly and it touches against my stomach. I stop instantly, his mouth close to my ear.
"I remember" he whispered. I look at him. His flashes his white teeth in a cheeky grin. When I think back I find it strange how I reacted here. I gulped. Quite loudly. His hand moved down slowly and groped me. I gulped again unsure of what to do. Suddenly the door to the pub swung open and I instantly jumped back onto the picnic bench landing awkwardly and nearly fall off the bench. Rachel looks at me curiously, one of my legs in the air.
"Erm... OK... we're putting some songs on the jukebox either of you two fancy anything?"
"Do you want the truth or something beautiful by Paloma Faith please hun" Lee asks. I have to battle against my will to laugh at the irony of the choice, but I don't disapprove. The song in my opinion was an instant classic.
"You always pick that" She said with a cute chuckle. She was very pretty.
"What can I say. I like the song. We'll be in shortly Alex is just sorting himself out!" Lee turned to help me up, I had remained frozen in position, unsure if Rachel suspected anything. He offered me his hand and I took it. With a great heave I was upright, and a bit flustered. He pulled my shirt straight and smiled his sickeningly handsome smile. "Sort yourself out" he teased. His hands lingering on my sides, his thigh brushing against my crotch. He could clearly feel my hard on. I blush instantly and try to arrange myself, which isn't as easy as I would like in my jeans.
Still a bit blustered I follow Lee into the pub, I check his ass out in his skinny jeans. Its a nice ass. I realise have to stop thinking like this, or I'll get myself into trouble. The cards are out when we get back to the table. I am awful at cards so I sit the game out. Poker is to much like hard work for me. For an hour or so we all chat and have a good time, and then I decide to check my mobile. Sure enough there's another text message and a missed call. When will people learn not to bother calling me. Its from Mum.
A. can you get me a bottle of wine and some cigarettes? Xxx

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Information Ray of Hope
Posted by: Frenuyum - 11-15-2025, 02:00 PM - Replies (8)

Chapter 1-Shooting Star

There is much that goes on, many battles fought to save humankind, that humans don't know of. Their was one great fight that surpassed them all. Humankind fate was placed upon a young mans shoulders, my shoulders. This is my tale and if I will tell you of it then I'm going to start from the beginning:

We had just left a party. We? Yes we, as in myself and my best friend of a year, who naturally I had the world's biggest crush on. He was classically beautiful. I don't use that term with men a lot. I think of men as gorgeous, handsome, but he...he was beautiful. He was 6'2, about 165 and had that complexion that looked like he had a tan that never went away. You know that sun kissed complexion. He was in all rights an introvert. He kept to himself, but I didn't care because in my eyes he could do no wrong. He in my opinion was what stories were made of, the very essence of what dreams were. To put it in Laymen terms, he was the SHIT!

He was a blessing, he just showed up one day out of nowhere. He was the one I ran to when shit got heavy such as when my wicked aunt was being a total bitch or my day was totally fucked up ( which happened a lot). He was pretty much my world, pitiful as it seems.

Today I happened to drag him and I do mean literally drag his ass to a party. We decided to leave early because he sure as hell wasn't lying when he said he didn't do well in the whole 'party scene'.

Seron and I were talking about something trivial while we walked down the street. We bypassed the sidewalk for a little dirt road, it was a shortcut that I had used many times, but as you can figure out that this time was different. As we walked quietly in the dark he had his arm loosely around my shoulder. Seron was always an affectionate person and though I'd love to say he was only like that with me, it wasn't true. I relished in his arm around me because I knew that was as close as I was going to get to him holding me. But then I felt Seron's hand go rigid, I looked up at him and he was still and tense.

"It is time." An unknown voice said. I looked in the direction and could barely make out a figure. "

Time...um its 12:30" I said thinking that I didn't hear him properly and that he was probably asking for the time.

"Do not talk in matters that you do not know." He said in a manner that left no wonder if he was annoyed or not.

"What is it that you want. I am not to return till the end of the year. I have 2 months to go." I looked at Seron in astonishment. What the fuck is he talking about? Is he leaving, is he going somewhere?

"It is time." The voice said again.

"Father said I could stay until I turned 57 years old." Seron said and that left me more confused. 57 years old? Yeah if he's 57 then I must be fucking a thousand because he was notorious for having a baby face. If you hadn't talked to him you would have thought he was only 16!

"Their has been a change in matters Seron. Our lord has fallen today. Great evil has come, the prophecy points to you. You must come and take your rightful place, my lord. You have a kingdom to rule, Where is our hope?" The man said solemnly.

"It is with me." Seron said looking at me gravely.

"What the fuck is going on. What the hell is he talking about Seron?" I said, I was starting to get really freaked out by all of this and before Seron could respond I felt a sharp pain go thru my whole body and then I blacked out.

I awoke with a startle. I slowly got up and looked around. The room was extravagant to say the least, full of exotic silks and paintings. The bed was made of what looked to be gold. The sheets were smoother then the best silk and softer then freshly whipped cotton candy.

I slowly stood up out of the comforters and then I realized I wasn't wearing my clothes. I had on a pair of black pants that looked like leather, but they didn't feel it. It was if I had the lightest material ever on. I had to look down twice to make sure I actually did have pants on. My chest was bare, much to my dislike since it was a little chilly.

I walked slowly to the door and was totally freaked out because before I could go to open it, it opened all by itself as if it had a mind of its own. I walked out into the hallways and crept along the walls out into a grand hall. The floors itself looked like it was made of white gold with gold trimmings. The walls were painted with such lifelike images and had a weird language written on it.

I walked that hallway for what seemed like months but probably was only an hour. I was soon getting discouraged, it seemed as if the hallway had no ending. I turned to go back to my room and was surprised to see that I was only a few steps away from it. It couldn't be! I've been walking for forever, the images on the walls were changing as I went on, theirs no way that I only made it fucken 12 steps from the door. I ran in my room and curled myself in a ball at the head of the bed. I was either going crazy or this was a really, really vivid dream.

"Sire would like to see you know." I recognized that voice from last night. I looked up to see a man dressed in the same leather looking pants as me. With a long leather coat and a black wife beater under it with a cross that shone brightly around his neck. He looked to be 6'1, about 170 pounds of pure muscle give or take a few pounds. His hair flowed down his back, almost to his butt. His skin looked like it was kissed by the sun, square jaw and full lips. But his greatest feature was his eyes, they were the same shade of Seron's, but were totally different. Passion, strength, cunning was paretically pouring from them.

"Tristan! Tristan!" He didn't quite shout but said over and over firmly. I quickly snapped out of it and shook my head trying to clear the cobwebs.

"Tristan is your name, is it not?" He asked looking at me with a smirk.

"Yeah and yours?" I asked curiously.

"Sephlous Taome (Se-f-lous Tah-ome)" he said.

"Where the hell am I? Where's Seron? What the hell is going on here?" I said starting to shoot questions at him.

"You will know in time, but for now you need to come with." He said very nonchalantly. I stood up and walked over to him figuring that I couldn't stay rolled up in a ball in that bed all day. We walked out to the hallway and as we walked I kept looking back, making sure that we were actually distancing ourselves from the bedroom door.

We soon made it to a staircase. I looked up and I thought I would die. The staircase seemed to go on and on and on. I couldn't help but ask "Am I suppose to walk up that?"

"Yes" was his reply and he soon started making it up the stairs at a pace I would not be able to keep for long. By the time I actually saw the end to the staircase I was collapsing all over myself in exhaustion and we still had a long way to go to reach it. I looked over at Sephlous who was quite a few steps above me who didn't even look phased. He wasn't sweating, he wasn't out of breathe. He WAS staring down at me looking utterly annoyed.

I couldn't help it, I had to sit down and as soon as I did I was picked up and ran up the stair so swiftly that I didn't have time to think, let alone react. We reached the top of the stairs in a matter of seconds. Sephlous let me down and I just stared at him. He still didn't look phased. Ok I know I'm skinny and all but picking up something 135 pounds and running up a staircase that looked to be at least 5 blocks and not even breaking a sweat was weird as hell, it was damn near unhuman.

"All your questions will have answers, but you must come." He said in his infamous nonchalant way. I dumbly followed, a million and one thoughts racing through my head all at once. We soon made it into a large room filled with people sitting on the floor talking. I looked at all of them and saw one common trait, all of their eyes were green. Sephlous started talking to this huge man and was whispering not too softly "This can not be him?"

"Seron says it is, it is written that he would know." The huge men said to Sephlous.

"It is not him. Look at him. He is weak, quite pathetic, not much of a man at all." Sephlous said staring at me, looking at me like I was pathetic. I felt my cheeks reddening under their scrutiny.

I averted my eyes and then I saw Seron lying on the bed. His eyes filled with tears, his face full of sorrow. They must not have treated him as well as they treated me. I took off running for him. As I was about to reach Seron, a man grabbed me and before I could really think I picked him up and threw him clear across the giant room and ran over to Seron and pulled him in my arms. He started to bawl when I held him and then what I had just did hit me. I sat there holding Seron in complete shock. I kept looking at where I was when I threw the man and where he landed. What the fuck is going?

Every one sat up and stared at me. I just continued to look at that spot and then I felt weird. Something came over me. My eyes grew heavy but I wasn't tired and when I finally closed my eyes, images and words that I never saw or knew were going thru my head lightening fast. Their was a lot of stories, languages, spells and demons of all sorts going thru me. Pictures of horrific things that even my imagination could not conjure up were going thru my head. None of it made sense to me and then I felt weak, really weak. I opened my eyes to see that I was floating above the floor. When I realized what I was doing I just passed out.

I awoke and felt two arms wrapped tightly around me. I looked around and the whole room was in complete darkness, but the bed was illuminated by a white light. I looked up to see Seron staring at me, his green eyes were now more brighter then I ever saw them. "Seron what is going on here, I'm scared?" I whispered over to him.

" I have much to tell you friend, much to tell you. I am part of a race, a species called Proeliator. We are somewhat of a...hmmmm...a vampire." He said slowly. I looked up at him like he was crazy and I slowly stared to pull away from him.

"What the hell are you talking about Seron." I said when he pulled me back into him and held me there with such force.

"Our species, race is called Proeliator, warriors. A long, long time ago their was an uprising. Proeliator split into two groups. These groups had very different viewpoints on the world and its ways. The groups were called Belatricus and Vampires." He said very quietly. At that information I struggled to get out of his hands but he held me there tightly.

"Your scaring me Seron, let me go!" I screamed at him.

"I will, after I finish telling you everything." I looked up at him and nodded not because I wanted to finish hearing his gibberish but because his grip on me was so tight that I couldn't get out of it even if I wanted to.

"Our...um...species you could say were born with powers. We could read minds, our strength is of power you could only dream, we age extremely slowly, we run as fast as light, we are taught from young wizardry. The Belatricus believed in leaving Noraah (middle earth) to its own devices. We are opposed to the vampires who wanted to rule Noraah (middle earth). They wanted humans to be their slaves. They started to take over Noraah (middle earth), they would drink the blood of men who rallied against them in front of their families and friends. They did it to scare the people, so they wouldn't oppose them. Their was one king of the Proeliators, the king of us and the vampires. Unfortunately he was on his dying bed. Their were two heirs to the throne. They were to share the throne together, but one was evil and was the king of the vampires. As the others was the king of the Belatricus. It is said the warring among them led their father to death, but before he went, the word of what the vampires were doing in the villages got to him. He summoned up all his last strength and put a hex on them. That what they despised most they would have to live off and the eviler the heart the more that pure goodness would eat away at it. He thought it would make the Vampires hate for the humans disperse seeing as now they needed them. He did not think they were so evil that they would kill so many innocent humans to live. He thought they would find hosts. Humans that would allow them to feed off of them, he was sadly mistaken. They turned evil beyond his dreams" He said stopping to wipe a tear from his eye.

"But their were pros and cons to being a vampire. They're immortal, unlike us who just age very slowly. But they can not speak the goodness of the lord. Blessings from God kill them. Such as the sun, such as the cross for it is a symbol of a great blessing. They are weak compared to us, but it is very rare for a man or woman to have more then 4 children here. Our process for birth is quite different and they reproduce so quickly. But they're offsprings do not hold the strength of their fathers. They're blood was too tainted with that of the humans. In the 1200's there forces were getting smaller and smaller. We thought for sure that they would not survive another hundred years, but then they found out that they could turn humans. That they could make humans one of them and now there are many of them. It is to the Belatricus to keep them from enslaving or totally destroying Noraah (middle earth). It is a great task since we are outnumbered, but they are out forced." He said in a weary voice, in such a grave tone that I actually believed in all he said.

"Vampires you say." I whispered, thinking of how I should be way more weirded out by this then I am.

"You know this story, it is written in your blood. You are Specula, a ray of hope." He smiled down at me.

"What the fuck are you talking about. This don't got shit to do with me, I am all human." I said giving him that what-the-fuck-is-you-thinking look.

"Before the great king died, he told us of a boy whose blood was pure and tainted. That he would hold the key to the survival or destruction of Noraah (middle earth). That his grandson down four generations will find him in Noraah (middle earth) the year of his 56th and will befriend him. Went brought into the room of his death, he will bare the mark of Specula above his left eye, the symbol of hope. I, Seron am the grandson down four generation of the great king. The day I turned 56, I traveled to Noraah (middle earth) alone. On my first arrival I saw a boy who emanated great kindness and I knew without a doubt that he was the chosen one. The he was Specula!" He said as he slowly let go of me.

"I have no scar above my left eye Seron." I said to him as I sat up. He took a mirror from the bedside table and handled it to me. What I saw left me breathless, sure enough above my left eye was a scar. The scar looked like out of this world. It was made of three stars that ran along side my eyebrow, it looked like liquid silver but on the touch it was just skin. Going thru the stars was what looked like a shooting star, it was a fiery red. I stared at myself for a few minutes. The only smart thing I could say was "Holy shit!"

I looked back at Seron, he was staring down at me with an amused face. "A boys blood who was pure and tainted" I reiterated his words.

"Your parents did not confide in you before they died, that you were adopted. Your real parents, well, your mother was a powerful Belatricus who was raped by a group of Vampires. We are stronger then they are because they were stripped of almost all their natural powers, but still 30:1 is a great disadvantage. They have raped before, but the baby was never strong enough to make it through and you, you're the one that did." He said looking at me closely. It was all too much for me.

"How do I know that all you say is true. " I said looking at him hoping to find a way out of all of this. The fate of Noraah (middle earth) on the shoulders of a shmuck like me seemed. Well, it seemed stupid.

"I do not have to convince you, you know it already. You are trying to deny your rightful path. Your powers are coming to you quickly. All the knowledge of your parents, the pure and the tainted you have received. All their incantations, spells and such have come back to you. The languages of the earth are known by you. Everything has come to you. The images, the words, everything. You just don't understand them yet. They will come to you on your second week, seventh nights rest. Come now, you need to rest." He said and instantly I got tired. I fell asleep but not before seeing the whole room illuminate and all the people that were their before were still there.

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Information Gangsta Lovin
Posted by: Frenuyum - 11-15-2025, 01:12 PM - Replies (8)

Chapter 1- Love Or Death

I ran and ran as fast and as far as I could, but I couldn't anymore. I saw an alley way that was almost pitch black. I ran to it, to safety, but I only made it by the entrance. My body collapsing against the hard black brick wall.

Inside I was screaming "They're coming, they're almost here, run." But my body could no longer hold up. Constantly running, hiding and fighting for the last two weeks. I was too tired. All I could do now is pray, pray they wont see me. Pray the streets would hold me safe.

I sat there. My pants and shirt soaked in mud, sweat and blood. My hair like a mop on my head. My ribs screaming pain. My boots feeling like 3 tons of weight. My eyes begging to shut. My body absolutely defying my mind.

Asking the dark to hold me and keep me. Asking the cold concrete and unforgiving brick walls full of grime, blood and chalk to hold me and keep me. Asking the God I've never really known to hold me and keep me.

I heard footsteps rapidly approaching. I pulled my legs to my chest. Trying my hardest to control my breathing, and to stay awake. How the hell did I manage to get here?

The men finally caught up to me. They stood and stared at me, but weirdly enough they didn't move. At this point I was really worried. This for all could be the last time I saw the street. The last time I heard the music of the streets. The last time I did anything. I look up in the eyes of the men that are about to sign my death slip.

I saw their eyes and they kept looking down at me and then up. I tried to move my head to see what they were looking at, but my head would not acknowledge the command my mind was getting. All I could do was look down. When I did I saw one words, 'Love.'

Love is synonymous with murder out here in Brooklyn. Those words mean something more then candle lights and walks watching the moon out here, they mean danger. Love is an all man, well organized gang. The graffiti on the floor and I'm guessing on the wall means this is their property.

These guys are bad to the bone. They wont think twice about killing you. They're the bastards you hear about on T.V All they're dirt up in the air. If you ever want somebody tortured, call on them. That's their specialty. I'd never do business with them. I've always made sure to stay away from them.

I snapped out of it when I heard the men running the direction they came. I tried to get up. Tried to move from their grounds, but my legs would not hold up. I tried to keep my eyes open, but my eye lids were fighting me the whole way.

*****

I didn't wake to the cold concrete as I expected. I woke to the op posite, a nice soft bed. I looked around, the room was massive and it lo oked really expensive. Decked out in flashy furniture and a massive big screen TV. I jumped up and immediately regretted it. My ribs were making themselves painfully clear to take it easy.

I realized that I wasn't in the muddy clothes anymore. That I had silk pajama bottoms on and my ribs were wrapped up tight. I don't know about you but I'm getting worried. I past out on Love grounds and I'm still alive. Oh no, I am a live, right? As if reading my thoughts the door to my room is immediately opened. I jumped up again and was ready.

In walked this man. Decked out in a Hugo Boss type suit that didn't hide his muscular physique. About 6ft, 190 pounds give or take. Sunglasses on and just looking like his name should be smooth! I was in position, ready to swing, ready to fight. I watched him carefully as he walked in. Damn he looked good. Hazel eyes, short hair, nice soft complexion. My eyes trailed a lil bit down but were immediately stopped when I came across his neck and he had the infamous tattoo of a small heart in blood red.

No fucking way was I in one of the loves apartment. I looked up and he had a smirk on his face. His eyes were so soft but that was deceiving, I knew that. Within a second he lunged at me. His legs flying for my ribs. His martial arts trainer and the streets did him justice.

Unfortunetly I have no martial arts training. The only trainig I got was from the streets. I held my own with him barely, but I was rapidly getting tired. He was whipping my ass to be honest, but not to the point where he's coming out of this thing without a scratch. All I knew was If was going to live through him I was going to have to do something fast.

Then I saw my opening. Their was this scarf laying on the couch in the room with one leap I had it my hand and with another move I had it wrapped around his throat. I applied pressure to make him calm the fuck down. What the fuck am I to do. I know better then to kill a love. That would be signing my own death warrant. I let the scarf slide tightly over his chest and once under it I tied it really tight. I grabbed his legs and tied it with a sheet. The whole time he didn't even say a word. I know that these ties wouldn't last long, but they would last long enough.

I needed to get home. Get on my turf. Get onto Predator grounds. I found my clothes washed and cleaned. I found that odd, but I kept it moving. Keeping it moving is the determined factor of why I'm still alive. I went down the laundry shoot and went through the back way. The pain was almost unbearable. I jumped on a train and was out.

I sighed a relief when I came to my stop. Now all I gotta do is make it two blocks and I'm home. Of course shit wouldn't be that simple. As soon as I came off the train who should I see, the fucking ass holes from last night. All nine of them looking desperate.

They knew if I got home, they would never see home again. They were desperate to find me, kill me, bury me and hope nobody saw us together. I looked at them and was off. I jumped into the train terminal and was out, they followed of course.

I silently thanked my friends who I use to play in the terminals with when I was young. I knew this terminal, I knew all the train terminals in New York like the back of my hand.

When we got to a place with no lights. About a half a mile or so in the terminal. I grabbed two rocks on the floor and leaned up as close as I could in this little dip in the wall. I threw both rocks as far ahead as I could. Which made the nine stupid asses take off running full speed in that direction. Completely passing me. And they say you cant learn anything from TV. I of course did a slow silent jog towards the train stop.

As I jumped out the terminal they saw me and took off running, but they were too far to catch up with me. I ran those two blocks as fast as I could, and as soon as I reached I howled twice. This was to let all my brothers know that their lone wolf was home and in pursuit.

My brothers must have been worried when I didn't come back last night. This was all needed. I stepped into the shadows of home. I waited for the sound I knew would come. I heard it, nine gun shots rang clear in the night and was finished off by a howl.

Contently I walked into home with a chorus of howls, barks and bird calls echoing through the air. My brothers were welcoming me home, were giving me respect. We had a tight little alley way. Seven buildings all together. Three on each side and one at the dead end.

I walked into the furthest apartment building, the one at the dead end. It was the biggest and most well protected. You had to pass all the others to get to this one. So of course this is where all the top figures of the gang laid their head. Outside it looked terrible as did all of them, but it was a complete different story inside. Inside all of them looked like a four star hotel. Decked out in the finest furniture, leathers, glass and wood.

I took the elevator up to the top floor. On the top floor held four apartments. These apartments could make apartments in Manhattan feel jealous. Three of the apartments were for the heads of the gang.

In the beginning it was three individual gangs. The first was the RotWilders, known for being loyal and wild. Ready to go to war at the drop of pin, but they were mischievous.

The second was the Birds, known for knowing everything that went on in the hood, but they weren't the best fighters. Anything that happened they knew about though. Someone got killed, and didn't want any one knowing about it. They pay off the Birds. One of your boys got robbed you go to the birds with a small fee and they tell you on the spot who did it.

The third was the Wolves, known for being swift and calculating. Out of all three they were the best, we are the best. We got the most respect out of them all. We've even been hired by the government a few times to look over a few politicians in harms way.

The three of us were allies for a long time. Then the heads just decided to join together. Thus naming us the Predators.

The ding from the elevator snapped me out of thought. I walked out into the hall and into the fourth room. This was where they met, talked business and chilled at. As I walked in the three of them stood looking at me.Their was a man I didn't know beside them.

He was banging, sexy. Decked out in an Iceberg valor suit that would run for a lot of money in a store. The soft material was the complete opposite of his body. If their was a rock about 6.2, 200 pounds give or take it would be him. He was huge and just oozed out sexiness. He had the softest brown skin. His hair was curly and long reaching down to the small of his back. His eyes an intense gray. I couldn't quite pin point if he was black or Latino, probably mixed.

I stood firm, my head up high. Looking them all in the eye. Trying to tell my 'partner' that he didn't need to stand at attention as well. Thank God for baggy pants!

"Rafael this is Lovin, Lovin this is Rafael."

My mouth dropped open and my 'partner' dropped down as well. Lovin was the head of Love. A cold murdering prick. I immediately came on alert. I positioned myself between him and my bosses. Never taking my eyes off him. This made everyone in the room laugh but me.

"Rafael if I were going to kill them don't you think I would have tried something already." He said in a voice that drove me wild. He had a good point but that still didn't mean shit to me. I continued standing there looking dead at him.

"I mean honestly do you think you could protect them from me if you wanted. Your in bad shape as it is. You only slept 4 hours. Your ribs are soar and you've been on your feet minus 4 hours for two weeks. Do you think you could hold me" he said.

"I doubt I can but I'll die trying." Was my only reply.

Again everyone broke out in laughter again which got me a little heated. The bosses are smarter then this. You cant trust a Love. Especially not the head of Love. While they were laughing I took a look behind me, but I kept an eye on him. Which he must not have saw because I saw his hand coming straight at my ribs.

I immediately jumped to the side and it was on from there. We were in a full battle. He was fast and skilled. More so then me. I was lacking on speed and skill and also tired so I had to use my head. Felt like I was playing chess all over again with my grandpa. "Always know what's going to happen 5 steps ahead" I heard his crisp tired voice saying in my head.

The fighting must have went on forever I was getting so tired, so beat down. He threw a dagger at one of the heads and I didn't trust myself to grab it out of the air being so tired. So I did the only thing and jumped in front of it and howled at the top of my lungs. My brothers would need to come take care of this after me.

I know what your thinking why didn't I howl before? I would have howled before but the heads like to keep things on the low as much as possible. If a matter can be solved without every one knowing, then that's the best way. I braced myself for the knife. When it hit me in the chest I was in complete shock. It was rubber. It bounced off my chest and fell to the ground.

The apartment got swamped with predators. Some came through the window, front door, secret doors and what not. They were all ready. They grabbed him quick and had a knife at his neck in no time. The heads sat there with not so much as sweat on their brow.

It was so silent. I was still touching the skin the fake knife touched and was wondering what the hell was going on. All of a sudden the heads dismissed everyone with their hands. Everyone was reluctant to go, but would never disobey an order. The man holding Lovin was the last to go. He sat down with a smirk on his face, that I would love to just cut right off his face.

"Take a seat Rafael" Bird said. I was looking between Lovin and the heads and was completely confused.

"That's an order Rafael."

I grabbed a seat and put it between Lovin and the heads which made them chuckle. By now I was tired and frustrated.

Wolf, one of the heads stood up and came by me. He patted my back like a father would do a son and gave my shoulder a squeeze. Wolf was the head I was most fond of. I'm part of his entourage. I'm one of his personal guards. When I lost my family, him and his family became mine.

"He's no threat to us son. We have a special job. We needed a strong man. Someone who is intelligent, resilient, skillful and trustworthy. Those nine men weren't...regular... street thugs. They were nine of the best hit men in New York outside of Predators and Love. A million a piece they would have gotten if they were successful in killing you. Plus we had birds watching you the whole time. You managed to shake them off more then once. Which never happened to them before." Said Wolf while he made it back to his seat and gave Bird a smug smile.

"For two weeks they made sure to keep you as far as possible from predator grounds. They constantly kept you on the run, pursuing you. Chasing you out of Brooklyn into Queens, Bronx and Harlem. No matter how tight of a situation you came in you always seemed to get out of it." Bird informed me.

"Lovin here was there when you showed up on his doorstep. He was in a window in back of you the whole time with a few friends pointing loaded weapons at them while you passed out on their grounds. It was decided to give you a little break before we really tried you. We put you in the heart of Love's quarters. The first person we put on you was Lovin's head bodyguard. After only four hours you were ready again. Somehow you made it out of their alive." Rotwilder added.

"We tipped the nine hit men about you being on the train heading for grounds. Then again you showed your skills and made it home. We thought that by the time you actually made it in here you'd have trouble standing up. That wasn't the case at all. You had enough heart to fight Lovin who is more then a handful. Even though it was clear that you were tired, in pain, hungry. If this situation was real you would have probably died, but so would have Lovin. Which shows us that your the man for this position. We have a spare room made up for you over then son." Wolf finished off.

"We'll tell you all about it in the morning" said Lovin.

I was completely in shock after hearing all that, but I was too tired to actually think about it. So with that I gave Lovin one more unsure look and limped my sagging remains into the room Wolf pointed to. I flung myself on the mattress and was out before touching it.

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Information Arden
Posted by: Frenuyum - 11-15-2025, 12:17 PM - Replies (33)

Today we were exempted from the council and placed on cartographic tasks. Our scholars were lecturing us on geography and the influence of Claudius Ptolemaeus. He is long dead but his maps and treats on geography are still the standards being used. We were studying his map of the world and comparing it to others made later. Fortunately a good collection of his work is in our care. More import is his treats that lays out, not only the theory but practice of making maps that are useful.
Our geographers and cartographers make maps that focus on Parga and of the seas our ships sail. Unlike many others we do not put Jerusalem at the center. Those that do seam more interested in their religious bias than in accurate, useful information. After all, maps speak to all peoples, languages aside.
The earth being a globe like structure was divided in latitude and longitude by Ptolemaeus. He placed north at the top of his map. Others seam to place south at the top of the map. It makes little difference. Ptolemaeus has used the conventions of geometry that we all learn. We will follow his lead in this.
They had us copying maps that covered the places we will be visiting over the summer. Most of these maps were developed by themselves, incorporating new information as it is learned. We would take these copy maps with us. If we can add anything that will be of benefit, we will do that to our copies.
To overcome the distortion toward the north pole, as the lines of longitude converge, our people make maps with, all straight lines which give us true bearings. This results in great size distortion toward the pole instead of great reduction but we don't go to those places anyway. We will have both kinds of maps with us, ones that show how thing or places relate to each other and to things like seas and oceans, rivers and lakes. We will also have the straight line (TN: he means orthogonal) maps to use for navigation.
Much time was spent on the scale and in the notation needed to convey that information to the user. We learned that at the correct scale, the convergence of the longitude lines is so slight that distortion is not a problem at all. On larger maps this convergence can be shown without great distortion from reality.
We were given large cloth maps that could be rolled or folded so that small areas could be isolated easily. I don't think any of us like this copying; we realized once done, we would all have a good understanding of where we were going and how we would get from place to place.
(TN: I think it best here to present a summary of what Arden probably knew and what he probably didn't. I found this on the net and with a bit of editing submit it to inform: "Eratosthenes of Syene, a Greek living about 300 BC in Alexandria/Egypt, already knew: Sun reaches its highest point above horizon (culmination), i.e. at noon, on different meridians at different times. All points on the same meridian have noon at the same time, and each meridian has its individual noon time. Erathostenes defined the equator/Zero-parallel through Rhodos Island, and in doing, so splitting the civilized world into a Northern and a Southern hemisphere. The Zero-meridian he lays through Alexandria, one of the most important towns in these times.
He knew already the Earth to be a sphere and he split it into 60 segments, later Hipparchos (190-125 BC) amended it into 360 segments. The geographer Claudius Ptolemaeus 150 AD defined today's equator as the line where sun is vertically above at begin of spring and autumn, and calculated each 1°-sector on it with 113 km, being amazingly accurate (it is 111 km, or 60 nautical miles, as we know today) between these points.
But defining the longitude remains an arbitrary act. Earth is rotating around its own axis, and so each meridian has the same justification to be the "Zero". Ptolemaeus decided to name the Zero-meridian the Western end of the known World - and these are - in these times - the CANARY ISLANDS - and namely it was HIERRO" island.
Arden would have used this zero and Ptolemaeus' equator. Some of the navigational aids Arden talked about earlier must have included an accurate time peace. Accurate for his day would not quite do it but accurate enough for a day or two at best would work, if you are in the Mediterranean or not to far from a coast; where your distance from known landmarks would be calculated by using triangulation. Angles for him would have been easy to read from his astrolabe or other survey instruments. Adjustments to the time keeping device could have been made by sun and star observations at know places, either absolute corrections or relative ones. This means that one needed to stick close to well traveled routs. That means that others could lay in ambush if they knew you were coming or if they just wanted to pounce on the first juicy target that came along.)
In the afternoon we were all fitted with new leather riding britches, and boots, in the French style (cothurnes), not open like our normal and shorter boots for walking. We also had new rain cloaks for riding (cope in French). Our britches are really leather stockings or "haut de chausse" used for riding. True chausses made of cloth are hose or stockings that cover the legs and reached the waste. They are secured to our kilts. We mostly ware tunics and kilts. Our tunics are not like the doublets or shirts of other places they are like the journade of the French. The stocking are secured by points, which are: metal hooks, laces, strings or straps; sometimes braies which is a small kilt that is covered by the tunic or shirt is used. The stocking or chausses are often of bright colors as are our kilts, capes and tunics. We often ware a fillet or band round our heads to keep our hair in place. One of the two, must have items, when I run. These I am told are common in France and other places.
I was not impressed with wearing the hats we were being given. Here we do not ware hats often, unless in the high country or as part of our military dress, I find them hot. I find hats made of straw good for working in the fields or standing around in the sun but these are considered peasant garb, in most other places. Our hats are made of fine leather with a wide brim that can be turned up on the sides. The crown is not to high but does make a little dome over our heads. The hat band is braided leather with little tails, we will have some nice bird feathers to stick in them. I asked for leather chin straps to be attached, for when we are riding or walking in strong winds.
We will not need to dress much different than we would normally, except we will have stockings in bright blue or red, maybe one of each color, when in cooler places or on the ship once west of the Pillars of Hercules (TN: Gibraltar). Iason has had his hand in this. I can see his sense of the theatric. Our Tunics will be a bright blue with yellow embroidery and weaving, showing our symbols. Our kilts a darker blue and our stocking as just described. Our tunics will be normal for us, ending just below our waist or the top of our kilts at the sides, to give quick access to our swords and daggers, the front and back a triangular shaped dropping to a point below the crotch. This will be like the Courtepy or short tunic belted at the hip, ours will not be belted. That way our tunics can fit us well but still allow all the freedom of movement one needs, should an arrow, sword or dagger be required.
We are told that most men and boys do not ware kilts but military uniforms often have them. We will have them since our tunics would need be much longer without. The French and British tend to long knee length tunics with the sword and its belt on the outside. Some still have a shorter tunic like ours with a longer kilt much like a woman's skirt. Our scholars will have long robes that fall much below the knee. Walking and riding capes, that fasten at the shoulders will also be part of our attire. I find that clothing without utility to be bothersome. My brothers feel the same way. Iason wants both utility and show. The Argoanuts, will be dressed as us but they have yellow capes and light blue stockings. Odo will not have his pages' hat but one like ours.
Our chlamys are slightly modified versions of the our standard models. They are bright red and made of the finest wool. They can easily be removed in truly hot weather. The morses are made of polished copper and in the shape of a delta with small chains connecting them, they can also be clasped at the right or left shoulder as is our usual fashion. The riding caps have several morse sets and are longer. The smaller chlamys have fancy engraving on the morses. The little chain that connects them lay across our bodies well below the shoulders as not to chock us when they are attached that way. Mostly we will just drape them over our shoulder and use the morse to hold them from falling off.
I am forced to say, once dressed in these new outfits we are a most handsome four. Not that our six guardians are any less. Their symbols are quite different from ours or the Argoanuts. They have the crown of Parga and crossed swords in yellow with the markings of third or highest level knights as well as their military ranks. This gives them the right to be addressed as Sir or by rank or both. We princes are only second degree Knights and can not advance until we are 18. Prince is ahead of Sir so it is of no difference to us. Ikaros is also a second degree knight, his symbol is a key and book above the laurel of the Princes. He should be called Sir. We are told these things are very important in the more northern and western lands. Apparently the French and English are very much concerned with dress and the Germans with hats and titles. Odo has the crown with a winged foot, a small Argo near his right shoulder and the Delta of his house on the left. We have given him a scroll and quill to sit over the laurel and next to the foot, he is our official translator and poet. I would much like to make him look older than he is but it is not possible. He is now 14 but looks 12 at best. Older people seam to look at him with some question but when he opens his mouth and speaks their language, they soon gain much respect for him.
When we all stand together we are an impressive lot and when backed by our Argoanuts even more so. I am still the most beautiful and being a full head taller than the others, I do stand out. The castle seamstresses all said so but not to me directly. Euthalia informed me of that fact. I guess I am the most beautiful but Iason is still the better lover. That I did not share with her. Some things are best left unsaid, since she believes Zoe is not objective in her assessment and she is bias toward me.
Euthalia is growing very large and the baby is beginning to show movement. When I placed my hand on her I could feel it. I think that quite something. It is strange that we all know what is happening and why; I for one am still amazed by the process and the feelings that it causes within me. Kastor and Poly have said little about their liaison, except their ladies are also with child but not as far along as ours.
With all this preparation we are being pulled in many directions all at once. It seams that everyone wants us to do something for them while we visit this or that place. We have invitations two numerous to even respond to properly. Our professors have given us a list of universities and collages they think we should visit. Hesiodos held a very secret meeting with us this evening. It was not the meeting that was a secret, it was the content.
All I am permitted to say is we were given a list of people we were to meet in privet. Some of the people we know already, in France and Venice, others we do not know. They will identify themselves to us by a secret sign. A number of them are former sanctuary men who we may recognize but who we are forbidden to acknowledge, in any way publicly. For others like Dario or our French Connection or Parga's officials in these places, we must be public about meeting them. I know he gave Damao dispatches for the secret meetings and he will be bringing things back from them.
Father has put Ikaros in charge of our finances and he has been given, letters of credit, much treasure and access to our bank accounts in different places. Ikaros has in turn trained several of the senior Argoanuts to act as his assistants, in these stewardship matters. The Argoanuts will have their own expense money, which is administrated by one of them under Corrado command. That Argonaut will also be their paymaster. When on expedition duty, all the Argoanuts will receive full solder's or officer's pay. We princes have also been given handsome sums of personal coin, which we are free to spend as we wish. We also have a large volume of wonderful gifts for our hosts.
I am told, in the German lands, a court official called a quartermaster prepares the sleeping place for the monarch. Here that is part of the Steward's job, when he does not have a chamber boy to help him. For us and the Argoanuts, we will look after our own needs or give as much help of our brother as he requires.
Six of the Argoanuts are artists and two are medical students, three are barbers and so on. Everyone here does more than one job. All are skilled horsemen, competent with sword and bow, musical, literate and now trained as sailors. I think Tertius is giving them special training, with the idea that they will form some kind of special units in his army. I know the military Ingegneres are reorganizing themselves into special units, that do not fight as such but build things specifically for the military. He has other ideas for units that make and secure camps and in other ways support the fighting men. I know Kleitos and some of the more senior animal trainers, are teaching small groups the skills needed to properly support the cavalry. Much as armors and smiths do now, except these man will all be part of the military not contractors supporting it.
Our boys seamed to have accepted our coming absence and are not demanding to be taken along this time. I know they missed us as we did them but I think they learned without us they had much more freedom and time to just play and be boys. They are good but not as advanced for their ages as Iason and I were.
It is now late and my lamp is going dim.
1318, 3rd month, 16th day:
Over the past several day, I have been far to busy for me to find any time to write. Panther has been working with Dysme of late and is proving himself to be not only a consummate lover and first rate bed boy but also an able Steward and Captain's Assistant. Hermogenes wants him to gain some experience with women. He did not tell us why this was so, just that it is what he wants. To facilitate this he gave some coin to Ouranos and asked him to see this happened.
Judging from the smiles on Panther's face when he returned, we assumed from time with the prostitutes, he enjoyed himself and we are sure they enjoyed his prodigious member as well. I know we all do.
The young boys have all been quite active of late and seam to either be squabbling or making much noise. Father expressed his displeasure with all of this, sending them to the sports fields. Dios and I still try and run together each day. I am attempting to teach him how to do this on his own or by himself. Boys his age are just not fast or long winded enough. Older boys are finding him to be their equal. I hope he can cause them to work harder as I need competition too.
Word has come to us that Nik and Thomas are attempting to settle differences. I hope this goes well for Thomas but I fear it will not. Thomas has sent a brief message thanking us for our post earthquake assistance. Most of our less serious damage is now repaired. The more serious damage is being repaired. All public buildings are open and functioning. The semi public buildings like the temples are functioning and being repaired. None of our bridges, dams or aqueducts were seriously damaged, all are now repaired. Many messages of appreciation have come from the villages and towns we visited with aid.
Dario has been here for some weeks now and he will return to Venice with us, to take up his official duties. Perum and Flavia are most pleased with his efforts at the inn. Apparently he learned many valuable managerial skills in venice and is most willing to share with his partner. Olympia and Dario are scheduled to wed in the 10th month.
We will all be guests at Lugo's wedding, which will take place a few days after we arrived. The Doge's personal representative has told us, both his and her families are dismayed that Dario and all of us are being invited, since we are neither nobel or Venetian. He told them to hold their noses and leave their prejudices at home. Dario and ourselves represent a sovereign state, which is a trading and military partner of Venice, as well as Lugo's and his personal friends; also nobel in Parga, his wishes will be honored and without embarrassment to Dario, Lugo or himself.
He whispered to me that they are jealous of Dario and Lugo's suspected intimate friendship. He drew out the word suspected; suggesting to me that they must have been discrete in public anyway. "It is the women of both families, mostly his bothered, not the men. She fears that Lugo will only sleep with her to produce children and nothing more. Unless she changes her attitude that may in fact be the result. I know he is not fond of her and has made little secret of his displeasure at having a bride being forced upon himself."
Lugo will do his duty to his family that is a given. That is the kind of man he is. I am sure he will provide his seed to produce as many children as she wishes to bare him. From what they have both said about the lady, that may not be very many. Lugo told me he suspected she will be a copy of her mother, who he described as a short, fat women with a sower disposition and very demanding of her husband and all around her. The woman adorns herself with the most expensive things, including a huge estate that is more than her husband can easily afford. She has one brother and no sisters. Lugo is also demanding but in the same way we are. He demands that people do their jobs or tasks properly. He demands those around him are loyal. If not, he would have them gone. He demands those who he does business with are honest. He does not want people with a sower disposition around.
Dario told me that Lugo has filled his household staff with "his people," and when she comes, she comes alone. Not even her companions, nurse or confessor will follow, but for brief visits. Lugo made sure to retain all of the staff his mother and father had, so none of hers will be needed. It is his aunts and older sisters that force the issue. It was the Dodge himself that worded the contract, settling on a lesser dowry amount to win these concessions.
He also told me, when they arrived in Venice, it was his uncles and brothers in law, that caused the most problems on the business side. "It took all of our combined skill to gain control, without overly offending anyone." He chuckled, "a few of who, were recalcitrant until we got them into our bed." Maybe the women do have something to be concerned about.
Zosimos and her family, a husband and two girls, are due to arrive tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. Her husband is connected with the koal mines. I do not know him well but by all reports he is a good man of much promise. I know Abrith would only select a quality family for her.
We are told that in some other lands children are not as highly regarded as here. In some places fathers apparently do not have much affection for their children, either. I am sure that many do, it would be unnatural not. I am sure some fathers in Parga do not show strong affection or even love for their children. They must be in a minority, I am sure.
We know that during the recent famine, many children perished and a goodly number are orphans. We also know in some places, parents abandoned their children, as they were unable to feed them. To Iason and I this is unthinkable but we have never been in a situation of true famine. No one knows when the last time Parga had a famine. Perhaps never but I think at least difficult times must have occurred. Traditions, such as keeping food in storage at all times, arose from something, not nothing.
If child and infant mortality are as high as we are told, half of other lands here, perhaps this attitude is partly understandable. Perhaps it is a way for these men to protect their emotional balance.
1318, 3rd month, 17th day:
Zosimos and Ajax spent most of the day with us in our apartments and walking around the castle. Olympia, Eudoxia and the other female pages took care of my little nieces. They seamed very happy about this, I am glad they did. During our conversation I learned that Ajax was trying to win a new contract with the castle, to supply a special kind of Koal that was better than the average in the forges. It was most suitable for making the highest quality metals or mixing with other substances to make the explosives used in the Kannons. This Koal was to expensive and rear to be used for heating water or general blacksmith work.
Iason was very interested as was Kastor. Polydeukus was not quite sure what to say but I knew and said so. I told him we princes could not assist him in any way, except to make the necessary introductions. Kastor realized I was uncomfortable and took Ajax aside to explain why. Zosimos told me Father had said as much to them before they came.
Ajax had brought several pack animal loads with them, so Poly offered to take him to the forges and to the ingegneres and introduce him. Once the product was tested the forge master or the alchemist/Ingegnere could make his decision.
For our evening meal, Zosimos went with the princesses and children, to dine with Mother. That left Ajax with us. He is quite good looking but I don't think interested in men. Sex is wonderful but it is not everything. He came with us. Karyakos and Uncle Iason were pleased to meet him and made sure he was seated close to them. I think they wanted to get a sense of the man. One of the experienced palace boys served him. They had two less experienced but younger boys. His eyes were wide open as Uncle Iason's hand moved under the lad's kilt while he kissed the cup.
Our boys all made a big show for him, where we were concerned. I think he was just a little jealous. Over all he seamed to settle into the routine and made jokes and answered questions. I could see Ajax was beginning to feel the effects of the wine and I tried to slow his drinking down. Father stopped me, saying for all to hear: "Arden, your concern for your brother in law is most admirable but Ajax is your senior and capable of looking after himself." I know I turned very red. Uncle Iason was much more supportive: "Beloved, Arden is only doing what we have taught him to do and we would have it no other way. Ajax, you pass our test. In the morning we will grant you the necessary permits and leases for this special Koal. As to price you must settle that with our officials. They have been told you are to be treated fairly. It is a premium product and deserves a premium price." Ajax was smiling broadly. "Do you sleep with Ganymede here or your wife?"
"My wife Sire."
"Then Arden is correct, you should not take more wine, as too much wine may increase a man's ardor but surely diminish his performance." We all laughed at that, even Ajax, who was smiling very much at this point. He took no more wine. Later he thanked me for being a brother in spirit as well as custom, adding "our first boy will be named Arden. Would that young fellow have slept with me if I had indicated so?" Most certainly he would have and gladly too. While it is not a requirement of his office, it is something that happens more often than not. I am told he is both highly skilled and willing, when one is as handsome and gentle as you, Ajax.
"Perhaps I shall visit on my own in the future."
We all look forward to that. He smiled again and whispered, "Zosimos made me promise not to succumb to your and Iason's charms before we came. I now understand why, for having gotten to know all four princes, I am reluctant to renew such a pelage."
Sometimes it is necessary for us to agree to things which ease our partner's mind, for no other reason than that. This was one of those times. Having passed that test I would assume it would not be asked again, besides that Ganymede is not a prince. This brought much laughter to us and smiles to Pyrros and Volos who were, as always only an arms length away.
How could my sister have asked such a promise? How could she not, knowing me and my brothers?
1318, 3rd month, 20th day:
On the morning of the 19th day, we awoke to some commotion in our outer rooms. I could hear Volos vehemently refusing to wake us up and another voice insisting he do so. I pulled on my tunic and flung open the door to our sleeping chamber. The strange voice was a young man dressed as one of Janus' riders. He dropped to his knee and presented me with a leather pouch. "Abrith commanded me give this to Prince Arden and no other, he said it was urgent." I took the pouch and he rose. It was a brief letter for me: "Arden, Kleitos' father is gravely ill and is not expected to live long. Please bring Kleitos to Koalhurst at all speed. It is the old man's request. Abrith, Representative of King Iason 7th."
Rider, I said, did you ride all night? "Yes Prince Arden, Abrith was insistent I do so." I took his hand, thanked him and bid Ikaros personally see to his rest and refreshment. We will leave for Koalhurst yet this mroning.
Kastor sent Justus to Janus, informing him that his rider is seconded to us for the day. Joulous to Kleitos, with the message in hand, asking him to ready our horses to accompany him, immediately after breakfast. Nikias was sent to Father stating our intentions. Uncle Iason and Karyakos caught up with us in the dining hall. Father pressed a small pouch in my hand. "Give this to Abrith in a privet moment, son." I would do that of course. I did want to know what it said but knew not to ask or look. Abrith would share with me if appropriate.
We were all dressed in our new attire and I must say, as we rode like the wind, with those red chlamys streaming out behind us, it was a most impressive sight. Kleitos was not as incredulous as I. He had seen his parents many times since he left Koalhurst and had obviously come to some understanding with the man. I am sure his mother had much to do with it.
We rested our horses at the dispatch rider's way stations, giving them food and water. We rested ourselves too. When we arrived in Koalhurst we went directly to see the old man. He was as described, near death. Even in the dim light, I could see his face brighten as Kleitos and I came into the room.
"Kleitos, Arden, I wish to give my blessing to your venture, he said in a half whisper. We knelt down and he did so. Kleitos began to cry and pressed his face into the old man's chest. I backed out of the room to give them a privet time. It did not take long, Kleitos came out and taking his mother in his arms said, "it is done, he rests now, in the arms of his creator."
Kleitos' brothers, sisters and their families were all present and I thought it best that we get out of the way. A funeral would take place on the next afternoon. Odo began singing one of his sad funeral songs and we all joined in. When that was finished I kissed Kleitos and we departed for the inn.
I was most surprised that they were expecting us and had prepared for all that came. Us eleven and three of Kleitos grooms. After we cared for our houses we had a light meal and turned to bed. Iason and I were much to fatigued to do more than share a few kisses. We awoke to the cock's crow in the morning, still in each other's arms.
Perum's brother and sister in law were most consolatory toward me, much to my surprise. I do not usually stay at the inn but with my birth parents. Zosimos and Ajax will not arrive until much later today. I was glad not to need the leather riding stockings, as we would not ride again until we returned. We stopped to talk briefly with Kleitos' older brother. He told us, all the neighbors, as is our custom, were preparing food and that we need do little but attend the funeral and the dinner that followed. Kleitos asked if Odo would stay and assist him in composing his eulogy, as he had been ask to give it by his mother.
As is our tradition, the Will would be read to all assembled at the dinner. We went on to see my mother and Abrith, Abernath, his wife and my nephews. She carries her third child. I gave the pouch to Abrith. He opened it and found only one gold coin and a brief message, "to long in coming". "From Karyakos," he asked. Yes, I replied.
"It is a bet, I won, but he is right, too long in coming. I bet him the old man would forgive you and recognize Kleitos for his accomplishments, before he died. Karyakos thought not. It is a bitter sweet win. Family is much to important to hold grudges for long. It is false pride and false sense of honor the cause." He looked right at my sister in law as he said it. I had no idea what any of that was to mean but he is correct. Another lesson for the middle princes of Parga, no doubt.
Everyone was most impressed with our new uniforms and said so, many times. This gave Iason quite a bit of real pride as he was most behind them.
The oldest nephew which is now almost 4, refused to leave us alone. He insisted on sitting on each of our laps. We of course were most indulgent of this. His parents were less appreciative, since it undermined what little discipline they had managed to teach. Grand parents are not known for it and uncles from the city even less so. Since we were all dressed alike, it was impossible for him to figure out who was uncle and who was not, so we were all. To small children titles of office are meaningless but titles of relationship have some importance. He knew from my portrait what my name was but the others not. As I said, uncle was his best effort and one we were all proud to answer to.
To spare my mother and sister in law the difficulty of feeding ten of us, we took an early leave of them and returned to the inn. On the way we encountered a large group of boys all under 12. I could see they were impressed by us, as stopped to introduce ourselves. After our meal we gave them a some archery and fencing demonstrations.
The funeral was like all funerals, a solum affair with much crying and whaling, mostly by the women. The men just stood around looking sad and glum. We sang several druggies, that Odo had written, all without instruments.
Kleitos was with his birth family but joined us when we returned to his mothers home. The ladies had laid much food out and everyone ate and talked mostly about the dead. Presently, Abrith stood and produced a box. When opened he took out a document and read from it. The will was most straight forward, it left most of his estate to his oldest son, who was instructed to take care of his wife, for as long as she lives. He bequeathed some of his possessions to this or that person. To Kleitos, he left a small leather sack with ten gold coins in it. Also in the sack, was a message. "I valued a son in gold. Now I realize his true value has no measure in the terms of coin. I can not accept this and therefore return it."
Kleitos hesitated for a brief moment. He rose and gave his eulogy, as he and Odo had prepared it. I must say it was brilliant, all were overwhelmed by the eloquence. He then took the sack and handed it to his mother. "Mother, I can not restore your husband and I can not return to Koalhurst to ease your life but I can see that you need or want for nothing else. This is your treasure now, not my brother's or the family's but yours." He knew that having done this, with all to witness, those wishes would be respected. She did not quite know what to say but she did kiss him several times. He then suggested she give the money to Abrith for safe keeping. I later learned, he told Abrith that should the money ever run out or low to let him know and he would see more came to replace it.
I know that Abrith made careful note of this, so that when Abernath took over his job he would know exactly what had been agreed to. Polydeukus suggested to me that secure depositories, banks, should be established in small towns. If the King's Representatives in other places are doing the same, they must hold much treasure and it is not secure. Iason thought that we needed some kind of postal service for non military, government service anyway, perhaps they can be combined. I thought it a good idea and suggested we should make the postal service available to all citizens.
We know that in other places privet systems exist and we use them. Parga is to small to have two systems and since everyone here can read and write and since paper is now quite affordable, almost everyone, if a system existed, would use it. We decided to look into this in the fall, after our return.
Odo gave a short ode to a father and friend. It is a nice general poem he wrote some time ago. We knew it but none in Koalhurst did. Kleitos came to the inn to stay with us, as his brother's house was very full. Iason and I wanted him to sleep with us that night but Kastor and Poly insisted he join them. I think they realized our history would make sleep and sex hard. Since they did not share that history, it would be mostly sex and that would be easier.
Now back in the castle we are settled into our normal lives; following a very pleasant bath and massage, sex with our boys and brothers. What more could any man or prince want?
1318, 3rd month, 21st day:
We placed our family's wedding present on the Prince Arden. Not us but Panther and the Third Officer came to the castle with a squad of sailors and took the present to the Prince Arden. It is a life sized marble statue of a young man, a hunter with a bow and quiver of arrows, he is naked and well muscled. The model for this is one of the hunters from the northern estate. His face much resembles my Grandfather Plato. This I noticed when looking at the many portraits of him in the castle. We know him as he has gone hunting with us and the Argoanuts. This depiction makes him look about 20 but he has 30 years. His buttocks are larger than most and very well muscled, as are his shoulders and arms. I was amazed that the sculpture was able to carve him with a long bow in his left hand.
It is the one chosen by Lugo. He was offered choice from several works, all in progress at the time. It is to be from Dario and the Princes of Parga. In addition, Odo is composing a wedding song with the aid of the palace musicians. I am sure it will be well received and we will play it. It uses: harp, fiddle, dulcimer and viol, flute, trumpet, shawn, recorder, drum and cymbal. The Argoanuts will sing.
Many other crates were also taken to the Prince Arden, among them is one of the small bronzes, depicting the Ganymede for our friend the General, who we will visit in Florence.
Olympia, Eudoxia and a number of other female pages were visiting Apollo's Temple. They managed to spend some time with Flavia. Apparently Dario has confided much to her about Lugo's bothered. Someone who Olympia will need be on friendly terms with, in the future. Flavia suggested she send her a personal wedding present as a way of introduction. Flavia also suggested she send a selection of scents, that are only made by the herbalists at the temple. They chose four. Olympia came to us asking that we see these scents be put into the finest glass bottles and sealed.
Olympia and Dario are not permitted by her family or custom, to be alone together but they do have opportunity to interact in properly supervised situations. The common room of the pages dormitory is just such a place. She explained briefly what Flavia had told her and suggested. Dario was impressed and said so. He would cover the cost of her idea and suggested she writer a letter of introduction, pretending not to know anything at all about her or the situation. Best to suggest you learned her name from your uncle and knowing his fondness for both our future husbands, you asked your cousin princes to deliver these scents, which you are told are only available in Parga. Say much about how you look forward to meeting her in person, and express some trepidation about leaving the security of your father's home and the company of your sister pages, to attend your new husband in a strange land.
"I can not write this for you, as my hand and style would be easily recognized, having been Lugo's personal secretary among other duties. Perhaps Odo will help you, his correspondence in Italian are like his poems in Greek," Dario commented. Olympia blushed and agreed. Odo was by her side quill and paper in hand. We all departed to let them work in peace. I am not sure how much peace, since all of the female pages immediately replaced us.
These women seam to have some kind of affinity for each other and when one has a problem, all join in to assist in the solution. We boys are not that different but most of us would not join in until asked, the girls just seam to assume or perhaps know their help is wanted, needed or not. I wounder if I will ever understand them. Uncle Iason tells me not, he also tells me our mother does not believe she will ever understand men either. Perhaps this is true and the two sexes never fully understand each other. Perhaps we are divided by more than just the ability to bare children.

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Information Ties That Bind
Posted by: Frenuyum - 11-15-2025, 11:57 AM - Replies (13)

Ties that Bind - Chapter 1


We exist in many dimensions; not just the three we can sense or the fourth we move through. There are many more layers to existence than most people ever become aware of. Dreams are more than simple replaying of experiences and emotions. It is believed that the soul wanders free while a person sleeps. Dreams are little realities where the soul spends time while the body and mind regenerate. Some believe that the soul can get lost; it is a belief that can be found in many mystical paths. When a soul loses touch with the body and can't find its way back, that's coma - or worse.
I never worried about getting lost from my body when I dreamed. I had a far worse problem; I might get lost from reality entirely. You see, my body came with me. I suppose I should address the fact that I'm a mutant; a dream walker. It's really just a specialized form of telepathy, I think; mutations can be weird. My brother and I were fortunate; our mutations didn't show to normal people. That didn't make living with the knowledge you were a mutant any easier. I hadn't wanted Ben to be an outcast. He was my little brother and it was my job to protect him. Well, younger was really just semantics since our births were only seven minutes apart. Ben was talented, popular and outgoing. It was hard enough carving out a unique identity when you have an identical twin. Mom had loved dressing us alike when we were young, "Brandon and Benton are so cute." Though we loved each other, we hated the artificial attempts to point out our similarities. We knew them already; no reminders were necessary. He didn't need the additional headache and drama of being a mutant.
I'd given him that. I'd given him a life of normalcy where he could be himself and be happy. He was just a talented, popular guy; he was a jock and what everyone wanted to be, even me. Me? I'm Brandon; Ben's quiet, reserved brother. Honestly, I wasn't a total geek. Ben and I had played baseball since little league. By the time of our senior year, he was a star pitcher and I was our primary catcher; no pun intended. I wasn't actually shy, but I knew things that I shouldn't, and it made making friends rather hard. Staying in his shadow was worth it. I loved Ben; we shared everything but two, dark secrets. He didn't know we were mutants, and he didn't know I was gay. I'd spent the time from thirteen till eighteen working very hard to keep everything as picture perfect as I could. Being able to enter people's dreams and make adjustments to their perceptions and memories was a useful skill. I'd even been able to keep Ben's mutant abilities locked down. I wasn't sure what he could do, but it didn't matter; we were happy in ignorance.
All that came to an end last week. Now he knew; now he hated me; and life wasn't a wonderful place any longer. That was why I was here, back in my dreams. I kept looking for something I had missed, something that I could have done to make it turn out right. The problem was I couldn't.
The locker room looked as it had last week. Grant and a few of our other teammates waited around for me after exams. I'd studied so hard for finals that I'd skipped season-end equipment check-in. The coach had been cool with it, so I'd planned on turning stuff in right after school on the last senior day. Seniors got the last full week of school "off" to prepare for graduation.
I stood there, looking at the scene for the hundredth time. I still had the swollen cheek and black eye that Grant had given me. My balls were still tender from being kicked. I'd been able to feel their hate, and their excitement. Grant, more than the others, was excited. He was closet, even from himself, and he'd lusted after Ben for years. I'd known, but I hadn't done anything about it. Now Ben was leaving and Grant had missed his chance; not that there was ever a chance; Ben was into girls. He'd figured me out, at least in part, and knew I was 'a fag'.
I replayed the scene, watching him spitting his vulgarities and hitting me. He'd been so hard; you couldn't miss the baseball bat he had tucked down his pant leg. I knew he was going to rape me; being a telepath and knowing what they wanted didn't change the fact I didn't have any way of stopping them.
Something changed, a ripple that might have gone unnoticed, but I felt it. I knew who it was without turning to look. This was my dream; I was in control; he was just visiting. "Hello, Professor."
"Hello, Brandon." He stepped up beside me and looked at the scene. "Replaying it again won't change anything."
"I know, but I can't help wanting it to." I wiped away a tear. The scene sped forward. They never got to the raping part; Ben had made certain of that. I still couldn't remember calling for him, but maybe I did. The locker room doors had been locked, but that didn't stop him. One punch had blown the door off its hinges.
I stopped the scene and looked at him. The rage in his eyes was frightening. Those eyes weren't burning for me; they were on Grant and his friends. I didn't need to play the scene any further. Ben had let loose; the restraints I'd kept on his powers had snapped. He nearly killed Grant and a couple of the other guys before I could stop him.
"I talked with your parents today. They think prep-school would be a good idea."
Letting the scene dissolve, I sat in the distorting energies of the astral plane. Yeah, I knew where we were. The professor had helped bring me back a couple times when I'd gotten lost over the years. I'd refused to let my parents know we were mutants. He'd sent people to meet them twice, and twice I'd altered their memories. I wasn't proud of it, but I'd wanted to protect Ben. I should have known that the longer I kept up the deceits, the worse the truth would come crashing down on us.
"There isn't much point in my fighting it, is there? I can't undo the news reports, fix the school walls and rewrite everyone's memory from here to Lake Michigan." It felt like my world had come to an end. All because of one fucking closet case in denial. I should have taken care of him years ago.
"No, there isn't." The professor wasn't -really- there; his form was just a dream shape he had sculpted for himself to be there. I was physically there. "Would you care to step through, or do you want to go back home?"
I'd never actually stepped through from one dreamer's reality to another's. Ok, that wasn't exactly true. I'd never done so with a target destination. I'd gotten lost once and had to step back in using a friend's dream since I couldn't seem to find my way back to where I had been. That had been weird, and I'd never done it since.
I decided I had nothing left to lose; I stepped through. It was my first time in New York.

Two weeks ago we were two peas in a pod, "Brandon & Benton." Our names were always linked when people mentioned us. We were inseparable; the dynamic duo; the battle brothers. I always took lead but Brandon always covered my back. I was the one everyone knew by name, but Brandon knew everything about everyone. We just clicked. We shared everything but dates. We never double dated, which I suppose should have clued me in that something wasn't quite right between us.
I suppose the fact that, even at eighteen, Brandon still asked to sleep with me when he had nightmares was an example of how close we'd been. How many siblings actually slept together to protect each other? Bran had always had nightmares, ever since we were small kids. That was one reason why we slept together till we hit puberty. Even then, we slept in the same room till we were fourteen. I never minded having to share; we were bros; we loved each other; it was us against the world.
I'd been on student council, and he always did the research for me. I was the star pitcher, he was the perfect catcher. Between the two of us we practically carried the team through junior and senior years. Everyone thought I was "the guy to know", but I wouldn't have been if Bran hadn't been there to keep my ego from expanding too large to get through doors. There was nothing we couldn't tell each other; we had no secrets. Life had been almost perfect.
Life had been a lie; one, long fucking lie, thanks to Brandon. How do you forgive someone for making everything you'd done a total joke? None of our accomplishments meant anything. How did I know it wasn't my "mutant powers" that had allowed me to be good at sports? How did I know that Brandon hadn't "made people like us?" All our hard work, all our plans for the future, were gone.
How do you trust someone you shared everything with, only to find out he's been hiding the truth about you and himself? I didn't matter he was gay; it didn't matter he was a mutant; he'd lied; he'd kept me ignorant, and what hurt worse than anything else was that he didn't trust me. How could someone love you if they couldn't even be honest? It felt like someone had cut something right out of my chest. Maybe it was my innocence, but it felt like something I'd never get back again.
I don't think we'd said ten words to each other the entire trip to the school. Prep-school; what a joke. I'd had scholarships lined up, not that any university would want a known mutant as a pitcher. Even if the "Purity" people weren't boycotting campuses with known mutants, it wouldn't be fair to the normal players. Two years of preparatory work before moving on to college. I always thought that was for geeks; now it was necessary; there was no way I was going to college without having a handle on my powers.
I had to admit: Xavier's looked cool. We'd driven from Michigan to New York over a couple days. Thank God for the bed-topper or our stuff would have been soaked. I hated driving in the rain; Brandon didn't mind. He seemed able to keep up with what was going on, even when the rain was so heavy that you couldn't see to the hood of the truck. Probably was something to do with his mutant powers. The whole idea that he could read people's minds was creepy. That was another issue I had with his hiding shit from me; I couldn't hide shit from him if I wanted to, and I'd never wanted to.
Professor Xavier was waiting for us on the front steps. He'd come to visit Mom and Dad just before graduation. That was why we were here. Brandon looked grim as he shut off the engine and got out. It was unnerving how he had been able to find the place without looking at the maps. Of course, Brandon always seemed to know everything. He'd even known which girls I had chances with and which ones I hadn't. That's why I didn't get how he'd gotten cornered by Grant; how could a guy who could read minds be caught off guard? Had he wanted to get caught? Had he wanted what they were going to do to him? Had he wanted to out us after trying so hard to keep it hidden? It didn't make any sense. And, of course, we weren't talking.
I looked up as I got out of the cab, and was dumbstruck. The girl who'd just come out was the most amazing girl I'd ever seen. Dark skin; long hair; perfect body; the only flaw was the bruising on her face. It looked like she'd recently recovered from a major case of road-rash. I think if I hadn't been so stunned, I'd have boned it right there.
"Welcome to Xavier's, gentlemen. Once you've settled in, we'll show you around." He smiled at the ebony beauty to his right. "Katherine, please show them to their room."
She smiled and came down the stairs as Brandon came around the truck. He shook her hand; I hadn't moved. "Hi, I'm Kate." She blinked with surprise as she shook Brandon's hand. "You're a telepath?"
He nodded, frowning slightly. "So are you."
She laughed. "Damn, cat's out of the bag." They let go and she turned to me. "Hi."
I recovered and took her hand. Her grip was firm but her skin was so soft. "I'm Benton, my friends call be Ben." I nodded at Brandon as he skirted past us to get to the back of the truck. "The asshole who ignored your greeting is my brother, Brandon."
She flinched at that and let go. I'd meant it as a joke, but it came out angry. "I'll help you with your bags." Great, now she thought 'I' was the asshole. It was just my luck: I'd lost my life and my way with girls all at once. At least I wasn't gay; that'd have been too much. I followed her around to the back as Brandon dropped the tailgate.
"We'll get it; it'll only take a couple loads." Brandon started pulling out our bags.
"Men," she said in an exasperated tone and touched the tailgate. All the bags and boxes slid together and came to her. She put her hand against the closest bag and then lifted the whole truckload without even straining. "We're mutant's guys; you might as well get used to girls being just as powerful as the boys."
She stepped back and started up the stairs, leaving us staring after her with our mouths open. She looked back and grinned. "Nice to know I can still leave guys speechless. Come on B 'n B, I'll show you to the dorms."
I was going to have to get to know her better!

Ben and I hadn't roomed together since we were kids. It was weird being in the same room again. If it hadn't been for the fact that Ben hated me and I was feeling like the world's biggest loser, it'd have been great. Instead, I felt like I'd been exiled to Purgatory to await final judgment. To be honest, I was pretty certain that my soul wouldn't measure up. It sucked to think that, if I died, I was going to hell.
I couldn't stay around Ben for any period of time. Every time he looked at me I could feel his hurt and anger. It was like someone was continually yelling at me. We spent our first week taking aptitude tests, power exams, physical exams and such. Because our powers were so different from each other's, we were going to end up being in different classes. That was fine; I was beginning to have problems sleeping and I hoped that staying away from Ben would help. Whether it did or not, I'm not certain, but by the end of our first week at Xavier's, I was running from nightmares.
I was sitting in the lounge, on my third Dew, when I looked up to see this blond kid with the deepest blue eyes studying me. He was so cute; too young for me, but damn. "Hi, I'm Tyler." He stuck out his hand. It was then I realized that I couldn't read him.
"Brandon, Brandon Hanson." It was weird touching someone that I couldn't read. I had been able to read everyone since I was thirteen.
"Trouble sleeping?"
"Trouble not sleeping," I mumbled, downing the last of my Mountain Dew. "Nightmares."
"Oh," Tyler seemed to ponder that, "I've never had a nightmare. Well, not asleep anyway."
I noticed that he had some faded bruises on his face, similar to Kate's. That worried me. 'Tyler, why do you have bruises on your face?"
He flinched. "The last nightmare I had to live through." He looked haunted. "Someone tried to kill my best friends; I tried to stop her, but I couldn't."
I set down the can. "They died?"
He shook his head. "No, Dan saved us." The way he said 'Dan' was so filled of awe and faith that you'd have thought he was talking about God.
"Who's Dan?"
"He's my best friend." Tyler stood up. "Kate's too; I notice you're going to be in some training with her."
I nodded, and then did a double take. "How'd you know that?"
He shrugged. "I run the computers; I know everyone's schedule." He started down the hall. I don't know why, but I followed him.
"So, what are you doing up so late?" It was after one AM and Tyler didn't even look droopy.
"I don't sleep." The elevator doors opened without his touching the pad. That caught me off guard; the doors hadn't done that for me when I went to the labs for my physical. He caught my expression and grinned. "I'm a cyberpath: a technology-telepath. My friends call my Ty, but I'm thinking of going by 'Tech'."
I laughed. "Sounds like a code name or superhero identity." I stepped in with him.
He frowned at me; it was almost a pout. It was adorable how he did that. Flinching, I looked away. What the fuck was I thinking? He was only a kid; I'm not a fucking pedophile. "That's exactly what it is." His frown remained as he went toward the critical care ward. "You just don't understand."
He was offended. I couldn't read him but damn if short-stuff wasn't pissed. I didn't have any problem keeping up. I'm five-foot-eleven; Tyler was at best five-foot-six. He came to a set of security doors and waved. They opened into a dark room, lit only by monitors and scanning equipment. Near the center of the room was a restraint table with a guy on it. He had every kind of support and splinting device imaginable keeping him on the bed.
Beside him, asleep in a chair, was a gorgeous latin guy. He was draped against the bed, his fingers interlaced with the guy's on the bed. Maybe it was because he was asleep, but I staggered from the sudden wave of emotion that hit me. These guys were in love, not the hots, or lust, it was the soul binding, heart stopping shit you read about in books. I'd never actually met someone in love like that. There was so much pain in it, so much desperation, that I had to lean against the doorframe for a moment to catch my breath. I blinked past the tears to see Tyler shaking the guy's shoulder.
"Hey, Jeff..." Tyler smiled at the larger guy as he roused. The waves of emotion faded as he woke. I felt like I could breathe again. "You aren't going to be of any use to anyone if you keep sleeping in the chair." He waited, but Jeff didn't let go of the guy's hand. "It's my shift, Jeff. I'll wake you if anything changes."
Jeff gripped his lover's hand more tightly. "I can't leave him, Ty. I've got to be here when he wakes up." His voice was so tired and raw. He started crying. "I can't even fucking hold him."
Tyler let him cry. Jeff was holding onto Ty like he was Jeff's only life line. When the crying stopped, Tyler took his hand and pulled him to the bed just to the right of the restraint unit.
Jeff caught sight of me at the door. He looked wearily at Ty. "Who's that?"
Ty grinned. "New student, college prep..." He jerked his head for me to come in. "Brandon, this is Jeff, Dan's fiancé. Jeff, this is Brandon Hanson, new student."
Jeff wiped his eyes before extending his hand. "Sorry for the scene man."
I smiled and took. "Don't worry about it. If I had a guy I loved in intensive care, I'd be a wreck." It took me a moment to realize I'd just outed myself.
Jeff raised an eyebrow and grinned at Tyler. "Another one, huh?"
Tyler grinned back. "How the hell would I know? My gaydar hasn't kicked in yet."
Jeff mussed Tyler's hair. "You don't need it; you're a gay-magnet."
Blushing, Ty grunted as he looked at the floor, "Asshole."
Jeff slid onto the bed and sighed. "Nurse T is making me take a nap, Brandon."
Ty blushed further. "Keep it up, and I'll have the computers knock you out."
Jeff frowned. "I wish you could; I wouldn't have the nightmares."
I blinked. He looked so exhausted and haunted when he said that. I knew I probably shouldn't, but I moved closer as he settled back. "They'll go away."
Shrugging noncommittally, Jeff closed his eyes. "Yeah sure, some day."
I couldn't help it, the pain and exhaustion in his voice tore at me. I put my hand on his chest and willed him away. "I promise." He shuddered once and slipped into dreamland. As far as I was concerned, he wouldn't have anything but happy dreams as long as I could manage it.
Ty looked at me. "That's right, you're something weird; a dream-telepath?"
I nodded. "Something like that."

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